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So long, London. -LN4

Ꮚ Lando Norris × fem!reader.

Summary: Dating F1 driver isn't really easy, especially when you are blue.

(loosely based on some real life events.)

Warnings: angst

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You should've known this was going to happen. You and Lando, were polar opposites of eachother in every aspect of life. From upbringing, to personality, likes, dislikes, name one thing, and you'll have different opinions. But that's not the thing that tore you both apart, the real thing that did was your life.

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You moved to London to complete your further studies, and you were shocked to find Lando Norris being your neighbour. You weren't much of a cars go vroom's fan, but you knew about him through your friends.

He helped you move in, welcomed you, and was the best neighbour anyone could wish for.

Slowly this turned into a bond which was unbreakable.

But since he joined McLaren, he had to travel across the world, every now and then, and soon your family moved in, because of which the two of you never got personal time to share.

First few years into the relationship were great, but as the time passed, every thing started to fall apart.

You saw the comments under his posts regarding his girlfriend, your family starting throwing tantrums regarding your grades and career and soon became financially unstable, your brother started struggling to get a job, your bestfriend moved to a different city.

Due to these things loneliness crept in and everything became unbearable. Every day you woke up to fighting, tauntings and yellings, and as the days passed by the comments kept circling back and forth through your head.

Oh my god, even tho magui and him are doing an ad they look soo good together.

He should totally date her.

She's so pretty and matches his vibe, and aesthetic.

And due to the increasing distance you both never really spoke on such topics, also you did not want to bother him with your stupid problems.

And one day it suddenly hit you, you can't do this anymore. You can't pretend to happy, bcoz the entire 'fake it till you make it' is not working. Your family was a shit hole, a mess, a tangled knot that couldn't be solve anymore. You weren't doing fine, you needed someone.

You called Lando hoping to finally tell him everything, you called once, you called twice, but no one answered the phone, and then you decided it was the last time you'll call, the minute you were going to loose the hope he answered

LN: hello?

You: I wanted to talk to you

LN: um I'm actually quite busy, can I call you back later?

You heard the loud music, and yelling in the background, and frowned.

You: you're at the club?

LN: yeah, how about we talk later on?

You: But we haven't spoken since a week Lando, I really need to speak to you

LN: I know darling, but I can't talk to you in the club you know? I'll call you back, promise.

After hearing it, you hung up and signed loudly.

You waited and waited but there were no messages, or calls. Soon you realised that talking to him was pointless. He wouldn't get it. He was raised with love being fed from silverspoon, he has a nice, loving family, money, and everything you could only dream of. Also it's not like talking to him would change anything.

The more you thought the more unbearable it became, how could you tell him about this? The situation? Your family? How could you bring him into this mess? If tomorrow you get married, what would be think of this? You don't deserve him. His love. His family. Because you both are so different, it's not working out now, and it won't in future. So you decide to let him be free, and you slept crying on you pillow.

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A week passed by, and he finally called you,

LN: hello?

You: hello

LN: you wanted to talk?

You: yes

LN: I'm free right now so yeah go ahead

You: I think we should break up

LN: what?! Why?!

You swore you could hear the shock from his voice

You: it's not working out Lando

It took alot of courage to spoke those words.

LN: is it because I didn't call you frequently? I swear I was busy with training, and media stuff, the night I went to the club only because max forced my team to let me catch a break, I swear I'll make time for you just, please let's not breakup.

You could hear his voice breaking, and felt a sudden pain in your heart, but you knew it's for his betterment. He'll find someone else.

You: No Lando, it's not because of that, I mean part of it yes, but it's on me, I can't do long distance like this. It feels horrible not being able to love you openly, or come to your matches because of my family, and school, I can't be the ideal girlfriend to you.

You didn't speak the whole truth, but didn't lie either, your heart pained as those words came out of your mouth, and you could hear him breaking apart, and crying.

LN: we can try tho? Just for the time being, once you graduate, you can be with me, we'll travel the world, I'll take you to each and every circuit, you'll be in my jersey, I'll show you off proudly, please just wait?

You: I can't Lando please.

LN: you made up your mind?

You: yes.

LN: there's no changing? I- I really can't change it?

You: yes, you can't

LN: ok- okay.

You: I'm sorry

LN: I'm sorry too, for making you feel this way, that you can't be loved openly, but trust me, you're worth everything, and there's nothing more in the world I want aside from you. If you ever changed your mind, you know I'll be waiting for you. I love you.

You: I'll keep that in mind, I love you too.

LN: maybe next time.

You: maybe next time, goodbye Lan.

LN: goodbye my love.

As you hung up, tears flooded through your eyes, and your breathing became heavier, soon you started to gasp for air, as you felt a creeper tightening it's knot around your throat, and soon enough you fainted.

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Days went by, and you were helping your family packing the stuff, and suddenly you heard a familiar voice in your front porch.

You saw him speaking to your mom.

"you're... Moving out?" You heard him ask your mom with a fallen face, and frown hoping for it to be false.

"yeah, I thought she told you?" Your mom spoke, her facial expression clearly hinting that she's suprised.

"actually it's my fault, I've been too busy you know" you heard his voice becoming heavy as he spoke those words, but he quickly concealed it by asking another question, "do you mind if I ask why?"

"oh not at all dear, it's just the family is suffering financially alot, and we can't afford to pay the rent, so we're moving out to somewhere cheaper."

"is it in London?"

"no, we're going to different city."

You heard silence, and after a pause, with a heavy voice he spoke, "oh.., well let me help you"

You saw him helping your mom moving the boxes, like it's completely natural. Soon your eyes met, and you moved away, trying to hide the redness, and swollen eyes.

He took a step towards you, but your mom called your name, and you rushed towards her avoiding him.

"why don't you talk to him, for the last time?" Your mom spoke while getting in the car, and shutting the door.

You both stood infront of each other, heavy silence clung to the air, which was soon broken by him.

"why didn't you tell me?"

"why bother? " You didn't mean to sound harsh but somehow you did.

"so you think I don't deserve to know?"

"no it's just.. look you deserve more okay? More than what I can give to you."

"have you ever thought that I want you?" He wanted to scream, shout and stop you, he wanted to tell you that don't leave, don't go away, most importantly don't give up.

"look what's done is done, we can't undo it, so let's just keep things that way, I don't want you to get tangled in my mess, and also you'll find someone."

With that you walked away. Leaving him stranded. He watched the car fading into the background, he don't know why, but he wished you would look back, turn around, giving him a hope that you two will meet in future, that you're not giving up on him, but you didn't. Instead the entire ride you were looking out of your window wondering what future holds for you, wondering how your life changed.

Reminiscing about everything thing that you've been through, you let out a heavy sigh.

So long, London.

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[ursemma]

Formula one master list

Lewis Hamilton

No one noticed

Max Verstappen

Charles Leclerc

Carlos Sainz

Lando Norris

So long, London

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No one noticed- LH44

ლ LH44 × reader

Summary you've always been abandoned by the people, but you've always thought that Lewis would never do such thing to you; but hey they've warned you never fall inlove with athletes, they'll love their sport more than you.

