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[theycallmeyammy]

Sometimes I catch a hint of you on the wind

And it stops me dead in my tracks

Like a bolt of lightning

You flash before my eyes

Inescapable

The reminiscing of your scent

Something so primal

I’ll never truly be rid of you

You hide in the rays of sunlight

The gusts of wind

The whisper of you

All around me

[theycallmeyammy]

My delusions has me so dangerously ensnared with you I failed to realize what a fake you are.

The constant need to feed off of the attention of others, rivals a vampires thirst for blood.

You may think you work in subtleties but your motives are laid out for the world to see.

What are you trying to prove?

What are you trying to gain?

She doesn’t want you back. How many years must you flaunt yourself before you realize this.

It doesn’t matter how you mold yourself into what she wants

She

Isn’t

Coming

Back

She doesn’t want you.

You cannot see the plain hard truth in front of you. It’s sad to see really.

I see it in myself though too.

I had been doing the exact same thing for you.

But you don’t really want me,

You never will

And I’m not going to compete with your ghosts.

[theycallmeyammy]

Turns out my idealized version of you doesn’t exist. You’re just another loser I embellished to make more interesting. The display of ego should’ve been the first red flag. Men are never what they seem.

[theycallmeyammy]

I gave up so many things

When you left

I abandoned them all

Every piece of me was stained with you

Me Indistinguishable from you

I had to carve down to the bone

To get you out

And rebuild from there

I don’t know how it didn’t kill me

But I survived

And I would do it again

If I had to

[theycallmeyammy]

The last thread

Had dangled there

Unsuspecting

For three years

Turning in the wind

Yesterday

It glimmered in the light

And

Caught your eye

You took the knife

And set me free at last

[theycallmeyammy]

I don’t think you understand,

I would burn the world down

To prove you wrong.

[theycallmeyammy]

Ghosts of you pass me by

In the hallway lines

I stare ahead

But always mislead

Your gaze draws me in

I drown

With my last gasping breath

I thank you

[theycallmeyammy]

Who wants to be girl best friends and all live on a big plot of land together and raise chickens and bake bread and garden together

[theycallmeyammy]

Years had passed

But I still found you there

Between the folds of my mind

Burrowed in too deep to flush out

The loneliest place

Can be when we’re surrounded by others

Yet still completely alone

I remember that’s how it felt at the end with you

Now the waves roll in

And I stand steady on the shores

Reminiscing of your face

Your laugh haunting me between the waves

I learned to swim

With my hands tied behind my back

Strong legs pushing me forward

The weight of you dragging me down

[theycallmeyammy]

I’m sick of the ones that hold you tight in private

But cut you down in public

Playful teasing has its limit

You’re just a bully

What a shame

[theycallmeyammy]

Funny

I still catch glimpses of you

The light flickers just right

Off of the dark pools of your eyes

There’s a twinkle there

Knowing you’d still like to wrap yourself around me

And I can’t help but feel the flutter

In my heart

After all you were the first one to show me

What a man really does

The only one that lived up to the hype

[theycallmeyammy]

We Never Made It Off the Ground

I could’ve laid

Wrapped around you

For all eternity

It wasn’t just me

But you

And I

Entangled for endless hours

This is the love that I want

Uncomplicated

Easy

Feeling

Soft

Wrapped up in each others comfort

Calmness soothing the hurt

That had sliced too deep

Healing

[theycallmeyammy]

It’s crazy how quickly things change

From hot and then to cold

One minute I’m wrapped around you

Forcing myself not to be bold

And the next your demeanor

Chills me down to the bone

Is this how it goes when you set up a boundary

Invisible but solid as stone

It’s funny how doing what’s right for me

Seemed to really fuck with you

Sorry I couldn’t heal you by giving away my love

But things always change after and I wasn’t ready for all the above

You only proved me right by acting that way

This time you didn’t touch me

And I guess that’s all I can say

Regardless of what you give they will take

Take

Take it all away

[theycallmeyammy]

It’s funny how I feel this guilt now

Your pessimism over powering the room

Was it something that I said

Or something that I didn’t do

That upset you?

The mood shift is palpable

And I’m wondering why?

Normally when you like a girl

You don’t want her to cry

You’re just another complication

Not worth the time

If I wanted to feel bad about myself

I didn’t need your help

[theycallmeyammy]

What was the difference

Between her and I

She seems to be the shadow

Of mine

Even after all this time

When you fell

was it for her

Or her likeness of me?

Is she what you had hoped I was

All those years ago?

Is she still

What you pictured?

Or will you toss her aside too

When you realize

The problem is you.

[theycallmeyammy]

sorry for responding to your text that fast. the love in my heart for you is so loud

[theycallmeyammy]

I reread my words to remember why you are no good

what did I ever see in you?