theunknownbandito

[theunknownbandito]

As great as being smart might sound, it’s really more of a curse that a blessing. Especially if you have really strong ADD coming with it.

[theunknownbandito]

Every time i see that bullshit „it’s not like god intended“ argument, i just think, “why do you think you would know exactly what god intended? And are you implying that your so almighty god isn’t almighty enough to control his own creation?“

[theunknownbandito]

I don’t understand how on earth do many guys manage to get „side hoes“. I can’t even get a girl to like me...

[theunknownbandito]

One of the worst things about depression is that it makes you do things that just make you even more depressed...

[theunknownbandito]

Whenever i think about wether i’m depressed or not i keep feeling like i‘m just looking for attention, until i realise that that‘s literally a symptom of depression...

[theunknownbandito]

Oh how much I LOVE it when my brain refuses to go to sleep so i just lay there until 3 am completely conscious. And even better when it decides that an HOUR before my alarm goes is the best time to wake up!

[theunknownbandito]

I hate it when someone is lucky enough to get granted 3 wishes by a geenie and they wish for sth stupidly specific. Like fuck! Just wish for them to meke you omnipotent and you can do literally anything you fucking want. Without being limited to 3 wishes!

[theunknownbandito]

My brain does this funny thing where it brings up every bad decision i‘ve ever made and makes me hate myself...

And I‘m just like: „why u do this?!“

[theunknownbandito]

Just a few things about me, in case you’re interested... which you probably aren’t, but whatever...

I am obsessed with the band twenty one pilots, i love canoepolo and wildwater kayaking, i like fallout, Magic: The Gathering and R6S. I‘m german, but i go to school in england, there I am in Year13, and am doing Chemistry, Physics and Maths A-levels. I have very strong ADD and hate it, i have very strong anxiety and hate it. My habits include: having a terrible handwriting, having crushes on girls that are lightyears out of my league, ruining relationships, having problems keeping friends and making terrible decisions late at night. I love dark humour, memes and terrible puns. I have problems sleeping at night. I love pineapple on pizza but despise ginger (the root, not the haircolour). I collect pocket knives, have a weird sense of humour and 0 social skills.

[theunknownbandito]

I hate being alone in the dark,

It brings out the bad thoughts.

I can’t sleep,

Every night, I go to bed at 9:30 but don’t sleep until 2:00am or even later.

I can’t stop thinking about how much I hate myself and how much of an idiot and coward I am.

Why can’t I just turn my brain off?!

[theunknownbandito]

Thoughts

I hate being me and what I am. I would trade being smart against being able to socialise like a normal person any day. I wish I could feel emotions like a normal person. Interact with others like a normal person. I wish i didn’t waste my year 11 behind my fucking computer. I hate myself for being ”the weird kid“. I hate to be so calculating, so shy, so antisocial. I can’t sleep at night and all my mistakes of the last years just wash over me, making me hate myself more and more for not being normal...

...normal...

...normal...

...just normal....