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I'm alive... but only a little bit. Good evening Nemmy nation :)

I remembered this blog existed via a conversation on Discord with my boyfriend... isn't that crazy? Omg I find it hard to keep up this formal typing style, sorry I'm insane now I have issues please forgive me. Live laugh love. Mwah

OK ANYWAY... I hope you're all doing well <3 seeing all the notes my posts have gathered is so funny to me like damn we all just got grabbed by BSD again huh....... I haven't watched the new episodes yet but wowwwww. Wow. Please do let me know how you've all been doing ok? I missed talking to everyone!!!

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are you still gonna post stuff? it's been a while since you be posted any content so i'm wondering if you're discontinuing this blog or something like that

Hello! It has been quite a while, hasn’t it? T_T I do intend to keep posting! I’ve been very busy as of recently so I haven’t had any time at all, so I apologize for that. However, I’ve got plenty of wonderful requests to work on, so keep an eye out! I don’t plan on discontinuing this blog anytime soon. :D

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hey! so i came across your blog recently and i really love your works <3 can i make a request?

have a nice day!<3

Hello there! Please forgive me for answering this so late, but thank you so much! You’re very kind, I appreciate all of it. ^__^ You sure can! Feel free to send it in whenever you’d like. Have a nice day as well, anon!

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Firstly, I absolutely adore your blog! Second of all, could I please get Fyodor with a very timid darling? A sweetheart, but so awfully shy. Thank you!

SUMMARY. fyodor with a shy darling

WARNINGS. general yandere themes, brief nsfw

goodness, he'd absolutely adore you. you're just such a sweet little thing, so considerate and soft, how could he not adore you?

when you two first met, he was very amused with how you nervously averted your eyes from his and fumbled over your words. you were definitely scared, but far too much of a sweetheart to hurt his feelings just because you felt a little bit uncomfortable. he became obsessed almost too quickly, but it couldn't be helped when you were this cute.

he's not usually the type to tease, but your reactions are just so cute that he can't help it. merely staring at you will have you flustered and fidgeting nervously. he loves wrapping his arms around you from behind, pulling you tightly against him as he whispers about how adorable you are, or something like that. he gets a lot of satisfaction when you turn around and shove your face into his chest to hide your embarrassment.

he's definitely very soft with you. you're awfully sensitive, so he's as attentive and considerate as he can be. sometimes he just wants to be mean to you because he wants to know what kind of reaction you'd have, but he tries his best to make sure you feel loved by him. you're his sweet, shy little darling, he can't have you hating him because you felt uncared for.

he loves being affectionate with you. sometimes he'll pull you in his lap and just kiss you softly, rubbing his hands up and down your body because he can't get enough of you. he'll take any chance he gets to be as close as possible to you. he especially loves it because you're so plinat and you never deny him—you just lean into his touch and let him hold you for as long as he wants. mostly 'cause you're too scared to pull away, but also because he's so warm and it feels so nice being close to him.

i absolutely think he has a corruption kink, and a timid darling is perfec for that kind of thing. god, it's just so easy for him to pin you down and do sinful to you while you just whine helplessly underneath him. he definitely likes it when you cry—the look on your face when you do is just so delicious. it makes him wanna make you cry more, while at the same time he wants to kiss your tears away. it's almost overwhelming to him how much desire he has for you.

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Any Sigma requests? I’m feeling some hardcore Sigma brainrot all of a sudden. 🥹

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iwchuuya welcomes you!

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"have a pure, cheerful, and energetic suicide." dazai's motto

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I know I’m notoriously bad at getting these done, but I looove this list, so please send some in! 1 per character. ^_^

prompts masterlist.

SFW ;

1 — “don’t cry, baby. i know, i know. you can’t move and you can’t speak, that's just a side affect of the drugs.”

2 — "do i have to carve my name into your skin for you to understand that you're mine?"

3 — "please be good for me, i really don't wanna hurt you."

4 — "me? stalking you? i'm just trying to keep you safe!"

5 — "you look so pretty when you're sleeping"

6 — "your lips are much softer than i ever imagined"

7 — "i didn't mean to scare you. i'm sorry, sweetheart."

8 — "just give in already, you know it's what's best for you."

9 — "i'm so sorry, i know this is wrong, but i can't help it."