Warnings: angst, pregnency, heartbreak (lmk if I've missed something), Rushed like alooot.

Loosely based on 'No one noticed' by 'the Marias.'

A barren land, that's what you've been since childhood. Abandoned by many, never taken cared of by anyone. That changed when your bestfriend who now is your fbw walked into your life. He changed the way you felt about yourself, or atleast he thought so.

It was casual, you told yourself, but look it's classic to fall for your friend with benefits, and it's tried and tested that no matter what you do, you'll end up loving that person. Specially for someone like you, whose love language is physical touch, what else can you expect from it?

Every morning he leaves, you feel like an empty shallow vessel, whose void is yet to be filled. But you knew what you were getting into, they say onces you've tastes heaven you can't help but crave for more, and that's what happened.

Abu Dhabi 2021 grand prix was everything for Lewis. If he won that it would mean he would be able to claim his 8th WDC champion ship.

I sat in the Mercedes garage waiting for Lewis patiently, he was going to be devastated, and I was preparing myself for it.

He walked into the garage, threw his helmet in frustration, I went towards him and gave him a hug. Even though he took time to return it, I stood patiently waiting for him to feel better.

"it's so not fair." I heard Toto speak, as I let go of him.

"I know." Lewis responded with a sigh.

No one spoke, and there was a dead silence until he was called for his media duties.

"I'll meet you at the hotel okay?" He told me, and I nodded, as he gave a me a peck on the forehead.

At the hotel I was scrolling through the social media, watching some of our old photos, and videos, but I can't help but notice the comments underneath those posts regarding me, calling me gold digger, slut, whore, and what not, just when I was about click on them Lewis entered the room.

"hey you came back early"

"yeah, wanted to escape from the media duties, any way I wanted to talk to you"

"yeah? About what?"

"you know what we should end whatever it is happening with us."

And that sentence stabbed my heart.

"what do you mean?" I asked on the verge of tears.

"I mean that, look we both know I just lost my 8th world title. And I desperately need to focus more on the racing, and with that I'm not sure that I can give you time that you need. Because that would bring distraction towards my career, which I can't afford." He spoke while sincerely looking in my eyes.

"I get it. But if all those years meant atleast something to you could you- could you spend atleast tonight with me? Could you for tonight love me like I've always love you? For tonight only could you be mine?"

"I think I can do that"

With that our lips crashed, and we both let out our emotions, feelings, and unspoken words flow in the language of love.

Time skip (I don't want to write smut.)

We lay as we catch our breath, and he said "I love you, you know. It's just my career and stuff, and I can't afford to loose another championship. With that going on I don't think I can give you the love, time, efforts, consistency, and a happy family that you deserve."

I looked at him and said "I know. They've always warned me about being with athletes you know, no matter how much they love you, they'll always love their sports first."

He laughed "that's what they say?"

"hmm, and I understood it today"

He looked at me, and kissed me, it wasn't like something we always do, it was different, intense, filled with emotions.

"good night y/n"

"good night lou"

I woke up early, and decided to pack my bags beforehand.

He was still sleeping like a baby, it was cute though, I'll miss waking up beside him. Holding my emotions was a big task while being with him. And only I know how I'll cope with after I'll be all alone.

"ugh good morning" I heard him say

"good morning Lewis"

"packing already?"

"yeah my flight is in hour, moving back to Edinburgh you know."

"oh, I did not know that." I could hear the hurt in his voice.

"must have slipped my mind I guess."

"yeah, give me 15 mins I'll fresh up, and drop you to the airport."

"oh no, no need for that, I've booked a cab, besides you have alot on your schedule, go get ready for that."

"atleast let me grab you breakfast?"

"no no my cab will be here in 15, I gotta do my packing, the airport is about 30 mins far from here."

"oh okay"

With that he went to get ready. Sighing I decided to pack my bags and get ready for the flight.

It's been a miserable week if I'm being honest. With accepting my fate, to being sick all over the place.

Morning sickness, vomiting, delay in periods. Ugh my hormones have been all over the place.

On the top my house needed a makeover, it too has been miserable just like it's owner. I've spent my entire 4 years traveling with Lewis that I've neglected my house, just like the way I get neglected by people.

While cleaning my room I came across my old laptop, I quickly logged in, and decided to go through it.

I opened the gallery, and saw photos of Lewis and mine, some religiously taken screenshots of us when we used to facetime eachother when he was far away, and I couldn't attend the races because I was studying.

We used to do everything on those facetimes, from cooking, to cleaning, to feeding roscoe, and brushing our teeth.

I wiped the tears that flooded through my eyes, and immediately ran to washroom as I felt sick again.

Puking in the toilet sink, I broke down in tears, while laughing at my state.

I decided to call my friend Diana for help.

"hello ana?"

"hey y/n/n what happened you sound... not so good? Everything all right?"

I explained to her what was wrong and after a dead silence she spoke

"have you... Considered getting a..... pregnancy test?"

"what?!? Have you gone mad? That can't be happening"

"just a suggestion love, but hey look your symptoms matches and apparently you both had sex, that too unprotected it can happen"

"yeah I guess"

"how about I come over with a kit and we figure it out together?"

"I love you"

"I love you too darlin, I'll be there in 10"

I stood frozen looking at the test, as it came positive.

"oh my I'm gonna be an aunt!!" She looks at me hoping to get some reaction

"yeah ana, I'm going to be a single miserable mother."

"hey don't say that okay, I'm with you, we both will figure everything out, together."

"yeah"

"do you, perhaps want to tell him?"

"no fuck. I won't tell him. He can't know it."

"okay calm down we'll figure it out."

"yes." With that she hugged me, and held me while I cried in her arms.

2 years have passed and not even a single text msg have been exch between him and I.

But on the positive note, I gave birth to a beautiful daughter, named Charlotte. She's an exact copy of him.

Today Diana, and her boyfriend are taking me to the silver stone grand prix, do I want to go? No. But they told me it'll make me move on. They insisted on bringing Charlotte with us, because she's too small to be left alone.

I was walking in the paddock with them as I came across some interviewers, and fans asking me about Lewis, everyone knew that we were bestfriends so that was valid I guess. I ignored them, as I heard someone shouting my name.

I turned around and saw Toto making his way towards us.

"hey it's been a while."

"yeah Toto it's been a while"

"you came to see Lewis? Oh my god finally he's been acting crazy since you left"

"oh no I came here with my friends"

"oh is that so? Why don't you sit in the Mercedes garage then? All three- oh four of you." He said the last line while looking at Charlotte

"yeah sure we can sit in the garage" Diana replied before I could answer.

"perfect I'll do the arrangements for for you, and that is?" He spoke while looking at sleeping Charlotte.

"my daughter" I honestly answered, Toto was a father figure to me, and I could not afford lying to him.

"does Lewis know?" He concerningly asked me

"I'm not planning on telling him."

"got it, susie and I are there for you, you know? We'll love to get to know our granddaughter..."

"Charlotte, or Char, for short" I gave him a warm smile.

