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So, it's not a doodle in a sense...

I got my new sketchbook and decided to try some sigil work to start her off right. They were fun to design <3

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It took a bit, but I finished this piece.

This is my first finished and posted piece off of my tablet EVER.

I’m still figuring things out, but I’m making progress.

These two are from the Arcana game.  Julian is a character you can romance, and that is my MC, Peregrine, aka Greenie.  I don’t know how much of them will end up on my doodle blog because I’m going to be posting their story, art, and all sorts of head cannon stuff on an Arcana specific blog: @arcanamcgreenie

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So if I'm gonna do this, I should do it right. This was my style and skill at the peak of my high school artistry. Tis crap, but it's my nostalgic crap.

I doubt anyone here will recognize it from DA, but for that one person, I used to go by "witchywinnie" and later "upgraded" to the pen name Alice Phell.

In all honestly, I like my pen name, so if I ever dove back into writing I'm sure that name will come back. For now I go by Titania for the family joke that I am some mystical, fantasy being that my best friend's kids call "auntie." I literally wear a witch hat on a regular basis and my headphones are elf ears, so yeah, I'm that cookey aunt.

If you want to see more than my crappy art, such as pictures, personal funny stories, fandoms, and whatever else I find interesting enough to reblog, you can pop over to my main blog @auntietitania

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Getting back in

I used to doodle A LOT in high school. Like a lot a lot, like, that was one of the things my friends knew me for.

I was never really good, but I at least had enough pride in my work to post on deviantart and had my own drawings all over my binders and notebooks. They lead to me writing stories, creating original characters, fan art, and even though I wasnt awesome, it made me happy.

Then college happened. The stress, the anxiety, the depression, all of it made me think of my darwings as shit unless I could dedicate hours to it, hours I didnt have. I spent the first 18 years of my life with a pencil in my hand drawing whatever hit my fancy or whatever prompt someone could give me... And in just 4 years, I lost that.

I graduated 5 years ago and in last last few months, I felt my spark coming back, finally. And I can thank my kids for this. Those kids I teach, there are so many young artists showing me their work, which btw is much better than mine, but it's so inspiring. I used to be that kid. I want to be that kid again.

I started seeing a therapist a couple years ago, and I got diagnosed with ADD borderline ADHD that was apparently so obvious that literally, first session, about 15 minutes in, she asked me "when did you get diagnosed with your ADD?"

Never? I was 25 and she was shocked. She asked me if I got in trouble a lot as a kid, bad grades, or just had a lot of trouble focusing, and I explained that I used to get called out for drawing all the time. I was, according to her, self medicating in this way. Then college hit, I lost that spark and next thing I know I'm an anxiety ridden mess that can't function without crying while I finish assignments in the final hour.

I'm doing better, so much better. I actually went on adderal in this last month and I've been doodling up a storm. I'm gonna take full advantage of it.

My art isn't amazing. I honestly hate finishing stuff cause I ruin cute sketches with bad inking amd coloring. Ive been trying on my tablet, but it's a little LG not intended for drawing and I'm still figuring out the Autodesk app. But, I going to jump back into my high school life a little. My nails are black again, I've got new notebooks, falloutboy and mcr on my Pandora, and I'm making time for me :)