10 — "just come out already, my dear. i know i'm getting closer, i can hear you crying."

11 — "are the ropes too tight? i can loosen them a little bit if you want."

NSFW ;

12 — "don't worry, sweetheart. i won't show these photos to anyone else, they're just for me."

13 — "it's too big? oh don't worry your pretty little head off about that, i'll make it fit."

14 — "you don't want it? but look at the mess you're making."

15 — "you look so pretty all fucked out and covered in my cum."

16 — "let them watch, that way they know you're mine."

17 — "every time you say that i get so horny."

18 — "shh, baby. go back to sleep, i just wanna feel you real quick."

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omg i REMEMBER that line from when I read the day I picked up dazai! very good LN I liked it a lot. maybe that line made me subconsciously start thinking about eelzai lol.

I've been meaning to bug u more about yanderes As Is My Brand but I have SO MANY ideas banging around in my cavernous skull that I end up not being able to pick one and just rambling like a lunatic in my notes app. I will share a little bit about sea monster dazai since he was brought up, though: I've been considering two big things. 1) I remember a while ago reading that there is a belief that a mermaids kiss can allow you to breathe underwater, if dazai happens to learn about THAT little tidbit of information you KNOW hes gonna run away with it! or, swim away with it, rather. he has to test this new theory right away! come on, get in! he has ZERO ulterior motives for insisting you let him kiss you its JUST an experiment come on please? Please? or if we're going with the storyline where ur mad at him for such a frivolous reason as he attacked and tried to eat you (it was only gonna be a BITE! see, not so bad! its was all a misunderstanding pls come back...) it could be a little stunt on his end to get you to trust him again, etc. hed be a bit frustrated if the effect was only temporary, as this puts a wrench in his plan to take you down to his cave and keep you there forever, but the silver lining is now he can demand kisses from you every few hours and have an excuse as to why. 2) in most depictions of sea monsters I've seen, even ones that are mostly humanoid, theyre rather large! like, almost completely dwarfing pirate ships level large! can probably pick a human up with one hand large! there's even a scene in the little mermaid where Ursula gets that big, so do you think dazai would be able to do that? maybe he sticks to a manageable- but still rather Long thanks to the tail- size usually out of laziness and a desire to stick near the shallow shores (cuz he likes the food better, not cuz thats where his little darling lives. just a coincidence.) where there's less room for him to get to his full size. but once he's in the open ocean? ohhh boy.... maybe try to avoid going put too far on any boats, darling, lest dazai decides to start showing off.

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finally answering this oh my god i am so sorry again for the delay 100/10 would read ur notes app rambles you have so much fun thoughts it's insane

cw: yandere character, obsessive behavior, non-con kissing, descriptions of sea monster! dazai (including him being unnaturally large, eel-like body, sharp teeth, etc), manipualtive behavior

please don't proceed if any of the warnings make you uncomfortable!!

i do hc eelzai (cute name btw) as being Huge. he can sort of 'elongate' his body when he needs it, but usually sticks to a length of around 10 feet. thing is, when he's underwater and darling is on the surface, they can't tell how big he actually is. relative to regular people, dazai does have larger hands, but it isn't to an alarming extent. it's pretty normal for something not-human to be bigger than an ordinary human, after all. i'd think it's easier to navigate this way, 'cos dragging around a long body isn't the most efficient way of getting around. there's no doubt in my mind he can definitely go bigger. pirate ship big? possibly, but he hasn't really tried to see how much he can grow. it's too much trouble, too easy for some pesky human to spot him. if darling wanted to see, though, he would entertain them without a thought.

THE KISS THING that's so cute actually but not so much in this context. eelzai hears about this from chuuya (aka the most reliable source of information in the seas) and immediately decides it is the perfect solution for all his problems. now he has an excuse to kiss darling all the time, and can keep them with him underwater where their annoying human companions won't bother them. in the 'darling is mad because dazai is insane and tries to attack them' timeline, dazai lures darling in with the promise of breathing underwater despite not knowing if the kiss theory holds any water. what if mermaids were referring to sirens, like chuuya, and not monsters like him? of course he doesn't tell darling this, opting to just lie through his teeth about how they can finally see all the pretty things under the sea up close. what did they mean, asking if he was telling the truth? does he look like a liar? would he risk darling's safety over a rumour? he's almost offended by their lack of trust in him.

fortunately for him, it does work. unfortunately for darling, it has a pretty short duration period. this means if they want to stay longer, they have to kiss him more. dazai thinks it's an amazing deal, of course. but if this happens to a darling who isn't very well acquainted with dazai yet, it's just terrifying to be dragged underwater and sloppily kissed and later dragged down deep by a large monster with too-sharp teeth and a dangerous look in his eyes.