"yupp, we'll love to spend time with Char"

"I can already see her being the most spoilt girl ever." I laughed, and we made our way to the garage.

Char was awake by then, and she needed to use the restroom, so I excused us. The race was going to start in an hour and half, meaning I needed to be careful as I can't afford to run into Lewis.

We finished our buisness and just when I thought everything was going fine, I bumped into my worst nightmare.

"sorry- Y/n??"

"oh hey there, didn't see you"

"what are you doing here?"

"for the race?"

Char looked at Lewis and giggled, and I mentally face palmed my self

"oh my she's mine isn't she?"

"yeah."

"why didn't you tell me??"

"well because you perfectly made it clear that you didn't want a family, or me, or any of this. And you ended the last hope that we had?"

Hurt, love, pain, memories everything came back as I spoke. It felt like the knife that I thought was pulled out, and healed, was still twisting inside my heart. My throat was being strangled as I struggled to speak.

"I changed my mind the week you left me. I called you, texted you, e-mailed you, but you didn't reply to any of it."

"what? You texted me?, called me?, e-mailed me?"

"yes, I thought you blocked me so I didn't try again."

"I- oh my Lewis I changed my number, and the email I gave you was of my work! It wouldn't work as it doesn't exist anymore!"

"what?"

"yes you muppet!"

"Lewis, media time!!" Bad timeing surely has it's way to be seen.

"this conversation isn't over. Wait for me afterwards."

"sure, only if you make sure to win."

"don't test me darling."

Hope. That's what grew inside me as I watched the love of my life celebrating his p1, looking directly at me.

A/n : it was getting soo long, and my device is on 4%, and I desperately needed to post something before going on a ghost mode because of my examinations, just to let you all know that I'm alive.

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[ursemma]

Guilty as sin: pt 2

Nate Archibal × fem!reader

Pt 1 here.

Summery: without ever touching his skin, how can be guilty as sin?

Warrings: heartbreak, angst ig, brief smut, Nate being stupid and dumb.

A/n: heyy I know I've been gone for a while, but I've been really stressed about my exams, and it's finals season, so I don't think I'll be much active. But I hope you all enjoy this for now.

It's been a while since Blair, and Nate broke up. Suprisingly Serena, Blair, and I are friends now, and I can feel something going between Chuck, and Blair, but do I care honestly? No. Because this time I've decided to stop mingling in other's buisness even if they are my friends. With all the gossips girl drama going around I want to have peace.

I was getting ready to attend a party, and my phone beeped, I checked it, and it showed a msg from nate,

Nathaniel: Hey are you ready? I'm coming to pick you up in 5.

Me: Yes, just touching up my make up.

Nathaniel: Okay, see you soon :)

I sighed looking at myself in the mirror, and said, "get your shit together y/n."

Few minutes later my door bell rang, I took a deep breath, and opened door, there, he stood with roses in his hand.

"hey you look beautiful, here I bought them for you." He said while checking me out, or I thought so.

"thank you! You don't look bad yourself." I smiled, and placed the flowers in the vase. I would be lying if I said that he looked horrible, because that was far from the truth, he looked incredibly handsome tonight.

We arrived at the place, and met everyone. Chuck, and Blair were glaring at eachother, or should I say eye fucking eachother. Serena was talking with her loverboy as usual, Nate was busy talking with one of his fan girls, and I? I was drowning down the drinks trying to ignore his presence.

"hey hey hey you're drinking too much!" I heard Nate say while taking the drink away from my hand.

"hey that's mine! Give it to meeee" I said while trying to take the drink back. I was tipsy I know that if I drank 1 more glass I'll be drunk as hell. But do I cared? No.

"no no honey, you've had enough." He tried maintaining a stren voice, but I felt him giggling at my state.

"nooo Nathaniel I want it!!!" I exclaimed again trying to take back the drink. While trying to grab it from his hand I noticed how close we were, I backed up trying to maintain the distance.

"how about a deal, I give you back the drink, only if you drink with me. I don't want you to be drunk around the people we don't know. As long as you're with me I'll know that you're safe, and not in trouble." As he spoke I felt he gaze lingering on my face little too longer.

"okay fine." And that's how we ended up being miserably drunk.

We arrived at his place, since it was too late for me to go home.

"here, wear my shirt the dress must be uncomfortable to sleep in." He said while handing me his blue Ralph Lauren's shirt. The one that's my favourite.

"okay now close you eyes." I said, and he turned around. Because I was too drunk, I was becoming clumsy, I could not find the zipper, and unzip the dress. After too many attempts I let out a loud sigh.

"what happened? Any trouble?" He spoke, still looking at the wall.

"yeah can you help me unzip the dress?" I asked him feeling flustered.

"ofcourse I can."

I felt his fingers tracing my back while unzipping the dress. I don't know why, but I held my breath.

"yeah here you go." He said while turning me around.

I looked at him, and I felt his gaze lingering over my lips, he looked in my eyes, and then at my lips, and slowly leaned in.

I don't know if it was the alcohol in my system, or my dumb brain making the decisions, but I gave in.

His one hand in my hairs, other on my jaw holding it firmly. Slowly the kisses started becoming intense. He entered his tongue in my mouth fighting for dominance, and I gave in.

He one hand slowly undressed me, and he led me to bed, kissing me while he removed his pants.

As he laid me down I started removing his shirt, the dress. He unclassed my bra, and looked at me with a gaze that I could not comprehend.

"you're beautiful." He said with a deep breath.

He started kissing me all over my body, at first it started at the jaw, slowly going down near my thighs.

I let out a whimper at the sensation, "patience darling, patience." He said in a teasing voice.

He tore my panties, and threw them somewhere, and started licking my clit, I moaned his name loudly, as I felt pleasure building up.

The dress, the shirt, the panties, the alcohol, everything was long forgotten as we spent an euphoric night.

I goarned as I felt pain in between my legs, where was I? I looked around, and saw Nathaniel sleeping beside me. I started to remember what happened the previous night. I cursed myself for giving in, and took my stuff, and left the apartment.

All the thoughts started to flood in, what if Blair find out? How am I going to face her, and him? Our friendship is going to be destroyed.

My phone beeped with notifications, and as I checked it, it was from Nate.

Nathaniel:

Why did you leave so early?

Is everything fine?

Hello?

Y/n?

Talk to me?

Hey?

Meet me?

Should I pick you up?

Hey?

Are you asleep?

I groaned as I read them. How can I be stupid? These no strings attached stuff is not my style. I can't do it.

Just then my mom sent me a text

Mom: sweetie there's a gala tonight, and we HAVE to attend it, be ready, and make sure to be dressed up.

Me: can't I just ditch it mom? Not feeling well.

Mom: you can't honey, dad said it's important.

Me: okay fine.

I arrived at the Gala, thankfully I have avoided Nate, and Blair like a plague. It was quite easy though, as there were alot of people present.

I went to the drinks area, this time I decided to have only one drink. And as expected I saw chuck sitting over there.

"terrible day?" He asked me while clicking his glass to mine.

