unconventialchaosandlove

[unconventialchaosandlove]

[unconventialchaosandlove]

Nothing compares to your beauty inside and out

I look at you and get a glimpse of freedom when you're in front of me

Birds sing in chorus when you speak

The sun smiles and shines on just to illuminate those eyes once more

The stars and moon long to be your muse for you create a masterpiece with your mind

And the flowers long to be as beautiful as you

For you are true art and fill me with curiosity and wonder

You fill my heart with warmth and start the fire in my soul once again

The world bows to you yet you dont see it

For without you the world would be such an ordinary place, fill it with colour and paint me a picture with your smile

Never stop being you

Another original piece by me

[unconventialchaosandlove]

[unconventialchaosandlove]

I may not be the one you marry,

but in about 20 years from now when you're listening to songs that remind you of a time I was always so willing to be yours

and you sip on a drink that tastes of regret burns like hellfire as it slides down your throat

you'll look over at the person you settled for and realise how much you fucked up, and realise how the future could of been perfect

but you didn't want me then and now you do, because you realise how good you had it

and how that person you settled for wouldn't try to move heaven and earth for you

see I was just the person you clung to for a while, until you realised you loved me after all

and now it's too late because the love I had for you is all burnt out not a flame left but an ember flickering in the remains of my cold broken heart with the pain you left festering in my dark brown eyes that you wish you could love again

they no longer bare warmth for you, just a ghostly trace of bitter reminiscence, my heart will be nobodies to break, to squander, to use and use until it has nothing to give

I will never be a shell of a person I will prosper and you will wish you never let go of my hand so fuck you for not realising I was good enough

fuck you for all the pain, the sorrow, the hurt.

For the times I spent crying and wishing I didn't feel at all

You caused this, you caused me to be so fucking unlovable that I am no longer anyones fucking home

I'm too difficult to love, and that's on you, how does my pain taste in your mouth is it bitter? I fucking hope so,

does it sting when you trace the places I used to leave electricity, well fuck you fuck every single fucking person that hurt me to the point where I don't know how to fucking function

because I will fix myself and I will fucking learn how to function and be a good person and make someone happy to be with me I will not sink because of you

I'll show you what you will miss by living it out with someone i love so sip on the whiskey that tastes of pain and regret because it will burn eternally

So this one is something I wrote when I was hurting a lot because of someone who was supposed to love me, it's a very angry poem but I feel like some people may be able to relate

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I dont want to think anymore

Dont want to be on the brink anymore

Because I'm always on the cusp of insanity I hate my brain it's always so abrupt, never any clarity

Wishing I could find my sanity

I think I left it somewhere,

They say the medication will help me find it but it makes things hazy

I'm already crazy, you cant fix whats already broken

And in the silence and the madness these words will never be spoken

If time is money then I'm broke

At this point my life is a very sad joke

But nobody is laughing not even me

For once I'd like to be happy I think I'd feel free, but my minds like an ocean vast and unknown, and if these thoughts were weights I'd be sinking, I just want to escape and stop thinking

Another one of my poems this one is quite personal but I wanted people to see them sp here

[unconventialchaosandlove]

I used to be afraid of the dark

The unknown

But now the nights bring me peace as sounds of rushing traffic sing me to sleep and the dark envelops me in a hug

The monsters under the bed keep my lonely heart company only they arent under my bed but in my head,

But they're all I have until you come back to me and sing me to sleep again.

This one isn't too good but I'm starting to get back into writing so please dont judge

[unconventialchaosandlove]

The ballad of the broken boy

Feeling lost, and unknown, is there a way back from this, from you? I feel so fucking broken, why did you have to destroy me just because you were crumbling too? I was already on self destruct, you took who I was and told me you didn't like it, so i changed and you didn't like that either, and you tore me apart to a point where I don't even know how to love myself anymore, I hope you can sleep at night knowing you broke a boy that would never of done you wrong, but now it's just a ballad of a broken boy, nobody is going to want to get close because now I hurt the people that want to care because you shattered me, I hate you, but I hate that I don't hate you, I hate that you make me so angry that I want to hurt you because that isn't fucking me, I hate you I really do

And to the next girl that wants to love me, I'm sorry.

Sorry I'm so insecure

Sorry I'm so closed off

Sorry I'm always so sad

Sorry my soul is mixed with art and chaos a macabre situation of the death of who I was holds me now, I'm hard to reach but if you try I won't disappoint you

I'm sorry I hurt so much

I'm sorry I'm so fucked up

I'm losing the strength I once I had to love blindly

I don't mean to be so isolated

But that's how I keep myself safe now

Everyone breaks me, and then they leave because they don't like what I am anymore

I want to love you, I want to love you blindly, but I'm afraid, I don't want to hurt anymore

Please don't give up

P L E A S E

Another original piece by me

[unconventialchaosandlove]

I often ask myself what love feels like anymore.

How do I even know what it feels like it's like I've long since forgotten to be honest

But love feels like waking up next to you with barely any room in my bed and staring at you and taking in your beauty

Love is giving you the last of my food because it makes you smile

It's making sure you're always warm enough at night

Its feeling like its Christmas and im 9 again full of excitement when I hear you outside

It's the way your kiss fills me with joy and breathes new life into me

Love is loving me even when you know I'm broken

Love is you in all your forms and all your ways and quirks

When I wanted to find love I found you

Deep in your eyes where safety holds me and greets me with a smile like deep pools that make the ocean look like comfort with no fear

You are safety and warmth

You are art

Most of all you are love

My love.

An original piece of poetry I wrote called what love feels like

[unconventialchaosandlove]

And god do I love you, I'd let you break me a million times just to see those eyes,

And I often ask myself why?

The answer is some people are just worth hurting for no matter how bad it gets

[unconventialchaosandlove]

This town feels like a ghost town without you and I feel like a ghost too.

[unconventialchaosandlove]

Palo Alto (2013)

[unconventialchaosandlove]

Please dont cry

I know the chaos in your head is tearing you apart

But it wont be like this forever darling it'll be okay.

[unconventialchaosandlove]

[unconventialchaosandlove]

I wish on every 11:11, every passing satellite that I pretend is a shooting star, every floating dandelion that you will come back to me and things will be okay again until then, I wish for a better year

[unconventialchaosandlove]

via weheartit

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Idk man I just thought it was funny

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all the universe inside you <3