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Pinch Me

This is the stuff that dreams are made of.

Not a nightmare, though I have been there,

but a lovely, light dream.

I’m dancing on air.

I fear I may wake up;

pinch me, to make sure.

I never knew life could be this way.

How lovely it is to be alive today.

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Me: damn this situation I'm in sure isn't ideal, what am I gonna do about this

Suicidal Ideation Man who lives in my brain: perhaps I have a suggestion ☝️🤓

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My lover, I write so often, do you ever tire of me?

I wish that you don't because you fill my life with poetry

The softness of your touch, so gentle on my side,

As I lie resting on your chest, hearing your heartbeat keeping time.

The gentleness of your arms around me, as you whisper in my ear,

Of love and wishes for the future you know I like to hear.

Your fingers entertwine with mine, as we laugh at inside jokes,

A life we live just for each other, full of joy and hope.

Every night we sleep together, limbs a tangled mess

Trying to be close as possible, as we softly reminisce

The day is done, I'm in your arms, I feel completely home.

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You make me love, the love you give

The

Tiniest

Of your loving, your giving, is big.

The way you care

To reassure

The way you love me

Beyond the hurt...

I'm worthy, if you're here to say it

I'm not too much, too loud, too "me"

You burned my worth into my chest

With every beautiful, loving breath

A light within burst outside

Since your heart began to be with mine

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Bianca Stone, from What Is Otherwise Infinite: Poems; “Cutting Odette’s Fingernails”

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In everything you do, it’ll have reminded you My memory will be just out of sight When once it was such a heartfelt promise, Now an act of bloodless revenge You thought you’d finally lost my memory You wished and prayed to forget But you can’t imagine your home without traces of me You can’t go there without the flickers You lost that home the day you lost me You forfeited the love I bore For the wondrous place we shared no more When you see the snowcapped mountains When you smell the earthy breeze When you hear the birds all around I know you’ll think of me You can’t catch it, or burn, or break that I know my memory will forever linger My footsteps whisper on the paths We always took together My laughter echoes through your room From jokes I once spoke with joy My smile still brightens the dark when you close your eyes You knew the day that smile faded That you finally left home like you wanted But you thought I’d let you forget You thought that I’m gone just because I left You can’t force me out You can’t hope to believe you’ll be rid of me You wish, you beg, you pray To let go of the whispers of my touch You plead, you cry, you ache Knowing that you lost the stars and the endless sky For some fleeting, careless thing You’ll never forget me, I promised I’d be there Now its simply in your memories Bearing the revenge I deserve to see Yet I’ll never see your face in my mind But you’ll never stop seeing mine Knowing what you lost I’m in the mountains and the trees I’m in the snow and the ice I’m in the meadows and the sweet forest breeze You can’t forget what it meant to me I’ve lived a thousand lives in the songs of the birds I’ve been more than you imagined I’ve loved more than you could have guessed You wish your god would release you But I’ve become the earth and the sky and the stars And nothing can control my burning fury.

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Take me home to where the darkness is alight

Take me back to see Aurora in full delight

Purple, blue, green, red, all through the night

Take me home to gaze with wonder at the dazzling sight.

Aurora Borealis (Lapland, Finland)

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don't buy me roses

(11/11/23)

roses grow thorns for a reason you do not invade their safety for something so prestigious buy me something gentle something as soft inside as i am       that will grow from my scars friends of moss and ferns better yet, don’t buy me flowers speak to me with love in your words tell me how it is you really feel

c.m

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Everything hurts

what is this pain?

Everything is anger

what is there to gain?

Villian? Hero? the line blurs

I just know the pain hurts

stop the hurt

stop the hurt

I wrote love letters

hoping it would help

I let myself be the fool

now I go to my own hell

I'll make a home there,

I'll find a way to heal

but the scars don't look like my skin

the pain cut through my veins

the blood poured out

my heart broke in a million shards

my soul cries so loud

anger

pain

hurt

anger

The anger is easy

the path of least resistance

shut them off

shut them out

they think they know me

but they don't, I never doubt

how could you know someone

when you see just the wall they built

Brick by brick, scar by scar

how could you love someone

who is broken, aching, hurt?

you can't.

I could, but you couldn't,

does that make you weak, or me?

I loved too hard, you not enough

but you couldn't say the truth

You couldn't just love me.

You couldn't stay.

So I'll stay angry.

Its a bite I can chew

I'll stay angry.

All for you.

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Sometimes... I think loving is pain

Everything feels bittersweet

Before it ever comes to an end

I think gratefulness is pain

Because the ache I feel

Knowing its all temporary

Knowing what I love, will go

Is the same ache I feel

When I am yearning for it to come

And I can't feel any difference

Between heartache and loss

Homesickness, yearning

And the delight of being with friends

The security of the job I love

I'm scared to leave, to be the one going

I'm scared I'll never find experiences

Like this, ever again, after its gone.

I'm scared to do the things I dream of

Because I know one day it'll fade

And be nothing but a memory

I desperately wish to return to.

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Echoes...

Echoes from the northern lights Seep into these sodden sights And bring me back from the brink of time The song I sing is mine

Whispers in the night above Creatures made of hate, of love Sat with grace upon the sunset And told me how much they loved it

Lingering passages into my mind make things somewhat hard to find And if I were to look quite closely, I’m not sure what I’d find there for me.

Silence sounded loud to hear Until I sought a comfort dear, But luxury did no’ last long for me, And soon I spun into infinity

Seeking things that aren’t there, Watching things within thin air Speaking of a crazy sight Finding secrets in the air tonight.