"I'd prefer worse, actually." I said while taking a sip.

"Nathaniel mentioned you avoiding him." He took a sip, and asked me while raising his eyebrows.

"we fucked. Drunk sex to be exact. I can't face him or Blair." I said while trying to maintain my composure.

"oh look what alcohol, attachment, and love does to people. Let me guess, you fucked him, and you can't help but feel guilty for betraying Blair like that knowing what happened to Serena. And you can't face Nathaniel as you're in love with him." There, he said it like he can read through me.

"you're on spot." I sipped my drink, and looked over to see Nathaniel making his was towards me. Shit I cursed under my breath.

"there you are! I've been looking for you since morning, you didn't respond my text, calls, and now you're avoiding me." He spoke as he made his way towards us.

"well my phone died, I couldn't answer anyone's texts, and I just happen to arrive so I didn't see you." The lies slipped off my tounge so easily.

"well now that you're here can we finally talk?" He asked with his puppy eyes, that I clearly can't resist.

"okay." I said with a sigh.

"about what happened the previous day.." before he could continue I decided to cut him off.

"I know it was a mistake, you probably regret it now. And so do I. So I think we should forget it, and let it slide."

"No I don't regret it at all. Infact I kind of like it." He said catching me off gaurd.

"look Nathaniel we both know we're bestfriends. We both know it shouldn't have happened. And I out of everyone should've known better. I can't do this to Blair. As much as I'd love to make it happen again, I can't." I spoke while looking in his eyes.

"We don't need to tell everyone you know? We're bestfriends for sure, but we can be bestfriends with benefits right?" I wanted to scoff at this statement of his, but I controlled.

"look Nathaniel, I'm bad at no strings attached, and I don't want to be the person who you can come to without any feelings. I don't want to be used and tossed away. Not when I've been inlove with you since forever. I know you don't feel the same, but that doesn't mean that I can be at your beck, and call." With that I left without hearing anything further.

I arrived at my apartment, and slept while crying. The only thing I know now was to avoid that man.

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James Beaufort Masterlist Ꮚ✧♡

So highschool

First time

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First time.

James Beaufort × fem! reader

Summary: loosing virginity to your boyfriend.

Warning: smut, p in v, finger fucking, breast play, eating out, first time, aftercare.

Based on this ask

I was lying on the couch watching a movie at my boyfriend's home. He was playing games with his friends while I had nothing to do.

As the movie was coming to an end, I started feeling bored, I turned and switched into different positions but nothing helped.

The one thing I was certain that I won't get up unless and until the movie was finished. I had zero plans in getting up leaving it unfinished.

The plans changed as I felt James making his way towards me. Shirtless.

"hello pretty girl" he mumbled as he pressed his lips on me going for a kiss. "Hello handsome, done with your video games?" I asked breaking the kiss. "Yess but lemme have more" he spoke as he put his body weight on me going for another kiss and basically laying down on me.

The kiss started out as sloppy and soft but soon turned into desperation. I felt his hands sneaking into my shirt, and rubbing circles around my waist. Our breathing soon shortened and we were gasping for air. He left a breathy groan as I pulled his hair.

I moaned his name as I felt his bulge pressing against my wet clothed clit. Truth to be told I never had sex. And today I'm sure I want it. Am I nervous? Yes. But am I sure? Yes.

He looked at me with a serious gaze "are you sure?" Can he be more sweet? "Yes I am." I answered seriously. "Like really y/n/n are you 100%?" "Yes James I'm."

He texted someone, and picked me up and took me to his room.

He kissed me like he's been waiting for this from a long time, my hands tangled in his hair, his in mine, lips locking, gasping for air, my lipstick leaving marks on his face and soon we both are a mess. A beutiful one though. The one you can write a poetry about.

The one reason I saved myself was a cliche one. I believe that sex is a art. A art through which we can express ourselves. Express our feelings. Which is why some people call it love making. Never in my life I wanted to be used and thrown in the form of 'random fuck' and James was the man I was willing to surrender myself. Because he made it worth.

His hands went to remove the clothing I was wearing, and mine went to his pants. He gently pulled my panties down before checking me out and slowly we became naked to eachother, the blood rushed to my cheeks, making them crimson in colour as I covered myself with my bare hands.

"don't cover yourself darling, you don't need to feel shy, love. You're gorgeous and mesmerizing" with that he leaned to kiss me. The kiss was full of love, admiration and passion.

Buring with the heat I moaned out his name, "James please do something"

"patience my love" he said as he grabbed my left breast in his hand and started massaging it, while his mouth leaving wet kisses on my neck.

The kisses turned to sucking and nibbling my skin and he left love bites onto my neck.

He looked up to admire his art and pressed a soft gentle kiss mumbling "mine."

My body heated as I started to press my thighs together for some friction. He noticed it and gently separated my legs, and slowly inserted his middle finger, I moaned at the feeling as he started to curl them inside my folds, "fuck you're so wet" he thrusted his finger gently inside me, and as I stretched he inserted his ring finger.

He curled them inside me and fasten his pace, "James, I'm- I'm going to cum" "cum for me love" I moaned as I released myself.

He then went down on me, as he started sucking my clit, and licking the folds. His tounge gently entered me as he started eating me out. Slowly before fastening the pace as I arched my back in pleasure, "you're so sweet my love." "Fuck you're so perfect." "God I could eat you for entire 3 meals without being bored." Those were the words he mumbled while eating me like I was his favourite meal that he's eating after ages. Soon I came for the second time.

I took deep breath, calming myself from the rollercoaster of pleasure and emotions.

He went to the drawer and grabbed something, I looked at the packet in his hands only to realise it is a condom. Wait how did it end up here?

"wait a second, I cleaned the room in the morning, the condom wasn't here though?" I asked him gasping for air. "You can ask the questions later my love" he replied as he tore the packet off with his teeth. Just by looking at the scene unfolding infront of my eyes the wetness inbetween my legs started growing.

He positioned him self and I wasn't sure if I can take it. It was soo big. He noticed my uncertainty "it'll fit don't worry" I nodded at him.

"let me know if it pains okay? Tell me to stop if you can't take it and let me know your preference okay?" God I love him. "yes but now do something." I moaned as I felt him entering my folds. "It's paining" I felt tears streaming my eyes. "Don't worry I'll be gentle" he reassured me and once I became comfortable I felt him moving.

He started thrusting in me gently and slowly, and I was a moaning mess. His hand played with my breast giving both of them even attention. He sucked my nipples causing a moan to leave my mouth.

I tried to suppress my moans by hiding my face in his neck but his perfume caused my mind to be dizzy and loose my senses.

The pleasure was overwhelming.

"don't keep those pretty sounds to yourself honey. You're doing great" he said while leaving a groan.

His thrust became faster and harder. The sounds of his skin touching mine and our moans and groans were echoing in the room.

His lips sucked my skin and my nails were scratching his back making it bleed.

"I'm going to cum" I moaned as I said those words, "yeah me too" with that we both released ourselves. We panted as we laid down on the bed.

"you did amazing" I smiled at his words, and replied "so did you."

