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Me in the middle of being tortured : I hate this song can you skip it please

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wow can’t wait for my finale year haha memories!! vibes!!

also me, immediately: I’M GONNA HATE IT. I’M GONNA DESPISE EVERY SECOND.

PROM?

NO.

ABSOLUTELY NOT.

why are we still forcing this hetero-coded glitter hell on people??

i don’t wanna slow dance. i don’t wanna match outfits.

I WANNA BE AT HOME SCREAMING INTO A MIC AND MIXING LOFI TRACKS AT 2AM LIKE A FUNCTIONAL ROCKSTAR, OKAY??

no one’s gonna ask me anyway???

what am i supposed to do, waltz in alone and eat dry cake while watching couples slow dance like i’m in a deleted scene from a sad Netflix original??

THE WORST PART?

MY TEACHER ACTUALLY THINKS I LIKE SOMEONE IN MY CLASS.

LIKE, NO. I AM AROACE.

I DON’T EVEN DO ROMANCE.

I DON’T DO THIS “WHO DO YOU LIKE??” DRAMA.

LEAVE ME AND MY EMOTIONS ALONE, THANKS. 💔

i don’t wanna “make memories,” i wanna make music, i wanna make bracelets, i wanna make mysterious cryptic posts that scare my classmates.

i wanna be an ICON not a PROM QUEEN.

this isn’t high school musical.

this is high school MISERY.

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last night i talked to my parents abt getting me a guitar (CAUSE MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 3 WEEKS) and i sent my mom the link to the exact one i want… she just replied with “okay.” THAT’S IT. JUST “OKAY.”

and um. i think she actually ordered it???

cause i peeked at her browser/whatever and the website says it ships in 3-5 days.

HELPPPP IM GONNA CRY OF HAPPINESS I THINK I’M GETTING MY GUITAR

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hey you are loved and valued and you have valid reasons to be sad

BUT you do not have valid reasons to hate yourself bc inside out doesn't cover that and i dont think the third one will and bc i think hatred is worth far too much energy to call up and far too much energy to point at someone who definitely does not deserve it (AHEM look in the mirror to find out who)

so please

do not wage war on troy do not try to sail back home with that scrawny guy from ithaca and i can't stress this enough don't piss off a god

ppl need you

rembemb that

<3

<333

Thanks mate 🖤

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*laugh*

Thanks !🖤I will

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OMGGGG ITS SOSOSOSOSOOSOS GOOD

All of stray kids now!

Hope yall like! Who should I draw next?

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Have a good night/day/evening

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i don’t know what kind of emotional witchcraft inhaler is pulling, but “when it breaks” makes me feel like i’m the main character in a coming-of-age movie where everything goes wrong but the soundtrack is fire

and “cheer up baby”???

that song saw me crying at 3am and said “get up, loser, we’re healing”

inhaler’s music is like therapy but with guitars and cooler accents. 10/10 would recommend catching feelings (and maybe a breakdown) to their entire discography.

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I am at geography

HAIII!!!! All good mate? ALSO I FINISHED EPIC THE MUSICAL AAAA-

why aren't koala bears considered bears?

they don't meet the right koala-fications

*long, agonised groan*

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EPIC: THE MUSICAL??? has no business being this good. like who told it to go THAT HARD??? it’s like someone took greek mythology, banger vocals, existential dread, and epic orchestral beats, threw them in a blender, added ✨trauma✨ and said "yeah let’s make everyone lose their minds."

AND I DID. I LOST MY MIND. IT’S GONE. FOREVER.

I was here vibing, nodding my head to Ruthlessness like "okay okay slay odysseus," and then PUPPETEER drops and CIRCE—OH MY GOD CIRCE—

“Come inside~”

EXCUSE ME?????????

NO. NO NO NO.

she says it so SOFT. so DELICATE. like she’s inviting you into her cursed little cottage to drink tea and then BAM—next thing you know you're a pig, you forgot your wife, and you’re calling her “mistress.”

I WAS NOT BUILT TO HANDLE THAT VOCAL DELIVERY.

I REPLAYED THAT LINE 12 TIMES.

SHE HAS MIND CONTROL IN HER VOCAL CHORDS.

Circe didn’t cast a spell, she is the spell.

Her voice? illegal. arrest her. but also let her sing to me forever.

like bestie you didn’t have to seduce my soul but here we are.

AND THE BEAT DROPS?? THE LYRICS?? THE DRAMA??

EPIC THE MUSICAL is just one long sequence of me clutching my chest and whispering “oh my god” like a Victorian woman seeing ankle for the first time.

I’m literally unwell.

I’ve abandoned all responsibilities. I don’t need therapy, I need to live on Circe’s island and hear her sing “come inside~” on repeat until my atoms disintegrate.

