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I have one(1) post on here that intermittently gets popular and circles around, which then prompts a few accounts to go through my blog and reply in the notes of most of my text posts. If you are one of those blogs: this message is for you. I don’t read through notes on here nor have I been active on tumblr for several years. I do not care that you disagree, the great thing about evidence-based practice is that it doesn’t matter.

But being trans is still a medical condition that requires medical care to treat Gender Dysphpria.

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A bit over 3.5 years post op (3 years post revision) top surgery with Dr. Fischer in Maryland. Hybrid procedure of peri-areolar with lateral extensions for excess skin from poor elasticity. - Almost six months away from RFF phalloplasty and 1 year in to hair removal for donor site (forearm of un-braceleted arm).

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“you don’t need dysphoria to be trans”

Doctor: can u explain to me how u feel so I know how to diagnose u

Tucute: I just feel trans. I just know

Doctor: so u have dysphoria?

Tucute: no?? U don’t need dysphoria to be trans??? U don’t understand ur cis????

Doctor: ok u can leave now

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Johns Hopkins- gender affirmation surgery

I have been searching for results and/or experiences with Johns Hopkins Center for Transgender Health but have come up rather short, most likely due to their novelty. If anyone has had (or had a consult for) bottom surgery through Dr. O’Brien-Coon and could link me with results or discuss privately, that would be greatly appreciated!

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What do we have to gain by demedicalizing transgenderism?

By demedicalizing it here are some things we could potentially lose:

Insurance coverage for HRT and GRS procedures Vital mental health treatment The ability to change our names and gender markers on our IDs and legal documents Support and understanding from those around us The ability to inform others that it’s not a choice (because demedicalizing it makes it looks like the opposite) The ability to not have transition be seen as nothing more than an unnecessary and bizarre cosmetic procedure (which could very well lead doctors to not want to help us transition or could cause us to be alienated by others for making such a “weird” choice) The right to seek justice if we are discriminated against  Not being seen as a trend, fad, or fashion statement Being able to successfully and convincingly live our lives as the gender we identify with And many many more.  This is an honest question, what do you think we could actually gain from this, if anything? Also feel free to add anymore losses because I’m sure I’ve missed a lot of things.

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actual transphobia: being denied jobs for being trans, being fired from jobs once they know you’re trans, being kicked out of your home for being trans, being denied basic human rights for being trans, being beaten up or killed for being trans, etc

not transphobia: someone misgendering you on ACCIDENT, saying you need dysphoria to be trans, disagreeing with someone who happens to be trans, having your own differing opinions, etc

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Having to go through therapy before getting HRT and surgery isn’t gatekeeping lmao. It’s medical proffesionals helping you decide what’s best for you and helping you be ready. Saying you need dysphoria to transition also isn’t gatekeeping. Gatekeeping is when medical professionals refuse to let you transition on the basis of being gay or gnc. Also other trans people literally do not have the power to gatekeep. Shut up about gatekeeping seriously. “They said i have to be attracted to the same sex to be gay! THAT’S GATEKEEPING! THOSE BIGOTS!”

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Anyway the lives of dysphoric people matter more than the feelings of nondysphoric specialgenders.

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To all you women out there proudly proclaiming you’re not “feminists”: Joan Clarke was not permitted to receive a full degree at Cambridge even though she earned a double first in mathematics, because full degrees were bestowed only upon men. This policy did not change until 1948. 19-fucking-48.

So when you are stomping around your college or university proudly decrying your distaste for the filthy word “ feminist”, perhaps take half a moment to be thankful to all the feminists who made it possible for you to earn your degree in the first place.

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Mom, Dad … I’m straight … but I’m only sexually attracted to my girlfriend after getting to know her… god I’m so glad I got that off my chest please don’t kick me out

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afab demigirls and amab demiboys are…. how do u say…….. Cis

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someone: trans people don’t require dysphoria because a lot of them *literally describes dysphoria but calls it euphoria for some reason*

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Quick question: what did you mean when you said you didn't have to completely remove the prosthetic and reapply the adhesive? I just got my emisil and am going to be using adhesive so I just wanted that clarified.

I am sorry I am just getting to this! What I meant was that you can shower with the prosthetic adhered and just wash yourself and behind the prosthetic while the tab is still attached, without losing much adhesion. You can also take the prosthetic off your skin and wash it and yourself, without using adhesive remover, then reapply with only one coat of the thinner formula. And while on this topic, I thought I should mention that the adhesives are very water resistant and you can swim with no loss of hold. I sail small boats and spend a lot of time swimming and moving rigorously in the river without any worry.