We stayed like that cuddled up together for half hour and then he picked me up and sat me down in the bath tub.

We bath together, him massaging me and I shampooing his hair. "So you didn't answered me earlier" "yeah remember me texting someone before taking you to the bed? I texted Lydia telling her to keep a condom for us in the drawer" "oh god" I face palmed myself in embarrassment, how am I going to face her?

He chuckled at me and wrapped me in a towel like burrito. I wore his t shirt and shorts and we slept cuddling eachother.

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Please part two of the Nate fic!!! It was so good

I'll make it, it's just I've been busy lately due to which I can't make time for writing, I also have my exams so it'll take some time.

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hi hi hi ♥️ i absolutely absolutely loved your james beaufort fic 🥰 can i please request a james beaufort soft sexy smut fic where the reader and james are so in love, she's sweet and shy and it's their first time so she's nervous but james makes her comfortable like gently pulling her panties down before eating her out, saying endless words of love, praising her as she's doing so well for him and tearing the condom pack with his teeth. 🫠❤️‍🔥

thank you so much, i love your writing. 🥰❤️

Heyy thanks for being patient with me!! I've made some changes in it, it might not be perfect but Here it is ;)

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will there be another part to the nate archibald fic you just wrote it was gooood

I didn't plan on, but if you guys want a part two, I'm willing to make one.

Edit: heyyy I just posted the part 2, and you can find it here.

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Gossip girl masterlist

Xoxo 💋

Nate Archibald

• Guilty as sin, pt 2

Chuck Bass

• Video games

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Guilty as sin

Nate Archibald × F!reader

Summary: How can I be guilty as sin? Without ever touching his skin?

Warning: angst, masturbation, little smut.

Pt 2

We're just bestfriends right? So why do I imagine him being on top of me, or holding my hand while walking down the streets of nyc?

I looked at him as he arrived with Blair at the kiss on the lips party, they looked so happy together. But I can't help but imagine myself with him.

I shook my thoughts away as I see Blair making her way towards me, she's my bestfriend I can't do this to her, "heyy y/n! You look fabulous!" She compliments me and pulls me into a hug.

"thanks B! You look fabulous too!!" I returned the hug, and we pull away as we see Serena making her way into the party.

"what is she doing here?" Blair asks as she glares Serena's way. "I don't know but whatever it is it better not ruin the party" I sighed feeling defeated, their catfights honestly gets my energy drained.

I watch as she goes to find chuck, and Nate stands besides me, "hey everything's fine? You look tired." He asks as he offers me a glass of champagne, "yeah I'm fine, just drained from everything you know?" I looked into his eyes as I answered him, and saw his gorgeous face, those eyelashes, those blue eyes, the little freckles, and his lips- omg.

I looked away as I felt those feelings creeping into my mind, "you know you can count on me right?" He reassured me, while pulling my face towards him to face him.

"I know Nathaniel, it's just, you know those catfights between Blair and Serena, and how I'm the one left hanging in between them needing to make a choice when I just want everything to be back as it was before." I took a deep sigh and replied as I felt butterflies in my stomach. I wasn't lying but I wasn't telling the truth either.

"yeah i know but it's not going to be how it was before, atleast not anytime soon. But don't worry, you have me okay?" He said with a sincere look in his eyes, "I know" I gave him a weak smile.

Soon Charles and Blair came, "care to dance with me Nate?" Blair asked him for a dance and he joined her.

"you should tell him you know" chuck said as he watched me look at him with a longing eyes.

"he doesn't feel the same." I sighed as I took one more shot, only chuck knew how I felt about him, how? I don't know.

"you never know." He encouraged me, that's what he's been doing since a long time.

"he's with Blair, Charles and they look happy!" I protested, honestly when it comes to confessing, I'm not good at it.

"are they though? We all know Nathaniel doesn't feel a shit for Blair, he's doing it for his family's sake." He instead me and tbh he wasn't wrong, but what about Serena, now she's back he'll be with her ofcourse.

"Charles, Serena is back. We all know he loves her. I don't stand a chance, unless and until I'm willing to be a rebound which I'm not."

"okay fine, I won't force you but promise me to do something about it."

"only if you tell Blair how you feel" I said with a smirk and I watch his face turn pale.

We both knew alot of things about eachother, including our secret crushes, which no one knew.

We're like brother's and sister's, shocking right? The first girl who Charles bass didn't tried to bang out of respect?

I gasped as I felt wet kisses trailing down my neck, and then sucking my skin leaving a hickey.

"oh my" I tried to breath when the kisses went down to my Naked breasts and nibbling my skin and sucking my nipples as they harden.

The heat in between my legs was growing and so was the tension.

"I need you" I moaned louder as I felt my panties get wet, "yeah what do you want darling?" He said while going down on me.

"you, everything give it to me." I said while breathing heavily, "okay" he smirked and started to tease me with his mouth.

"don't tease!" I gasped when his mouth met my clit, stroking and sucking it slowly.

He started abusing my clit with his mouth, while his hands were circling my skin.

"oh my Nate I'm gonna cum" as I reached my climax I felt the door being knocked.

"miss y/n!! Wake up you're going to be late!" Dorothea shouted.

I groaned as I woke up from my slumber, and I remembered what I dreamt of.

Flushing in embarrassment I pulled my duvet over my face, "miss y/n!!" Dorothea shouted again.

"yes dorthy I'm awake!" I responded her letting her know that I'm alive.

I felt the heat between my legs growing hotter and hotter.

Should I? Fuck it.

I went into the washroom and put two fingers inside my clit massaging it, hoping for some relief.

I imagined Nate touching me, and I left a moan at the thought.

As I was pleasuring myself I suddenly heard my phone ringing and I groaned at it, and picked up without looking at the number.

"y/n?" Fuck it was Nate, in his morning voice. I felt myself getting wetter and gasping for air.

Even his voice had this effect on me.

"y-yes Nathaniel? You need something?" I tried to maintain my composer.

"hey what happened to you? You sound not so fine?" He asked with his voice filled with concern.

"nothing just the morning workout you know" I replied quickly, "okay if you say so, I was actually wondering if you want to come with me and Blair in our limo? The route of her and your house is same that's way" he asked me, I thought for a while and decided it's better to stay away, "actually I'm running late today so you guys go ahead I'll come on my own" "okay I'll see you then" "yea" and I hung up.

I decided to get freshed and leave for school.

I got out of the limo and looked around and saw Blair and Nate walking together.

"sight to sore eyes isn't it" I turned to see Chuck looking at them, "indeed" I replied and we started walking together.

I felt rush of emotions. Embarrassment, love, lust, heartbreak and mostly guilt.

He's my bestfriend's boyfriend and one of my bestfriend and yet I'm here imagining us together.

But mostly, without ever touching his skin, how can I be guilty as sin?

Is he written mine only in my mind? Is there not even 1% of hope for us?

I shook my thoughts and sat near Blair, looking at her exchanging looks with Nate and chuck and I eyed eachother knowingly.

I sighed and thought about everything, why does my life has to be complicated.