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camelia and nutmeg 🥰🖤

My heart and brain went !!! when I saw you sent me an ask. 🥺💝 I've honestly been wanting to interact with you for a while, if that isn't too odd to say. Thank you for the ask! <3

Camellia ⇢ What were you like when you were younger? Do you think you’ve changed a lot?

Oh, dear. To put it bluntly, I was a very strange child. Probably the undiagnosed autism. I was a complete shithead, I will be honest. Thinking about it makes me laugh. I do think I've changed quite a bit! I've been through a lot of rough patches in my life, especially in middle and high school, so I think I've come a long way since those days.

Nutmeg ⇢ How’s your room/home decorated? Do you have a specific theme or style going on?

My home, where I live with my parents and sister, is a mix between that super cheesy primitive style decor and modern decor! My mum is really into crafting, sewing, and crocheting, so a lot of our decorations are handmade. We do have a "live, laugh, love" sign in our house, LOL. My room, however, doesn't have any of that! I collect scale figures, so that's a pretty big part of it, along with my huge collection of stuffed animals and other silly trinkets that I don't have the heart to trash. I don't think there's much of a theme, though, honestly! If I like a decoration, I'll find a place for it somehow. ^_^

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 ﹟random get-to-know-me ask game  !! 

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

cactus ⇢ something you’re currently learning (about)?

bamboo ⇢ do you change into a different outfit when you get home?

abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?

daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them?

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?

chia ⇢ what’s an inside joke you have with someone else?

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you?

camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?

jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts?

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

palm tree ⇢ do you have a fictional villain you shouldn’t like but love regardless?

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about?

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Why does this cat remind me of Akutagawa...

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character: vampire!chuuya nakahara

a/n: can you tell he's living in my mind rent free? historic/vampire au. how can't i find any content on something like this myself when it's right there in front of us. pulling a thanos "fine, i will do it myself" ig. word count: 2.9k

cw: mentions of murder. typical vampire/horror elements. idk bro is this yandere-ish? i dont think? not really, at least.

had you known in the days before - the days of your previous life - what were to come shall you follow the strangers' invitation, whoever it was residing inside that castle east to your little village, would you have still accepted it?

the night was cold and the wind wild, had dragged you around on its leash as your feet began to stumble and sink further into the deep white on the ground. elder townsfolk had warned you that a storm was incoming as you were doing your daily chores at the market, imploring you to stay, postpone your later engagement. you had kindly reassured them back then, but as you had finally made your way out of the carriage, you couldn't help but wonder if maybe you should have listened- told the coachman an apology and remained in the warmth and safety of your home.

swallowing, you moved forward, knees slowly giving up as you turned your head back towards your escort - a young man, barley if any younger than yourself, but sickly in condition from what you could gather, skin pale and cold to the touch as he had had helped you inside. but you didn't expect any help now, seeing as the cart moved to the back and towards the barns. had you not reached the door before you already, you might have fallen, as if nothing but one of the most delicate of dolls.

puppet on a string, you felt more forced than anything to knock on the gate before you, heavy as metal and height double yours. so, you the hit with urgency, knob of a lion's mouth swallowing your shaking hands as you went at it again.

you didn't have to wait long for them to open wide and step back, caught a glimpse of red, old floors and warm candle light unfolding themselves before you in all their luxurious glamour. they made him only the second thing you noticed as you stayed frozen before the sight. you were convinced now, that the low temperatures of the midst of winter may have short circuited your ability of perception, as he with hair red - orange as the evening sun - is the now the only thing you really see in this castle at all.

your eyes widened in shock, aware that he before you must have been your gracious host for the night. you bow deeply, rushed as you brought your legs to cross as eloquently as you were able to, most of your feet hidden in the deep, deep snow.

