thornedmind - Tumblr blog

[thornedmind]

Have you ever felt shame for feeling something, because it's just too much and not how another person wants you to act in that particular situation? Have you ever been blamed for having a weird opinion on something, because it's not how another person sees it? I'm so confused. It never matter what I do, it's just wrong. I laugh too loud, I'm mad just to cause drama, I'm wrong. I know I wasn't wrong last time, and I start to believe I'm not wrong this time either. I can feel it in every piece of my body, it eats me up from inside not being able to ask you. I know you will lie, with a straight face, and then blame your actions on me. It was always your choice, not mine. You created me, happy birthday Sweetheart.

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To see him in the doldrums makes me wonder where he is, he's looking at me but I don't feel seen. It's like he's looking through me, at someone else. We was here a few months ago, time's passing by like nothing has changed, but it has. Everything has, and we both can feel it. My feelings for him is nothing I have ever felt before, I love him. I hear his footsteps, but he's not here. Boy, where are you? I love you, I miss you. Do you see me yet? I'm a ghost, with your body all over me. I love your warmth, I love all of you, do you love all of me? Is this an illusion? Where am I, and where am I going? I am home, I am going towards our future. Behold, as I fight my way to reach us. Please, grab me when I fall. I know you can feel it too.

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Today it's Tuesday. Today. Just a day. Like any other day.

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I got this popup message from Tumblr asking me what gets me excited of life. My first thought was that it had to be a joke, my second thought was that life is a joke. Let's face it; reality. There's people disappearing every day, murders, rape, even war! Here we are asking what gets us excited for life. I bet no one has ever woke up in the morning feeling happy about all the shit going on in this world, our world. You might ask why I had to point out that it's our world, and I will tell you why, it's simple. We, as in the humans living on this planet, are also responsible for it. I don't say that we are responsible for everything that everyone does, but in the end we are responsible together to make everyone feel safe, be healthy etc. Everyone needs to play their part though, and far from everyone does. What gets me excited of life? Nothing. This world are not a place for the living but the dying, we're just passing by and will be traumatized once we finally leave.

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What if you're not pretty or dying?

Well... Then no one cares.

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Sometimes I wonder if life is just a waste of time?

What comes next must be awesome.

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Have you ever hurt someone you love?

Only to notice it's not the first time?

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It's fascinating how something so small can make you feel so big.

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There is something magnificent with these animals.