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"you're all that I need" Theodore Nott × f!reader pt 2

Pt 1

Summary: where Theodore realised you're all he needed but maybe it was little too late for that, or was it?

Theodore Nott Pov

I finally gathered the courage to knock on her door. It's been weeks since we have talked and I just couldn't help but feel miserable about it.

I needed her. I wanted her. But I couldn't have the courage for it.

They say man only changes when he looses the most precious thing he had. It's true.

She opened the door after few knocks, and looks at me with a confused gaze, "what are you doing here Theodore?" Full name? Ouch.

I took a deep breath and said, "to correct my mistakes." She raised one eyebrow and gave me a tired sigh before letting me in.

We sat on her bed and spoke, "you were right and I was wrong. Maybe I felt little too comfortable in our no labels zone that I completely abandoned the responsibility of putting labels on us. I know I couldn't say I need you on that night, I just lost the track of time when you left me, I didn't know what I was doing, what I was eating, bcoz all the time the only thing I could thing of was you, I know I fucked up big but please give me another chance. This time with labels, I've changed, the entire 3 weeks I haven't even looked at another girl bcoz all I could think of was you, I need you y/n, more than that I want you. You're like the oxygen I breath, you make me feel alive and the things that I was afraid of. Please take me back."

I finished and looked at her who was looking at me in shock, "do you really mean it?" She asked me trying to confirm whether what I said was true or not. "I do. Every word of it." I honestly answered her and she looked into my eyes trying to find something.

She smiled finally and said, "prove it then." I kissed her like my life depends on her, oh how I missed it.

The kiss was passionate and full of love, I bit her lips to enter her mouth, and soon we were fighting for control.

The kiss turned into a dominate and heated one, we were gasping for air, as we're running out of oxygen.

I pulled away and stopped before it got out of control and said, "not like this. Not with sex. I'll prove how much I love you by taking you out on a date. Just the way you like it. Be ready tomorrow 6 pm." She gave me the brightest smile ever and said, "okayy captain."

"also! No full names." I said while looking at her squinting my eyes "okayy theo." She laughed and she pulled me into a hug, I chuckled and, made us lay down on the bed, which means we were cuddling.

She then read me her favourite book and we soon went into a slumber of deep sleep after a long time.

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"You're all that I need" Theodore Nott × f!reader

Pt 2

Summary: where Theodore realised you're all he needed but maybe it was little too late for that, or was it?

Warnings: angst ig

This is based on my favourite song CO2 by prateek kuhad!! Part two will come out shortly and better than this. I was in deep sleep while writing this so this is poorly written ik, sorry for that!!

"oh come on Theodore! You really can't treat me like someone you can have at any time you want without giving any labels to our relationship!!" I yelled at him as I shut the door of his dorm so that no one could here us.

It's been a repeating cycle for entire week.

He treats me like his gf and the next min he's flirting with random chick at Hogwarts.

Whenever I ask him about our status all he says is he needs time to figure out, to be himself and to know what he wants.

We've been seeing eachother (if you can say that) for almost 5 months and went without labels now it was too much for me.

"oh come on just give me a little more time please" he pleaded with teary eyes, and I can't help but look away.

"no Theodore not anymore, if you can't commit fully towards me, then you can't have me." With that I left his dorm, in hope that he would atleast try to stop me, stop me from running away, stop me from walking out his life, but no nothing happened.

The next morning I entered our common room and sat near pansy, who was reading a book.

Theodore and his friends sat exact opposite to us, and our eyes met.

Both of our eyes held the same emotions. desperation, desire, love, and heartbreak. One emotion was missing and that was acceptance.

Maybe we both haven't accepted it. So I guess there has to be a hope from both the sides right?

I swear to god if there was peace around us, we both could hear the literal words.

And maybe this is meant to be this way.

For us to be away.

I mean that's what happens in most of the love story right? The lover gets seperated because they weren't ready.

Ready for eachother, for the commitment, for the price they would've to pay.

After few minutes I saw him leaving the common room. Just like the day i left his dorm.

I'll be fine right? I mean I've experienced this beforehand.

I have dealt with people leaving me.

It won't caused much harm right?

Oh how wrong I was.

Theodore is like oxygen for me. I need him to breath, to survive, to live.

And without him I'm nothing.

I was walking down the corridor with Enzo by my side, we were laughing at his silly jokes and I felt someone's eyes boring into me.

I looked at my surroundings to see Theodore glaring at us.

Even if he never see it, he was all I needed, all I wanted. Not Enzo not anyone but him.

Maybe he won't see it now, but in future he will right?

I was deep in my thoughts, wondering why I love him? Why can't I get over him? Why do I need him? Why do I want him?

Maybe it's the silence in his eyes,

Or the deep red when he's shy,

Or the Mystery of our love,

All I need is the sign from stars above,

Maybe it's the way he breath in me,

Or it's the way he heals the girl in me,

Maybe it's the fragrance of his hair,

I just want to kiss him when he's there.

I shook my thoughts away as they were taking a different turn.

I just him all around me, but why can't he make it happen.

Why does he have to be so complicated.

I laid down on my bed thinking the possibilities of us. Will we ever happen? Or will we drift apart just like that?

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"I'll always love you" Pt 4 (final)

Pt 1, Pt 2, Pt 3

Mattheo Riddle × y/n

Theodore nott × y/n (ex)

Warning: fighting, tension, Theodore being a dick, jealousy, angst.

Summary: after your first day in London, you thought you'll make it through the wedding without any drama, well fate has different plans for you I guess.

"it's Theodore, darling" I answered Mattheo as I felt his hands sliding on my waist, "hey nice to meet you, I'm Mattheo. Mattheo Riddle, y/n's boyfriend". He greeted Theodore while emphasizing on the word boyfriend.

"Oh hi, I'm Theodore, I was just here to invite you both to the bonfire, I'll take my leave now." Theodore said while his eyes wondering between me and Matty.

"sure we'll be there!" I answered him before shutting the door.

"you might wanna get dressed Mr Riddle, wouldn't want anyone to see you like this would you?" I said while throwing his clothes at him, instead of taking them he back hugged me and whispered in my ear, "what's the point of wearing them if you are gonna remove them anyway?." "well as much as I'd like to grant you your wishes, I think my friends are waiting for us, so go hushh and wear your clothes." I said while pushing him inside the bathroom before he could protest.

We all sat down in circle and everyone was laughing and chit chatting, suddenly Enzo asked us a question, "so tell us about how you and Mattheo hit off." I looked at everyone who were looking at me with teasing eyes, except for that one couple who were rather looking at me as if I was about to reveal a scandal.

"well we both met at a bar." I replied with shrug not wanting to expose the real events that had happened between us.

It looks like Mattheo got the hint and continued "yeah, she was drinking and I asked her for a drink, after aloot of efforts she finally gave in. We chat and got know eachother and then I asked her out on the next day. Pretty cliche i know, but we're old school so it works for us." I grinned at his response and everyone was teasing us.

The night went on smoothly and soon we were in our bed sleeping soundly while cuddling eachother.

