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but I also wonder, has shen qingqiu with thime passing found himself comfortably getting used to saying "husband", that he no more feels flustered and embarrassed in the slightest, when saying it out loud? has he found himself liking the way this word would roll off the tongue swiftly yet surprisingly soft? I so want him to

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know that some people don’t like svsss extras. but it makes me perplexed of sort. these extras cover so much of smitten shen qingqiu, wipped shen qingqiu, embarrassed shen qingqiu and doting for binghe qingqiu. I can’t think of a better closure

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crumbled completely and irreversibly when bing-ge blurted out his little “come with me” to shen qingqiu. almost out of blue. something shifted and never came back when it all steadily spiralled heavily even further, with bing-mei whispering in a trembling voice (and I imagine him being frightened to the core), that “he” must’ve become like “this” only due the absence of shizun in bing-ge’s world

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i think i love luo binghe not a normal amount

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the narrative of bingqiu being one-sided is so off like did you guys see shen qingqiu? like really? he is dense, oblivious and clueless, of course. but he catches sympathy real fast, too. he is just way too invested into “the plot”. when the plot is literally him. everything is a fucking game to this man

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to be honest i hardly ever cry over a book. It’s been a hot minute since i did. until tgcf came through. the amount of tears i shed over the eighth volume only is beyond ridiculous, i tell you this much

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I love how hua cheng left his ashes to xie lian on a third day of their real talking stage

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every now and then (10 times per hour) i keep hearing a little “satoru~” in geto’s tiny giggly voice i -

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but the way “slut!” by taylor swift is all about hualian???

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so we have to believe that he xuan never tried to make a lil joke about hua cheng pinning for a boy since he was 5???? that he never himself ranted about having to turn into a woman and then admitting to hua cheng that he secretly likes it???? and that they don’t just randomly meet up in a non-work-related circumstances to clown heaven officials???? it feels like both of them could really go as a good superior bros at some point and like…..I would want that for them

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I will NEVER shut up about how funny was xie lian saying no no it’s not a string of fate on my finger ofc not it’s way more sophisticated and it actually allows me to know that hua cheng is safe!!! and then mu qing just went like so…it is a string of fate

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18th of December

how vividly I remember eighteenth of december six years ago. just as vivid as I remember your smile, your voice, your tender and gleaming personality, you mesmerise me. I remember every moment of that day and I felt so incredibly lost and powerless, as if I lost a friend, but hasn't we all? we looked up to you and we tried to look after you, but what can be done from this far. what can even be done from an inch close? a very own battle, each at this incredibly rough war that you held. jjongie, a sunshine you are. whenever you wander today, I hope the snow is falling there twice as much as the day you left us. I hope it feels so much better and I hope you and your friends up there take good care of each other. for us it gets better here, too. how amazes me, that through the flow of these years I was able to find peace and kind sorrow into something that once was a grim grief. I miss you so much but I have come to understanding it all now, I do. we had a great run and no matter how much time was given to us - I am happy I had a chance to see you pouring your heart and soul on and off the stage. no matter how much time were we given, It would have never been enough. oh jjongie.

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I desperately believe in quiet love. to me, love is reserved and can only be shared in between those involved. love is something beyond intimate and personal. for those outside the circle it’s existence can only be hinted through carefree gazes, small, as if accidental touches. never too much, subtle. people who love quietly do not need nor want to show the world their feelings; much rather they keep it close to their hearts, as a little secret. and then, the world is left guessing

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be it so funny but I wholeheartedly swear I have never seen love so pure and honest, before I discovered hualian

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nothing in the world belongs to me but my love, mine, all mine

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My new ship! Xie Lian and Hua Cheng from Heaven Official's Blessing!

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10/10 WOULD write

uh racing au??