"please" his voice was rough and dry in the throat, careless in tone and exhausted, heavy bags under crystal eyes. at that time, you had blamed the late hour of your arrival. your small travels had, after all, taken the better half of the night, the weather a misfortune for you all. he waved his hand dismissively. "there is no need."

"come inside, you might just die if you stay outside any longer."

you nodded, gratefully stepping inside as you took off your coat. gazing around, everything shined in the reds and oranges of fire you had seen in flashes before, all speaking of warmth. if not for its size, you might have considered it homely. but not all was of such comfort. the hand of your host was cold to the touch, as his servants' had been, out in freezing winds for hours. compared to him, he'd been kept safe and sound inside inviting walls.

"it's a sickness" he snickered as you recoiled, hands fixed on the tips of your own, before they landed on his fingers - rough but somehow almost dainty all the same as he offered to take your coat. "i'm not quite that contagious yet, i assure you. we are all just quite lacking in blood in my family, you see."

you nodded again, this time in understanding - had taken care of weakened children of your townspeople before, much similar in condition.

"i see. i hope you are taking care sir.." you trailed off.

"nakahara." he offered, sending you a reassuring grin, "but chuuya will be of satisfactory means for you. and i, surely"

you smiled a little then, bit the inside in your cheek shyly as you failed to surpress the grin creeping onto your features. "alright, sir chuuya."

now, now" chuuya laughed in ridicule. "that's not what i meant."

"surely this is too informal, sir" you inquired, "you are, quite obviously, of higher standing than me, or anyone in town for that matter. i would not want to disrespect you."

"truly" he said, letting himself fall into a chair as you entered the enormous living quarters. "the most disrespect you can do me is by denying me this wish." he grinned up at you from his seat, figure all splayed out. "will you allow me the favor?"

there was a glimmer in his eyes as he raised an eyebrow at you, one that you didn't mind admiting you liked, enjoyed as he regarded you with it.

"alright, alright" you laughed as you sat down beside him, dinner served before you. "it is a pleasure then, chuuya."

"though i am not quite sure what i owe the honor to if i'm being frank."

"please eat, your travels must have exhausted you", he offered, continuing as you did.

"it has come to me" he started. "that you have taken over responsibilities for provisions and lifestock in your little town, isn't that right?"

"well, not only of course"

"of course," he repeated after you. "but you are among them."

"you see," he spoke. "i'm quite new to your terrain, have only recently settled in the castle myself - offer of a friend to find a more quiet, secluded environment - and live far from the farmers of your town and the market-"

"so i've heard." you laughed, smiling as he rolled his eyes, seemingly amused by you.

"what i'm trying to say is that i'd like for you to be my supplier. so far away from anything at all, it would be quite inconvenient otherwise."

you smiled kindly, content and full, the fireplace near and the atmosphere brining you a sense of comfort you still regret feeling at all. "surely, we can come to a mutually beneficial agreement on that, do not fret. i'd gladly take on negotiations with you."

he too sent you a charming grin before he stood up. "i am sure of it." having your own meal finished, you had barley been able to register he had not once touched his own. "i'll show you to your chambers for the night. the storm is still wild and going and you must be worn from such an adventure of your own. our transactions may be postponed till tomorrow i say, don't you agree? we'll have a lot to discuss then."

you laughed. "certainly."

but tomorrow never quite came, or rather not as you imagined it to. the next morning as you had walked up to the main hall, later than expected as you had slept through till noon, the only sign he'd been there at all was a silent note of elegant handwriting. chuuya would be gone till evening, he excused himself, had found a friend not too far in need of a helping hand during an early ride.

that pattern returned over and over, as he would be absent during the early hours, only to return late as if coming out from nowhere at all. only for the two of you to sit together at the fireplace till the hours of dawn once again. he allowed you to roam freely through the halls, make your way through his castle. had not fully explored it himself yet, he had said, and would be delighted to hear what you could find. and so you rummaged through the rooms, at first with respectful eyes, later with curious hands. at one point you had found a study, his, maps - places crossed out and circled. it all looked much like you've seen some do before leaving for the woods in the warmer months of the year to stay deer, and they were simply falling out of books you had inspected with interest.

"so you're a hunter?" you asked that evening.