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Factor 2 adhesives: BT-461 vs. BT-460

I have not seen many reviews of Factor II adhesives or comparisons between their products, so I thought I’d contribute. I recently purchased BT-461 along side BT-460, in order to try it out. BT-460 is what is recommended by Emisil prosthetics and other companies, this is the undiluted “extra thick” formula. BT-461 is a much thinner formula of the same adhesive, at nearly half the cost. I decided to try the thinner formula because the Factor 2 site lists both with “medium” tack and they are the same active adhesive. I used about three coats of BT-461 on my Emisil prosthetic where I would have used one coat of BT-460.

I found BT-461 to be comparable in adhesion, especially with boxer briefs. This thinner formula was also much easier to apply and to remove with solvent. I do think BT-460 has slightly more resistance to pull, so for vigorous activity or long term free-ballin this formula may be better. I bought twice the amount of BT-461 to BT-460 and have found the most comfortable wear to be when using a little BT-460 along the tab and BT-461 elsewhere and on the tab. I experienced a lot of skin irritation with BT-460 when using this formula as sole adhesion, so finding that BT-461 adhered just as well with significantly less irritation was great. I find BT-461 to be more comfortable for daily use, less of an odor, and I think oz per oz, the BT-461 will last longer than the BT-460. Another benefit of course is that BT-461 is much cheaper than BT-460, so it may be a good option for those on a budget (everyone).

Some additional notes about Factor 2 adhesives; the company sends out orders fairly quickly (I received my orders within a week or less, both times ordering with different products and quantities). I would suggest ordering the largest size solvent (16 oz) because it is oil based so this will allow you to use an ample amount. It should also be noted that you do not necessarily need to completely remove and then recoat your prosthetic in order to adhere another day, you can simply remove the prosthetic and wash yourself and the prosthetic then reapply. I went through way too much BT-460 on my first order because I didn’t really realize this until I was already ¾ of the way through the 1 oz.

TL;DR: BT-461 is a cheaper, thinner, more user friendly formula of the same adhesive as BT-460 from Factor 2 adhesives and adheres comparably when using two to three coats.  

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Personal update: Step one (and a half)

So I've had my consult and secured a date for early 2019 in Texas for RFF phalloplasty with Dr. Crane. That's pretty exciting and though it seems far away, I know in the larger picture it is much sooner than it seems right now.

I have started electrolysis on my right arm (left handed) and the first day after treatment was odd to get used to a hairless arm. It will grow back, with 10-15% reduction, but I guess it is almost a taste of what it will be like to have one forearm noticeably different from the other.

I had the opportunity of sorts to schedule my surgery for the end of this year due to a cancellation, it was tempting because I am very impatient and my school has a winter session so there are about 2 months where I am off of school and could recover. I looked through logistics and had to be honest with myself that this timeline would be impractical and I'd likely not be mentally prepared let alone financially and logistically. There would also be entering the spring semester with a large scar and possibly limited mobility which I'd rather not have to explain to all of UD. Bummer, but I just gotta remember that I am making strides to completing my transition and I will have so much time after surgery to feel as though this is the way I've always lived, in comparison to my time waiting.

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there is this idea that stealth is only an option for people if you are not in a safe environment but can we acknowledge that some people are stealth simply because they want to be?

we want to live our lives quietly as the sex we should have been born as and not have this trans label pinned to our back 24/7. we don’t want people to know we are trans.

we don’t have to be visibly trans. we come out to whoever we want and if we decide to never come out, that is our personal choice.

some of us don’t want to educate people or be your local political activist, we just want to live our lives stress free.

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Bringing this back because nothing has changed two years later and insurance coverage is only more at risk.

Steal my work, idc

I’ve decided to post my research paper publicly (especially in light of things said by a friend of mine) to lay out exactly why and how appropriative Cis individuals are hurting the trans community, and the detriment that the left-wing “trans movement” is causing. Though I focus my terms (for ease really) on Transsexual/Transgender people, this paper is at root addressing dysphoric vs non-dysphoric people. I have a lot more in depth analysis on this topic but keep in mind I wanted it to be accessible and had a word limit.   

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