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i realize this is the only private thing i have left that no one i know personally has access to.. so i guess im back on here to vent.

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“People think that intimacy is about sex. But intimacy is about truth. When you realize you can tell someone your truth, when you can show yourself to them, when you stand in front of them and their response is “you’re safe with me” - that’s intimacy.”

— The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo: A novel by Taylor Jenkins Reid

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Because I love you

We’re always told as kids “I do it because I love you.”

I didn’t know I love you meant

throwing dishes and slamming doors

I didn’t know I love you meant

breaking us down with your words

I didn’t know I love you meant

pretending you don’t hear when we call

I didn’t know I love you meant

screaming instead of talking

I didn’t know I love you meant

everything we do is always wrong

I didn’t know I love you meant

I have to pretend everything’s okay

I didn’t know I love you meant 

this home would be so hurtful

I didn’t know

because I love you

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What does your mental health look like?

I’m in this huge bright room

completely empty

the walls - once all white

now covered in beautiful paintings

giant golden sunflowers

the covers of my favourite books

sunrise and sunsets

waterfalls and raindrops

the beach and the forest

a warm sunny day

a perfect snowfall

music lyrics 

song titles

artists and album covers

. . . . .

but now i can’t see any of it

darkness hides them from my sight

i slide my hand along the wall where i know the painting of a perfect snowfall lies

its dark

i walk with this darkness around

that only i can see

if tv static were a shadow - it would follow me

it blocks my vision - of even my favourite things

everything’s hidden

including me

w.m

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soooo i haven’t been on here in a very long time....anyone wanna follow for follow?? i need some new content on my dash. 

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What are we? "BOOKWORMS!" What do we want?! "BOOKS!" When will we read them?! [INDISTINCT MUMBLING ABOUT HUGE TBR PILES AND MAYBE NEXT YEAR]

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What a plot twist you were (by Milamai)

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I’m at a point in my life where every morning when I wake up I wish I didn’t.

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Hey,

Today a police officer came to my house and said to me “I’m sorry to tell you, your father passed away yesterday.”

Is it weird that my first feeling was relief? And then anger, then sadness, confusion, sadness, stress, anger, sadness...

Im the only family member that he has, which means I’m the one that has to decide everything and get all his belongings.. and I’m just trying to process my feelings and I also have to talk to people and get things done. And deal with things I’m not ready to deal with yet.... any advice/help?

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When authors throw plot twists at you:

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my head is hurting because i thought about my future for 0.3 seconds

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They came from the forest

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travel

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