"i'm sure you could say so." he laughed. at this point in time, you had almost liked the hungry look in his eyes as his gaze fixed itself on you, rush of excitement rushing right through your veins. he was a charming man after all, had treated you so kindly and offered you knowledge of cultures all around in your talks, places you've never even seen or heard of.

something within him, even with your growing suspicion rising throughout the days, felt majestic to watch, observe and interact with. enough for you to turn a blind eye to what else you saw not with your mind, but with your senses. you could not tear your eyes apart from him, your breath hitched at his expression smug. "no prey i turn my eyes upon manages to escape, that much i can assure you."

"why are you in need of my services then?" you inquired. "if you can fend for yourself like that?"

"well," you remember him saying, looking back.

"you can't expect a meager rabbit to compare to a bull."

as time progressed, chuuya had gotten more into himself, face well rested and his talks more energetic. his pale skin, once comparable to the dead, almost shined now, in comparison to the brightness of his hair. sometimes you would even think to catch glimpses at teeth, refined and sharpened as he talked with you, as if a friend he'd known for ages prior.

not once during the passing days (or were it weeks now?) was your business much topic of any of your late night talks. not once had you managed to keep your conversations at it for long, before he swiftly pulled your attention the other way, asking questions about your life, you, and telling you stories of his, his family, legacy and all you could think the world had to offer. far too much to know for a man just around your age as well.

compared to chuuya, you felt your own energy swindling, some days better, some days worse. one day you would wake with crippling pain in your neck, tight ache tearing you apart as you moved, the other you would not feel much at all, unable to quite leave your bed and falling to your knees as you saw black when you tried. you couldn't help but compare your current state to what chuuya described on the day you met him, weakness and exhausting easily overcoming your body from the tiniest of things. on these days, chuuya would make a point of it to remain in the castle it seemed, taking care of you as to see to your condition bettering himself.

you couldn't even quite say for how long you had already stayed inside his castle. it could have been as short as a week of vacation, or as long as a year if not more. no answer would have come to your head, had someone asked. and you couldn't inquire much from chuuya either, ever so talented to change subjects and entertain you otherwise until you've had enough. steadily, you felt less like a guest, more like a prisoner.

and so you decided to leave, another day on which chuuya had warned he'd be out of the house for business. not once had you been able to close your eyes that night, growing anticipation of something to happen, something you didn't want to believe as you held a hand to your neck, as if you could ever shield it if you tried.

so when the clock stroke eight and you were sure the sun must have risen, you ran. there was no bother to take any of your belongings. all you needed, all you wanted, was outside the door you had entered through and longed to open again ever since.

"what's with all the running?" you heard his voice before you saw him, chilling, unruffled as if you had done no more than stolen the last cookie in the jar. you were no threat, had fallen into his trap the moment you entered his territory - hunting domain. you stepped back.

and back. and back and back and back and back- until your back hit a wall. your breath felt raged as your hands desperately grabbed onto nothing, gaze turning and flickering anywhere but him. chuuya. there was no means of escape, no weapon to turn to. if only you could have torn each and every frame in the build apart, grasp onto what little you could get to keep him at distance, or at least keep the illusion of it.

"where do you think you're going?"

"i-, you!" you stumbled before your voice grew louder in anger. "you. are not. human."

something inside you felt animalistic as you spoke, better judgment long forgotten as adrenaline had pumped through your veins, pulsing, rushing. "i know what you are."

"they tell stories about your kind in town."

"well then" chuuya taunted. his gaze didn't waver. compared to you he hadn't moved from his place at the door at all, tone cool. you had never once lost his sight. not just there. through it all, you had realized. he read you like an open book, smirk appearing on marble features. "what am i?"

"undead. blood sucker. leech." you spit. "vampire."

"mhm" he hummed. "leech is quite creative. don't think i've heard that one before. i give my compliments."

"i'm leaving." you said. "the sun is up. you cannot follow me. all i'll have to do is simply open a curtain and you are no more than ashes."

"and what makes you think i'd let you get so far?"

"i'm fast. faster than you." he spoke, tone composed, obvious as he rolled his eyes. "much anyone can do. i've given you freedom. all movement you did, every step you took, take, i allowed it."

"i must say, i was even beginning to like you. see you figure it out one-by-one, do your little detective work throughout the castle and connect the dots. you're quite amusing for sure, that i will give you."

he sighed. "and still, here we are. i really tried to make this comfortable for you."

