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twitter is currently full of people shaming fics and it's actually frustrating me so much because. imagine you're walking through an area and you come across an interesting building. you decide to walk in completely of your own volition. and inside there is someone else. they work There but they don't work For You and actually. actually. it can't be called work at all because they're not getting paid. now imagine you don't ask for any food but that person is already making something for themselves and they decide to make some for you too. they give you the food. and then they leave.

that's it. that's the entire interaction.

you take a bite of the food. whether or not you like it is outside of anyone's control. but here's the thing: the person who made the food isn't standing over you and demanding that you finish the scraps. if you don't like the food then all you have to do is leave. maybe it's the tomatoes, the sauce, the lettuce; it doesn't matter because if you don't want it then you Don't Have To Have It. and the person who made it will never know because you are not the first person to come inside this building and you will not be the last. there is going to be someone who will come inside and take their own taste and love it so much they eat their own share and then eat the food you left behind because they want more.

and it's. it's that easy.

yeah, fanfics aren't always going to compete for the world's best prose or what-the-hell-ever. but someone still made this for themselves with so much love and they decided to SHARE IT because they think other people might want that love too. my mother never worked as a professional chef but i love the dinner she makes all the same. it doesn't have to be some intricate masterpiece. if you don't like it then you can walk out. you can hit the back button.

to call fanfic "fast-food" or boil it down to "kpop omegaverse" is to make the choice to stand up, find the person who made you a bowl of soup full of love and care and tenderness and time, and yell that it tastes awful and they need to try harder.

so yeah, it IS pretentious to try and put "real books" above fanfiction when you're doing it insultingly. sure, there are good things to be gathered from classic literature. but there are things that can be collected from fanfiction, too. the two mediums can coexist as separate forms of writing. they don't need to be compared. a fancy steak dinner might impress my taste buds but a bowl of chicken noodle soup will warm me inside and out.

people who enjoy fanfiction are finding love in the nooks and crannies they enjoy being curled up in. conversely, people who enjoy published literature are finding love in new and exciting places. neither version of finding happiness is intellectually or morally higher than the other

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lcf au where krs gets sent to newborn cale henituse's body but like. only at night. and no one finds out for 18 years because krs always takes control of the body and then immediately goes to bed. even cale doesn't know until he starts "waking up" in places he doesn't remember being in and there's a weird black haired kid who SWEARS they met at the outskirts of the territory last night but cale knows for a fact that NEVER happened to him. except it did apparently

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deleting my entire calendar to read this rn

Uhhh I may have worked up the courage to post an original??

Heir to the Dragon God (Original work)

Rating: Mature (eventual explicit content)

Warnings given on relevant chapters

Initial 3 chapters will be uploaded today. After that, once per week until backlog is fully posted, from there it's just me trying my best 👍

Chapter 1 word count: 5,040

Subsequent chapters: 2k–5k

Genre: Fantasy with time travel/transmigration elements

Arryn Enderson is the son of a country Baron, the good Baron Weiss. He's brash and violent, but it was fine because he's not the heir. [...] Arryn Enderson was the son of the former Baron Weiss. The family was accused of illegal dealings with a rival nation and fell to ruin. Arryn learned a lot of things, things he'd rather not learn, continuing to live in some form until, abruptly, the world ended. Riél d'Solis was born to shine, but the world had other plans. The world creates beautiful things only to destroy them. If that’s so, then perhaps, if I destroy this terrible world, a more beautiful one will come in its stead? The divine fires of the God of Flame's incarnate consumed the world, and reduced all to ash. In the wreckage, when he heard the toll of a Divine Oracle, even Arryn, this bitter cynic, couldn't help but make a wish. “…I don’t want everything to end like this.” A second chance, and this time, he'll do it right. He'll quietly protect his family, and just send some ominous letters to powerful people... Wait, why are you piling fortune teller skills on me? And what the hell is a "System?" Aren't you a Miracle? —inspired by TCF, ORV, and tGED

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64140991/chapters/164584408

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AAAAA GOD BLESS THAT'S AMAZING THANK YOU SO MUCH

does uh. does anyone perchance have a list of all the chapters with canon cale whump (like him coughing up blood, crying, fainting, etc)

i need something to reference for the timeline since i lack the time to reread lcf rn 😭😭

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does uh. does anyone perchance have a list of all the chapters with canon cale whump (like him coughing up blood, crying, fainting, etc)

i need something to reference for the timeline since i lack the time to reread lcf rn 😭😭

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YOU’RE STILL A WRITER IF:

you don’t write every day or every week

you haven’t been able to write in a few months

this is your first story or your hundredth 

you never finish a book 

you are completely unpublished

All you gotta do is write!