The next day arrived quickly and, today we had to do two tasks, first shopping for bridesmaid dress, and second decorations.

Me and Mattheo had arrived at the mall for my dress, he was judging my dresses, and I was doing a fashion show for him.

I had my 20th dress on, and it seems like Mattheo didn't liked it, again.

I took a deep frustrated sigh and said, "well if you don't like my outfit go ahead and pick up a dress for me by yourself!" "Okay" he said with a shrug and went to find a dress for me.

While he was looking for the dress I saw a male employee approaching me, "hey I just wanted to say, you're beautiful." He said while looking at me, "thankyou so much!" I replied.

"i was wondering if you'd like to have a coffee with me?" He asked me and I was surprised, i don't know what to answer.

And before I could reply Mattheo came with a gorgeous Emerald green dress in his hands. "Here I found this." He spoke plainly. Weird.

"I hope I get an answer soon." That employee said in hope before walking away.

"that's gorgeous Matty!" I took the dress and tried it on, it looked beautiful. I nervously walked out of the trial room and Mattheo and I made an eye contact, "you- you look beautiful." He said while checking me out, "thank you, so this is it?" I asked him and he said "yes it's perfect".

We got the dress and sat inside the car, the car was silent which was unusual, Mattheo didn't even sing a song with me. I was hurt, I wonder what happened to him.

We were decorating the wedding venue on our own because we wanted it to be special. Mattheo still hasn't spoke a word to me.

"Mattheo." I whispered to him but recived no answer, I tried 2 times more, but instead of replying to me, he was going to walk away, so I grabbed his wrist quickly and pulled him towards me, "talk to me." I said and before he could reply we heard a loud bang.

Every one turned around to see Theodore throwing a box on the ground.

"what's wrong with you!!" Astoria yelled at him, "you know what? She. That's what's wrong with me!" He shouted while pointing at me.

Gasping i said "what did I did to you?!" He looked at me with mix emotions and said, "i married to Daphne because I thought was over you, but no! Then you had to show up here with your boyfriend having the happy ending while I suffer in silent!" "It's not my fault okay? And don't you dare to put the blame on me, you caused the misunderstanding Theodore! And then when I left you, you didn't even came back to me for second chance! And after a month of waiting for you, I get the invitation to your marriage! I thought you changed Theodore, i really thought, but today you proved me wrong just like you always did, And trust me after what is happening now, I regret ever loving you!" Before he could speak Mattheo replied, "hey man I don't know what's wrong with you, but whatever it is sort it by yourself, for whatever you did you have no one to blame it on, especially not my girlfriend. t's on you, you did it to yourself. And don't you dare to raise your voice at her. She's happy with me and I assure you she will be. Get your ass out of my relationship and her life."

Theodore left after what Mattheo said to him and i rushed to bathroom. I couldn't take it anymore. At first he was ignoring me and now he's acting like he actually cares.

I broke down while looking into the mirror and someone opened the door, i didn't need to take a look to know who was it, I knew it was Mattheo by his perfume.

"get out." I told him because I didn't wanted to speak to him.

"you're not doing this." He said while coming closer, "oh so you get to ignore me the entire afternoon and evening and i can't ignore you?" I spoke while scoffing at him, at his hypocrisy.

"I had my reasons" he said. "I wanna know them then. Because you know what I can't stand it anymore! You don't get to ignore me Mattheo then stand up for myself! You don't get to leave me lingering with questions about what if you don't want me anymore! You don't get to leave me doubted about who we are! I don't even know what to say to the guys who i turned down when they ask me if I have a boyfriend! You don't get play with my feelings Mattheo! You don't get to tell me you love me and then leave me questioning if you actually mean it!" I couldn't hold it anymore so I confronted him finally.

"I know, love, I know, and I have answers to your each and every question, I ignored you because I was jealous. I don't know what took over me but when the guy at the mall asked you out i couldn't help but feel jealous at the thought of you going on a date with someone who's not me. and I want you, today, tomorrow and everyday, I'll always want you. And I didn't mean to play with your feelings, I was just too afaird of saying mine that it unintentionally happened and I'm sorry for that, and whenever I said I love you, i really meant it. And as for who we are, I really want you to be my wife. But for now we'll take things slow, so y/n l/n, will you make me the luckiest man ever by being my girlfriend, a real one?" He looked at me with teary eyes as he said each and every word of it.

"do you really mean it?" I asked him with confusion, "I do, i really do" he spoke with sincerity, I laughed and screamed yes.

We both went back to do the remaining decoration and saw everyone there except the Daphne and Theodore.

"hey we're really sorry for that" Blaise spoke with shame all over his face, "hey it's okay and it's not your fault, i really thought he changed but I guess he didn't." I reassured him.

After the decoration we went to sleep, and i couldn't help but think about tomorrow.

The wedding was finally happening, I saw Astoria walking down the aisle with her father, and Draco with teary eyes looking at her.

I felt Mattheo's hot breath on my neck as he spoke, "one day this would be us, you'll walk down the aisle and I'll be looking at you with happy tears in my eyes." I felt him back hugging me and i couldn't help but smile at his words while thinking about our wedding.

The wedding ended with Draco and Astoria kissing eachother.

She threw her wedding bouquet and i was the one who caught it, I looked at Mattheo in suprise and he hugged me and knelt down on his knees, "I know it's too soon for a engagement ring, so I bought you a promise ring, y/n, i promise to love and cherish you till the day I die, will you promise me to do the same and marry me one day?" "Yess Mattheo yess!" I hugged him with tears in my eyes and everyone cheered for us, Astoria and Draco walked towards us and said, "well y/n/n you did for your fairy tale happily ever after, I'm so happy for you honey." She hugged me and i hugged her back, "I got mine out of a fairy tale book, but you tori! You got it straight out of a fanfiction, the nerdy girl × spoiled playboy! Who would've thought!" "Hey I'm right here!" Draco spoke and we all did a group hug.

This was the begining of a new start, for which I was really excited.

✧The end✧

The story finally comes to an end~ please make sure to comment if you like it or not and do give me suggestions and recommendations for next story!

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Video games: chuck bass × f!reader

Warnings:

Being friends with benefits with Chuck Bass on a random summer break wasn't bad until you caught a disease called love. Willing to do anything to make him fall inlove with until you realise he's still in love with Blair.

Based on lana del rey's song video games

Swinging in the backyard

Pull up in your fast car

Whistling my name

Open up a beer

And you say, "Get over here

and play a video game"

I was swinging in my backyard, and I heard chuck calling my name "y/n" he came with a scotch glass in his hand, "wanna play our game?" i chuckled while walking towards him, our game meant a no string attached fuck.

Well atleast for him because it meant more than something to me.

I'm in his favourite sundress

Watchin' me get undressed

Take that body downtown

I wore his favourite purple sundress with a high slit, just how he likes it, "strip" he said and i started undressing under his intense gaze, hunger and lust flashed in his eyes as he kissed me, and the afternoon went just how we wanted.

