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The weird part about tattoos is that I often forget I have them and scare myself when I randomly see them

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I felt called out for this one

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Oh the age ol question of talking to my therapist or getting a new tattoo 🤔

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I’ve spent my life going to these white Christian ladies as my therapist and feeling like I had to censor myself, censor my gay, censor my non-heaven/hell beliefs. My most recent therapist who isn’t white or Christian has helped me so much to uncensor myself. She asked my beliefs about death and I shared how I feel we just move on to the next like, the next adventures. She asked if it brought me comfort to which I responded “more then heaven and hell does” to which she laughed and agreed. I have never felt more seen, heard and understood then in that moment.

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I asked a friend of mine who’s trans how they knew and hearing my life in their story was so comforting but also terrifying. I want to skip to the good part and knowing the answer but it’s a journey that I have to go though and figure out who I am

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“Sending love to anyone who had to put on someone else’s clothes & agree to answer to a name that isn’t theirs in order to go home today. Sending love, as well, to everyone who isn’t welcome home because they refuse to do so.”

-   💀 Red Durkin 💀‏

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Just because you don’t know something about your identity (gender, sexuality or whatever) doesn’t make that identity any less valid. You aren’t any less trans because you don’t know the complete history, you aren’t any less bisexual because you don’t know everything on the topic. Just because you are something doesn’t mean you have to become an expert to prove yourself to anyone else. No one questions when someone with a physical health condition doesn’t know everything about it but people will find any excuse to demoralise someone LGBTQIA+. Don’t let someone make you feel invalid because you don’t reach their idealistic (and often wrong) conceptions about what someone should know about themselves.

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I am healing for me.

I am not healing for work. I am not healing to return to being a productive member of society.

I am healing for my own stability, wellness, health and contentment.

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Self-care is choosing what my soul needs over what my ego wants.

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Hi! I’m new here! Well not new but it’s been like 6 years! I honestly joined again to get support and community as I figure out my gender. I’m just here for the chaos!

For now my pronouns are she/her, I identify as lesbian.

I don’t struggle with depression, depression struggles with me. And I work as a nurse!