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HAHA REAL AND TRUE. i fear their banter is too strong and their brains too big to allow much else

as an asexual i am horrified to say this but as an ao3 author and reader it is my duty: i need more fics of cale getting railed. specifically by alver/alberu and over a's desk.

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genuinely i think the thing every writer needs most is a friend. i'm so serious. especially new writers who are terrified of creating something that might be "bad" - you NEED at least a friend or two you can show your writing to who will hype you up. because there is always going to be someone in your corner, there's always going to be someone to see the value in your work and your words even if you can't see it yourself!! i think a lot of people give up on writing because they're so afraid to share it, which is totally valid! but that's why you have to figure out who you trust to support you!! i kid you not, having someone to read your stuff and hype you up will work wonders for your confidence, and eventually you will be able to believe them when they tell you that you're doing well

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wrote 3k words today. all of it was cale suffering but we are approachingresolution and comfort

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i got laid off but that's okay because it gives me extra time to write

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Friendly reminder to not punish yourself for creating. 

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while i adore how much lcf content there is, the sheer amount does make it a wee bit difficult for when i'm trying to write a fic that vaguely follows the same timeline. if only i had record myself and could not only (re)read it in an hour, but also remember everything w/o fail

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YOOOOO I RLY LOVED YOUR LATEST FIC WITH THE TOUCH STARVED CALE!!!! 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 I love them, your honor...

AAAA THANK YOU SO MUCH small spoiler, i actually... have more planned for that fic... i don't know if i'll ever finish and post it but i wanted cale to get some real hugs so uh. be on the lookout maybe?

(also hello?? i followed you like fifteen minutes ago and then u show up in my inbox) (salaapaoo i love ur work)

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boop!

Kim Rok Soo is a Book.

He's of blank pages, worn-out leather covers and reddish rims. He is an ownerless diary, sat and deserted, pummeled beneath a pile of unwanted fellows. His pages firmly shut, dust gathered around the edge. Above, somewhere beyond the towering books and splattered parchments, mundane chatter bounced one after another.

The shelves stood tall. Kim Rok Soo could not bask under the sunlight it had dutifully guarded. Birds occasionally chirping just outside of the windows, lively, and free.

Summer. Autumn. Winter. Spring.

The season continues to come and go, and amidst all the silence Kim Rok Soo seemed to melt against the cold flooring. Humans never reach so far to his place, he, and all these books, were those of failed outcomes. Undesirable. They wait and wait and wait in compliance and awareness of the time that would give them salvation. To the spread of magical fire, kind, merciful and benevolent, disintegrate their covers, their rims, their pages.

Kim Rok Soo aged along with the cries and resignations of his friends. He welcomed more recent, momentary resident, congratulated their departure and hoped for the care their owner would give them afterwards. His reassurance had long lost its hue for older fellows who stayed and never again displayed amongst the proud and the wanted, they had all given up, despaired laughter before utter silence, he... might reach that state soon, as well.

The moment callous hands stroked his covers one morning, Kim Rok Soo wondered if it was his end. He no longer possessed a heart, yet he found himself feeling upset. This was, his life here was, meaningless until the very last moment.

"You sure with your choice, Young Lady? There's a lot of shiny books you can get."

The human coaxed, puzzled and imploring, and he knew his worth was less than a penny at the question. Kim Rok Soo do not blame the human, he understands the little girl before them should have only the best. Kim Rok Soo was not.

"Nope! This is shiny for me, this is precious."

He had dreaded the red hovering before him as fire. He had expected the warmth to burn.

A name was pared on his covers. Delicate and loving, he was held with a smile and affection.

The little girl was named Jour Thames.

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a little sneak peek

and if i said that my current lcf wip contains five panic attacks.... and if i said that cale will have to deconstruct his entire sacrificial mentality to make it to the end of this fic....

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boop

Hellllo

So, after an embarrassing episode where he accidentally called one of the recruits "Hans," the core members of Team 1 have finally decided to bite the bullet and ask the question: "You are the Team Leader, right?" The now-Kim Rok Soo reflects a bit, and decides to answer honestly. What follows is a surprisingly chill conversation, something about a betting pool, and a bit of cursing out the White Star.

A Simple Talk

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and if i said that my current lcf wip contains five panic attacks.... and if i said that cale will have to deconstruct his entire sacrificial mentality to make it to the end of this fic....