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“How do you care for someone who has hurt your family, Even if they are family, too? How do you hold down your anger How do you hold down the silent truth? That their voice merely grates on your nerves, How their face makes you disgusted, wanting to look away, But in your heart you cannot look upon them in that way. Pushing down the feelings of dissappointment. That has poisoned the image of them in your mind. How do you speak without anger, When the adult you see in front of you, is not half the man you thought he was And you feel sick to your stomach Like something had suddenly gone wrong. How do you look upon the past without sadness, Wishing for relief from the reality, of someone you trusted turning out to be tainted, With lying and cheating and using things? How do you take their words for truth When lies have overtaken them? How do you trust them when they’ve eaten the apple of sin? How can you live close to someone Who has harmed your heart In the way only someone can When they have had a piece of it from the start of your life. How can you not lash out at someone Who makes you feel like a volcano of rage? Who makes you protective of another In the most unique of ways. How do you love them, when the person that they burned Was the woman who has been there for you from even before your birth? How? How do you trust when lies have held strong In lives that were so sure our family would last so long… We were mistaken in the way that can only be done by people who trusted that everyone was trustworthy.”

— The pain in my heart that I’ve turned into a piece of art.

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“The dark leaves flow around us in twirls of magic Lighting up the street from beginning to end The orange glow of a sunny morning, Shining through leaves that have just begun to fall Oh Autumn, how she sighs Air whispering to me through the trees with golden leaves The burnt sienna orange pumpkins, glossy with a heavy Autumn rain As I sit reading against a window, admiring the artist’s view, And turning pages even though part of my mind continues to watch the rain, As it drips and drops it’s sound into my listening ears These words do they flow like magic Or are they simply strung of gold? This Autumn has power within it, To make every ancient soul feel old.. For Autumn never releases old souls”

— The Autumn that I know

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“Someday I won’t look down your street as I pass by, and I won’t stop in the market just to say “hi” I won’t think about you before I sleep at night, and I won’t see your face in the morning light. I won’t look back on memories, of time spent in your arms, and I won’t think of all those things, that remind me you’re in my heart. I won’t think of you as the sun sets, even though we’ve spent hours watching it, I won’t think of times spent on the beach, as the white-capped waves crash over it… I won’t see your face when I hear the Grateful dead, Estimated Prophet will be what’s in my head. China Cat Sunflower growing up above me, as I’m Standing On The Moon watching everything. but I will remember you when I play the Guitar, and the way that you make them sing, I will remember you playing in your car, as the moon rose over the sea. I’ll remember thanksgiving, those first four hours you gave to me, of your beautiful guitar playing I remember exactly what you were saying. Speaking of the river, how it calms your soul, speaking of that old guitar, and how your heart is what she holds”

— @violinmyhead (via violinmyhead)

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Lost at Sea

If I get lost at Sea, I wonder, who would dream of my return?

If I left upon a boat, and you knew, Would you want to go, beside me?

Would I even be missed, I wonder, curiously, And quite fondly.

If I answered her call, Heeded her beckoning, And went out to Sea,

Would anyone care at all, Would they want to sail off with me?

Would they simply carry on, Loving the Sea?

If I left with no trace, And you knew not of me, Would you look for me?

When you go out to race, And you see her face, Will you search for me?

And when I pass from this space, Would you feel my grace, As I leave?

Will you still smile fondly, Though sadly, when you find photos of me,

When you look out to Sea, Upon her glassy surface What would you see?

And would you carry on, Loving the Sea?

If I lived on the Sea, Just know you wouldn’t see me

if I had a boat and could go you wouldn’t ever find me

The serene silence Filling my ears, too sweet to pass up

The creaking of boats, Whispering my name, As the Sun wakes them up

Is the sweetest thing, That I could ever wish To dream.

If I spoke of the Sea, And you heard her reply, Would you understand?

That I will always Love, The Sea…

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I dream, I think, I love, you.

Last night

I dreamt of you

As I lay there in the chill

And I thought about

All those times

You had chased away the cold

Your arms gently caressing

The silent shivers

From my body.

I dreamt of your face,

How I remember it

Is it still the same?

I dreamt of the freckles

That spatter your shoulders

Like constellations.

I dreamt of the talisman

You wear around your neck,

To be always safe at sea.

I dreamt of the way

You always seem to be

Looking right at me

I dreamt of your kisses,

Of how they always seem

So, so calming.

I dreamt of being happy,

With you by my side,

Softly smiling

I dreamt of your eyes,

Blue as the sky,

Gazing into mine

I dreamt of the way

I keep denying

That

I love you.

I thought of you

Last night

As I lay there under the covers

I thought of how

I’d never felt

So flustered with another.

I thought of your eyes

And how they remind me

Of a sunny blue sky

I thought of how

It feels to touch

Your skin.

I thought of memories

We’ve made before

Do you think of those?

I thought of your house

You had taken me to

Before it was even finished.

I thought of your voice

Deep, calm, comforting

Soothing my worries away

I thought of the Sea

You currently inhabit

Loving her unconditionally.

I thought of things

That you enjoy,

And I wonder if I’m included.

I thought, too much

And too long

Of things concerning you.

I thought of how

I keep trying to deny,

That I love you.

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“We were both pieces of art, different in every way. You were a Da Vinci drawing, diverse in detail and eerily perfect. I was as crazy as a Van Gogh painting, I’m all over the place; I’m blues mixed with yellows and a burst of sunlight, you were soft and subtle but erringly accurate in everything, everything but the starry night that I am, the burst of colour nearly smashed into canvas, into cardboard, onto walls. I’m an oil pastel and you’re a perfectly sharpened pencil, so similar but still… too different to be compatible.”

— @artisteotle @hufflepuffhogwartian (via violinmyhead)