"should i thank you for that now?" you screamed. "you've kept me prisoner long enough! this isn't some business of equal exchange." your tone darkened as you grit your teeth. "i've been kept in the dark as you took and took without remorse. why?"

"easy." he responded matter-of-factly. "frankly, you townsfolk, you all just taste so horribly simple."

"the men i'd usually take in the nights too, if not even more so. unaware as they themselves are out on the hunt, to rob, to steal, to kill, to-" he interrupted himself, tone tense. "they smell like they are rotting alive, taste as rotten flesh. i'd be in better luck with rummaging the graves of their ancestors."

"but you." he said, had moved closer to you in the while, appearance sudden. your fists tightened instinctively, your body leaning back further and further, as far away as you could. "you smell alive."

the touch on your cheek was gentle. you might have mistaken it as soothing, had you not known better. you wouldn't let the false sense of security return. he was danger. those hands - these beautiful hands - were made to kill. had killed.

"you're not running from me."

"now come." he said and his soft touch turned harsh. "as a valuable guest, you are to remain in good condition for the," he chuckled. "remainder of your stay. breakfast is prepared."

you had gulped, took all remaining courage within you to glare then. eyes on fire as you spoke. this time you didn't flinch as you did. no matter how close he was, no matter how he was forcing you to look up at him. you held his gaze.

"and when" you sneered. "will that stay end?"

he smirked down on leisurely, shaking his head as if you were no better than sheep trying to intimidate a wolf. you were prey. again and again this sentence flew through your head. you are prey. and if you're prey, his prey, you are-

"say, don't they have a phrase for that where you come from too, pet?" he quipped, leaning closer, close enough that you had felt his breath against your neck, something you know shouldn't have existed, rhythm dangerously controlled. "let me think of it again."

you knew what he was holding in, self-inflicted jurisdiction, restraint more notable in his actions than you would have liked to admit. you closed your eyes and let out a whimper, chuuya's fangs grazing sensitive skin. your heartbeat fastened, and you bit back all noise, all screams and cries, so you were so desperate to utter. still beg to till this day.

"till death do us part, right?"

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RELATIONSHIP RED FLAGS IN BSD MEN…!

Inspired by this! Thank you for allowing me to take inspiration from your lovely work.

Content warnings: Abusive/toxic relationships, yandere, manipulation, generally terrible men, these are not healthy relationships.

Characters included: Dazai Osamu, Nakahara Chuuya, Nakajima Atsushi, Akutagawa Ryuunosuke, Kunikida Doppo, Fyodor Dostoevsky, Nikolai Gogol, Sigma.

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[yandreamings]

RELATIONSHIP RED FLAGS IN BSD MEN…!

Inspired by this! Thank you for allowing me to take inspiration from your lovely work.

Content warnings: Abusive/toxic relationships, yandere, manipulation, generally terrible men, these are not healthy relationships.

Characters included: Dazai Osamu, Nakahara Chuuya, Nakajima Atsushi, Akutagawa Ryuunosuke, Kunikida Doppo, Fyodor Dostoevsky, Nikolai Gogol, Sigma.

[DAZAI LIES TO YOU.] Where to start with this guy… really, he’s a walking red flag, isn’t he? Well, he’s handsome, he’s outgoing, and he’s funny, so what’s not to love? In your eyes, everything is perfectly fine- you have a normal, happy, caring boyfriend who would never do anything wrong. Guess what? False information! Dazai has lied to you from the day you first met. About his job, about his past, hell, even about his hobbies and favourite colour. He liked you from the beginning, and knew he didn’t want to let you slip away, so he has to do this. He’s so good at it that you’re none the wiser, too. You adore him and see him as the perfect partner, just what he wanted. People who actually know Dazai give you weird looks whenever you praise him so highly, but it doesn’t matter to you. You love him, and he loves you! So, what’ll happen when you’re confronted with the truth? When you realize your lover has blatantly lied to your face about nearly everything?

[CHUUYA IS POSSESSIVE.] If I were being honest, a relationship with Chuuya would be great. He’s caring, respectful, and knows how to treat you, so it’s wonderful! Except for the fact that he’s pulled a gun on every single other man who has tried to look at you. And shanked someone who was trying to hit on you at a bar. And never lets you out of his sight whenever you’re out with him. Or in general. So... maybe not that great. But can you blame him? He’s lost so much in his short life, knowing nothing but loss and pain, but then you come along! He doesn’t realize he has this issues, either- or maybe he just doesn’t care. He’s not going to stop anytime soon and he won’t let anyone touch what belongs to him. Chuuya spoils you rotten and makes sure you know that you’re loved, but can you deal with an iron grip on your waist and a harsh glare at anyone who dares to try and speak to you?

