#bpd emotions

[abusedpixie]

𝐈 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩

𝐏𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩

𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐨 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐠𝐞𝐭.

[bunnieborderline]

[bpdcrybaby213]

It's so much easier to push people away. I don't want to feel anything. I want to turn off my emotions and self destruct. I refuse to feel grief or any strong emotion that I just don't want to feel. I'd rather not think about any of those emotions and just keep trying to destroy myself. I can't cope with real life. I'd rather make them hate me. My brain is telling me to push them away. And I can't stop it.

[lonerdoll]

i’ll always have extreme hate for myself no matter what

[pain-is-my-game]

I hate the persona that I've created after all this time. It's not who I want to be and at this point I don't know how to change it. The words that come out of my mouth are never things that I want to say. I only say what people expect of me. I don't think that I can ever be a full person. Just a hollow shell trying to act out a role that I never wanted in the first place.

[borderlinebeauty]

I wanna cry so badly. I feel so alone. I wanna scream. I wanna vent. I wanna be with you. But I know that I can’t. So instead I’ll continue to suffer. Suffer in silence. *immediately tears up and gasps* bro I hate this disorder so much. so fucking much.

[bpdcodone]

I feel like the worst person alive but simultaneously the most beautiful handsome man to walk the earth 🤪

Also I need my FP

[thefluoritebpd]

The biggest BPD shock (also ASPD & psychosis) I've experienced was probably when I walked away from a 1,5-year-long friendship in which I constantly had fights, arguments, triggers and splits going off, threats thrown around, and at the time I walked away, I had another friendship formed with a different system. And suddenly, I was barely splitting, like once a month, maybe? When I did, I was met with affection and love, I was way more stable, could communicate better, didn't question every single second whether these people loved me or not, psychosis wasn't going off nearly as much as it used to, and my anger issues seemed to just disappear, leaving me questioning whether I had them in the first place.

And eventually, I found out that people with BPD are a mirror of their loved ones, and was like: "Wait, hold up- I WAS NOT THE PROBLEM THE ENTIRE TIME?!?!?!"

@the-soup-system

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[x-x-bones-x-x]

BPD is so confusing. I don't want to be in another relationship again, I'm too afraid of them leaving me. But I want to have sex. I can't have casual sex though. Now I want more than that, I want to cuddle and be told that I'm precious and such a good girl. I want someone to tell me how good I'm doing and how proud they are of me. I want to cuddle someone to sleep while I'm wearing a t-shirt and they're completely naked. I want them to spoon me. But I'm too scared to be in another relationship. I can't deal with another person leaving me. I can't deal with anyone else, period. I'm tired of people. I'm tired of being used. I deserve to be alone. I deserve to rot. I deserve everything that comes to me but God damnit deep down I know I just want to be truly, purely, completely loved.

[intersex-idiots]

don't y'all just hate it when your fp has friends? and they talk to their friends? and about their friends? and post with their friends? and not you? and they're abandoning you for their friends? and you want their friends dead? and their friends have malicious intent? and their friends want to steal them from you? and they care about their friends more than you? and you want to die? and they forget about you? and you stop existing in their world? and their friends get more attention than you do? don't y'all just hate it? i hate it. i HATE it.

[abusedpixie]

𝐬𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐩𝐝*

[bpdcrybaby213]

I hurt myself because I can't hurt them. And something needs hurt. Something needs destroyed.

[samitrailer99]

I just don’t think you really understand it’s non stop.

[bpdgirls]

Last night i had the worst BPD outburst ive ever had hurting people i care about in the process..

the guilt is eating me alive

[bpdcodone]

I’m accepting you’ll never love me. Maybe this is all just the BPD on my end but I know I’m not worthy atleast it feels that way

[bunnieborderline]

To my fellow BPD followers.. I know alot of you struggle mentally but I wish you all the best and hopefully some of you will get a break this Christmas, you deserve it.

Happy Holidays Everyone!⛄

Here's hoping next year will be better for you all and remember.. If you're spending it with your abusive family members this year, no matter what they say, your feelings are always valid. Never forget your worth, stay strong!