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Cause Borderlines Don't Cry...

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Boys Don't Cry doesn't get easier to watch.

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BPD culture is never forgetting the taste of the charcoal drink in the emergency room.

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My life right now is just waiting for my boyfriend to be homeless and me losing him and trying to hold it together and keep hope even though there seems to be no solutions. I'm just trying to get through the days these next three months until we see what exactly is going to happen. A lot of THC vaping for me.

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bpd culture is looking in the mirror and thinking, thats not me, thats not how i look on the inside, why do i look like this on the outside?

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This is completely random and unrelated to anything but the other day I was watching “isn’t it romantic”, an episode from Season 2 of golden girls where they have a lesbian character, and while I think the fact it was a single episode with a token lesbian to push the message that being a queer woman isn’t a bad thing is something that not as relevant to contemporary audiences, it amazes me that it’s honestly aged better than your average 2000s/early 2010 lesbian rep.

The most hated thing about 2000s lesbian rep is the “predatory lesbian” troupe. Think Cynthia-Rose Adams from pitch perfect chasing the other girl around while everyone is freaking out while she runs from her and blows her rape whistle, or Nicky Nicole’s and Big Boo from Orange is the New Black (I am saying this as an OITNB fan who loves these characters). Jean is presented as a sweet, harmless, caring woman who actively avoids doing anything that would make the other women uncomfortable, for example when Dorothy says they’ll share a bed because there isn’t enough rooms she instantly offers to sleep on the sofa, and when she ends up having to share a room with rose she admits her feelings for her before getting into the bed with her, and upon not getting a response decides to sleep on roses chaise lounge instead. She also decides to leave once she realises she’s developed feelings for rose, but when they discuss it rose isn’t afraid of her in the slightest and says she is fine with her staying unless Jean feels friendship alone with rose isn’t something she can live with, to which Jean responds that she would happily just be friends with rose.

There is also zero fetishisation from men, in fact I don’t think we see a man the whole episode. Not saying any lesbian movies should write off men, but it’s so refreshing to see lesbian portrayal completely removed from the male gaze.

A small thing but something else I liked- Dorothy admits she didn’t know if Rose would know what a lesbian was and she simply responded “well I could have looked it up!”, and when her and Jean discuss it she admits she doesn’t fully understand jeans feelings, but she recognises that she feels that way and that’s ok- PEOPLE WHO DONT KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT PRONOUNS AND DIFFERENT OR NEWER LABELS TAKE NOTES! You can simply google what something means and respect it without needing to know the nuisances!

I just think it’s wonderful how a show from 1986 made by and catered towards more middle aged/older watchers can beat modern shows with a younger target audience, and it really goes to show that having an open mind and simply accepting others means a lot more than being overly educated on such matters. Love golden girls

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My agoraphobia is the song Echoplex by Nine Inch Nails.

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Slipped up and self harmed after it had been months. I know my mom is gonna be upset because she's the one who gave me a knife for cooking but I had a bad meltdown the other day and felt I couldn't control myself. Now my arm looks like shit.

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Look, I'm okay with being in my twenties and thirties without a solid friend group and a coffee shop/bar we all hang out at. I'm okay with that lie. However, if I get to my sixties and seventies and I'm not living in a bungalow with three other women where we trade barbs and eat cheesecake at the kitchen table late at night, I will be livid.

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THE GOLDEN GIRLS (1985-1992) A Little Romance (S01E13)

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Iconic Golden Girls Things (as voted by you!)

#3: When Dorothy does the "look" (17.1%)

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Self-care is bingewatching Home Improvement on hulu

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I love it when my brain actually functions normally for like an hour every once in awhile. I don't know why or how it happens but every now and then my brain will allow me to briefly relax. Mental illness be wild.

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bpd + npd culture is me and my fp are the absolute best everyone else sucks why do i even need to interact with others?

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I've been scared of having to go back in the hospital if I lose my boyfriend. I don't ever want to be in the hospital again but I don't know how self destructive I will get if he ends up homeless and I lose him. I'm afraid of the suicide ideations coming back.