IN CONCLUSION:

EPIC: THE MUSICAL is the best thing to happen to greek mythology since Homer decided to write fanfiction about a war.

10/10 would sell my soul to a siren again.

Odysseus who? I’m staying right here with Circe.

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Realll

i want a friendship like theirs

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"I'm not saying James is one of them, but, y'know-"

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everyone shut up.

james marriott is speaking.

no i don’t care if you think his music is “too dramatic” or “emo” or “sad boy core”

BECAUSE THAT’S THE POINT.

i am dramatic. i am sad. i do stare out of windows pretending i’m in a music video while his songs emotionally assassinate me one by one.

his lyrics?

his voice??

the ✨ pain ✨??

the audacity of him writing songs that make me feel like he reached inside my brain, took a peek, and said “yeah, i’m gonna turn this mess into a banger.”

like sorry but

“Flip the switch now the faults all mine” ???

HELLO???

who gave you the right??

his songs are the reason i stay up at 2AM feeling everything all at once and nothing at all, and i wouldn't have it any other way.

so if you see me crying in my room with headphones in and a single tear rolling down my cheek like it’s a cinematic masterpiece—mind your business.

i love james marriott.

i love his songs.

and if being unwell about lyrics is wrong, then i don’t wanna be right

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i have to survive one more year with this class.

just one more year, but it already feels like too much. like i’m suffocating under the weight of every fake smile, every whisper, every eye roll, every day that blurs into the next.

i even tried to change things.

i sat down with my mom and told her how miserable i was. how much this class was draining me. how badly i needed to switch to class B—just for a little bit of peace. but the old principal?

he didn’t care.

he shut the whole thing down like my words didn’t even matter.

like i was being dramatic. like i should just “deal with it.”

as if this place hasn’t already taken everything out of me.

i hate him for that. truly.

at least he’s gone.

now the history teacher is principal.

someone who might actually see us as humans instead of numbers and problems to fix. but it still doesn’t undo the damage. it doesn’t change the fact that i’ve been trapped in this mess for years, and no one helped me out of it.

but it doesn’t take back the years i spent stuck in this class with people who don’t respect me, don’t know me, and don’t even try.

they make fun of everything.

even the dancing videos i post on instagram—

something that’s supposed to be my escape. my joy.

i hear their jokes. the fake compliments. the comments they think i don’t notice.

and it makes me question everything.

maybe i’m not good.

maybe i never was.

and when my parents say “it looks great” or “you did amazing,” it just sounds like another lie to make me feel better.

i don’t want to be lied to.

i want to be good.

i want to feel good about what i do.

but it’s hard when people turn everything you love into a reason to laugh.

i hate this class.

the energy. the looks. the constant drama.

and i hate how they ship me with people for no reason—like i’m just a character in a story they made up for fun.

they act like it’s a game. but it’s not.

they make me trip, fall, doubt every move i make.

and the worst part? i’m aroace.

i don’t want it. i never asked for it.

and i shouldn’t have to explain myself to anyone, but here i am, constantly on edge, constantly shrinking myself just to avoid another rumor, another "joke," another eye roll when i flinch.

and don’t even get me started on the girls in this class.

i’ve got beef with all of them except Asmo.

Asmo’s the only one who’s actually genuine.

the rest? they treat me like background noise. like something they can pick apart and toss aside when they’re bored.

even the teachers aren’t any better.

i forgot to multiply one number in a problem and suddenly it’s yelling. lectures. glares.

“why didn’t you do this?”

“are you not paying attention?”

like chill.

i’m not a therapist.

i’m not here to absorb your bad day or your stress.

i’m a student.

and i’m trying. but no one seems to notice that.

I don’t want to be here anymore.

i’m counting the days.

i just want to pass my exams, walk out of here, and never look back.

i want high school.

i want new people. fresh energy.

a place where i can just be myself without being mocked, misunderstood, or treated like i’m wrong for existing the way i do.

i want to go home after school and feel free.

to curl up in bed and binge Lockwood and Co. without the stress hanging over my head.

to cry over Alien Stage because at least those emotions are real.

to finally have peace.

no more fake friends.

no more drama.

no more shipping.

no more stares.

no more of this prison disguised as a classroom.

just one more year.

just one more year.

just one more year.

and then i’m free.

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Tee hee i have more i can tag you in if ya want

Drawings of seungmin and hyunjin!

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Yeah well i work hard W my digital drawings ,here’s one inspired by a lucifer album cover

Drawings of seungmin and hyunjin!

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OMG I LOVE IT

Drawings of seungmin and hyunjin!

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Hope you all like it!

More will come soon!

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CHARLES IS A GEMINI!? NI HAO FINE SHYT.

linewebtoon Let’s Play a little zodiac game 💟 . . #webtoon #linewebtoon #letsplaywebtoon #letsplaycomic