I say, "You the bestest"

Lean in for a big kiss

Put his favourite perfume on

Go play your video game

"oh god you're the best" I said while trying to catch my breath. He leaned in for kiss and said, "I need to leave for work" I nodded at him and watched as he perfumed himself, "good luck" I wished him knowing how hard he was working, he gave me a smile and went for his work.

It's you, it's you, it's all for you

Everything I do

I tell you all the time

Heaven is a place on earth with you

Tell me all the things you wanna do

I sighed deeply as I knew he would never love me back, I did everything I could to make him feel something about me but everytime I try, nothing works out. The reason I agreed to this FWB thing because I love him.

I still remember the day i was hanging out at a bar where I met him. The only thing he said was "you look lonely, mind if I join you?" And that's how we ended up in his bed.

All he asked was for simple fuck with no feelings but having attachment issues really didn't helped a bit.

I heard that you like the bad girls

Honey, is that true?

The Upper East side was surely missing their it girl and the queen b, Heard the IT girl and the queen B are back in town from their trip to paris.

Well I hope S you've made your decision, surely you don't wanna walk down the campus single.

And as for B I heard our bad boy is single, but the question is his bad girl available though?

You know you love me,

Xoxo, Gossip Girl.

I sighed at the gossip girl blast, I mean she is true isn't she? He likes girls like Blair Waldorf.

Smart, independent, Queen B, pretty and beautiful, and me? I'm not even close to her.

Suddenly I got a text from chuck, telling me to be ready at 5, we've a party to attend, and my mood instantly lit up.

It's better than I ever even knew

They say that the world was built for two

Only worth living if somebody is loving you

And, baby, now you do

Is he trying? I don't know. I'm not getting my hopes high.

I got ready according to the theme, which was, saints and sinners masquerade ball. I don't know but I'm getting weird feelings of it.

Singin' in the old bars

Swingin' with the old stars

Livin' for the fame

We arrived at the ball and every one was busy dancing, and chit chatting.

I went to the drinks counter and drank whiskey, I heard flashing of cameras every where, you can see the paparazzis through the door.

My mind wondered to chuck. Where was he?

Kissin' in the blue dark

Playin' pool and wild darts

Video games

He holds me in his big arms

Drunk and I am seeing stars

This is all I think of

I heard everyone gasping, i went towards the crowd to see, chuck and Blair kissing and hugging eachother. His games.

I ran with tears running down my eyes and I ended up in a bar.

I finally calmed down, and decided to go home, but I bumped into someone and my purse fell down.

Him and I, we both bent down to pick it up at the same time and our hands brushed eachother, it felt weird.

I looked up and saw his beautiful ocean eyes and a smile that can light up the town.

"Hi I'm Nate Archibald" he said while grinning, and giving his hand for handshake, "I- I know, I mean hi I'm y/n l/n".

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"I'll always love you" pt 3

Pt 1, pt 2, pt 4

Mattheo Riddle × F!reader

Theodore nott × F!reader (ex)

Warning: none

Summary: After going on few dates with Mattheo, you couldn't help but wonder what you two are since you haven't made things offical, what happens when one of your friend invites you to her wedding, and apparantly you've to face your ex with his wife, and you desperately need a date.

Mattheo and I have gone to few dates, fucked and behaved like a couple for few months, but things between us have never been official, and I don't want to ruin what's between us by asking 'what are we?'.

I was laying on my bed wondering what i felt for him, this was far way different than what I had with Theodore.

Theodore and I were..... Something I can't describe in words, not in a good way, we used to fight alot.

We used to fight and never solve things hoping it would go away and we'd be back to normal, it wasn't healthy at all.

We never used to communicate which would lead us to misunderstandings. Something which caused our break-up.

I had butterflies but in a bad way, in a way which would tell you something bad is about to happen.

But Mattheo, him and I are mythic.

We sure fight but they aren't the heated ones, the ones which makes your heartbeat fast and tears flow, the ones which you hate and want to runaway from. Our fights are more like "hey I wanted that icecream!" Or "huh you bet?". We fight like kids, over small things but in a teasing way.

And my inner child feels safe with him. It's like he's healing a part of me.

I was deep in my thoughts, and suddenly my phone rang. I looked over to see the name 'torie!' i smiled at myself before picking up the call, and I heard her voice.

Torie!:

"heyyy babyy"

Me:

Hey Astoria!!

Torie!:

Soo Draco and I, we're getting married!!!

Me:

Congratulations!!

Torie!:

Thankyouu love! I want you to attend the wedding, not only that I want you here for the preparations as well, I'll send you the address and you have to come I won't take no for answer okayyy byeee!!!!

Before I could protest she hung up and sent me the address. I sighed knowingly that Theodore and Daphne would be there, I wasn't affected by their presence at all, not after meeting Mattheo, but the fact that it would be very awkward if I went without a date was eating me up.

I looked at my screen and my finger hovered above the name 'matty~', I sighed and texted him,

Me: Hey Mattheo!

Matty~: Hey what's up??

Me: I need a favour

Matty~: go ahead, I'll be glad to help you out

Me: soo my friend is getting married and Theodore is going to be there so I need a boyfriend, to make sure it won't be awkward.

Matty~: soo...?

Me: would you be my boyfriend?? Like a fake one?? You know just for the preparations and wedding?? Like you're the only person I'm comfortable with soo?? Please please I'll do anything you want just say yes.

Matty~: okay fine. You owe me tho.

Me: yes yes thankyouu. We have to leave for the preparation day after tomorrow, at 5 pm, the wedding is in London, we've to catch a flight.

Matty~: I'll be there ;)

Me: thankyouu ily ;)

Matty~: anything for you, ily too ;)

I sighed while smiling like an idiots, I booked our flights and started to pack my bags and everything necessary.

Me and Mattheo arrived at Draco's Mansion where we all were staying in, only two days were left for the wedding, 1 and half to be exact.

"Y/n/n welcome!!!" Tori greeted me as she engulfed me into a hug.

She pulled away after 10 sec and looked over my shoulder "and whose he?" She asked me into confusion and before I could answer "I'm Mattheo Riddle, her boyfriend, nice to meet you Astoria" he said while sliding a hand on my waist and pulling me closer to him.

I looked at him with a smile on my face and Astoria smirked at me before saying "nice to meet you too Mattheo, your room is upstairs, please make yourself home" we thanked her before going in our room.

I freshened up and I was laying on my bed while Mattheo was taking a bath, so far we didn't saw Theodore at all for which I was thankful for.

A knock on the door disturbed me from reading my book. I went to check who it was and saw a familiar face, "Theodore?" "Y/n" before I could say anything Mattheo came out of bathroom, with nothing but a towel wrapped around his waist and interrupted us "darling whose there?" Before standing beside me.

I know this is short and I'm leaving you hanging but I'll post next part before the week ends and trust me it'll be long!!!

The next part would be the last one and it'll be uploaded shortly.

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[ursemma]

The worst thing is when you write a final part of your story and it gets discarded and Tumblr doesn't have undo option.

Anyways part 3 will be out soon, and the final part? I'll re-write it tomorrow.