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me: I write for myself, not validation

also me after posting a fic *refreshes ao3 every five minutes*

(two things can be true)

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"i don't comment on ao3 because i don't wanna be annoying or weird" skill issue + you greatly underestimate the power dynamic here, writing multi paragraph comments is like feeding a bunch of deeply insane and possibly starved ducks at the park and watch them go completely mad over having received a piece of bread

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When the silly one-shot fic idea you had turns into a 10k angst brainworm and you can’t say no to the voices.

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Just watched the death in the family interactive movie endings (the endings off YouTube I can’t afford the actual things man). I’ve been a fan of Jason a while but haven’t managed to watch it yet. I’ve Seen majority of the clips before without seeing the entirety of the ending possibilities, but… my god.

The scene where it’s technically Red Hood facing the joker on the bridge. You just destroyed my life in 4 minutes. Wtf.

The looking of growing horror on Jason’s face as the Joker speaks about the actions he committed. The fact that he didn’t even realize he was the person doing it. You could see as the realization crossing Jason’s eyes as they flashed back between the scenes of his murders, crimes.

I’m under the assumption this one probably takes place in the version where Batman dies based on the way the Joker talks about ‘missing’ him in past tense. And that just adds to the entirety of Jason and him finally acknowledging that , yes, it was him who did all that. Because not only did he do all that, he did it all while failing Bruce’s final wish. It’s not like the ending where he acknowledges the fact that he is unable to follow it, where he makes the conscious decision to go against it, to do what he deems ‘right’. He was unaware of himself doing any of it until the Joker pointed it out. “I don’t kill” he says as the Joker laughs at him, breaking the entire image he had of himself. He’s forced to face the reality of what he has truly done, the almost in a way ‘failure’ to what he thought he would never do. And he finally hears himself after that, voice whispering to him about killing.

Not to mention the Joker calling Jason his creation, claiming himself as a father to what he’s become. The final kill it shows with Black Mask, where before the window shatters and cuts him open the confetti, the flag saying boom, it was an action taken with a morbid humor attached. It breaks through, shattering, Jason’s belief that the Joker isn’t creating what he is just learning he is. And once again, the horror twisting on his face as he’s forced to acknowledge all of it.

Also, additional note, I believe this version of him in the Red Hood mask is a great parallel to his utrh storyline. Cause it wasn’t, child who lost their life at 15 and when they returned learned everything had moved on without him, where he feels that his life and death wasn’t impactful on those around him, that his life was so insignificant his own father chose his killer’s life over him (thats a whole other rant). In this it’s a parallel where his father is the one who dies, he hears the final wish that avenging him isn’t what Jason needs, that its a path his father doesn’t want for Jason or himself. And Jason recognizes this, believing that he’s doing what Bruce wanted. Not following the bloody path. Then he learns he has, he learns that without knowing he did the exact opposite. Under the Red Hood, and Red Hood stories he decidedly takes this path, twists it into his own thing of significance to himself, giving his renewed life meaning. This parallel version (idk what to call it), the path more or less chooses him. He views his own actions differently, although the same things (give or take some ppl he killed), because of the experience the two versions of himself lived through.

I just ughhhhhh. All it took was 4 minutes for me to have my jaw dropped, staring at my screen, my mind repeatedly thinking about it. This will never leave my head.

Lowkey probably gonna delete or ignore this thing exists. I just rlly needed to get my thoughts out somewhere.

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u ever read a fanfic so good that you want. fanfic of the fanfic

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Guess who just watched sonic 3