[ATSUSHI WORHIPS YOU LIKE A DEITY.] Poor, poor Atsushi... all he wants is for someone to love him, and how that he’s finally found you, his beloved, his most treasured person, he wants to make sure you know just how much he adores you. Some people don’t say I love you enough, but Atsushi says it a bit too much. It’s kind of cute at first, with all the gifts and his endearing, flushed cheeks as he tells you he loves you, but it doesn’t take long for things to go awry. At 5am sharp, he spams you with messages, ranging from ‘Good morning, have a good day today!’ to ‘Please text me back. Please. I miss you. I hope you’re okay. Please. I love you.’ You can’t catch a break with him, to be honest. He’s so in love with you that it creeps your friends out; some of them have told you that they catch him staring at you from behind a corner whenever you’re out with them. If you ever try to break up with him, prepare to be guilt-tripped by his wobbling lips and tears eyes. Don’t leave him- you can’t, you’d never do something like that, right? He loves you so much, don’t you see?

[AKUTAGAWA WANTS TO OWN YOU.] Akutagawa has no idea what he’s doing when it comes to dating and love. He knows he gets a weird, funny feeling in his chest whenever you touch him or smile at him, but he still doesn’t get it. And... why do you think you can talk to other men? Or other people? Is he not good enough? Sometimes, he swears that one day he’s just going to take you and keep you in his home for only him to see and talk to. Honestly, it doesn’t even strike him as something that’s wrong- you’re his, aren’t you? You swore to him that you’d never betray him or do anything so outrageous, so the best way to do that is take you as his own, permanently. He won’t care if you scream and cry and make a big fuss, he has his own ways of shutting you up, so do what you want. It won’t stop him.

[KUNIKIDA IS CONTROLLING.] Fork spotted in the kitchen, am I right? Kunikida is a man who knows what he wants when he wants it, and that pertains to you as well. You need to be awake at the same time as him, dressed to his standards, work hard at your job, eat according to his meal plans, and make time for dates, too. It get super exhausting super quickly, but if you bring it up, he makes it seem like you’re the bad guy here, that he’s just trying to help you be your best self, so you stay. He genuinely loves you and wants what’s best for you, so just let him do this, okay? He knows he can be hard on you (understatement), but it’s all in good faith. Also, make sure to brush your teeth better next time at 9pm sharp, long enough after dinner. He can see that you haven’t been doing it good enough lately. Don’t make him come and watch you.

[FYODOR THINKS YOU’RE INFERIOR TO HIM.] This is kind of a given, isn’t it? If you’ve managed to be manipulated into a relationship with Fyodor, congratulations! You’re going to develop the inferiority complex of the decade. It’s not that he tells you he thinks he’s better than you, it’s in his actions. If you go to a restaurant, he orders for you and doesn’t let you speak to the waiter; you might mess it up again! Come on, he can do it for you, don’t be silly. He picks out your clothes for you; no offense, but you’ve never had the best taste, darling, and he knows what you look good in anyway. He never listens to anything you have to say unless you’re telling him how much you love him or something similar. The way he likes you is at his beck and call, so if you’re not into being treated like a subhuman lover, then I’d run away if I were you.

[NIKOLAI NEVER TAKES YOU SERIOUSLY.] This dude takes the word clown to a whole new level when it comes to your relationship. It’s fun at first; all of your dates are exciting, he’s always got something up his sleeve to impress you, and he seems like a great guy (except for all the atrocities, but that’s for another day) for the most part. However, if you bring up a concern to him, relationship-related or not, he scoffs, brushes you off, and acts like nothing happened. That, or he ridicules you like nothing else. Even if you’re crying your eyes out, begging him to take something seriously, he only laughs, saying you look super cute when you’re crying. He’s quite sadistic, if you can’t tell, so he’ll probably add insult to injury and make fun of you if you push him further. 

[SIGMA ALWAYS TRIES TO APPEASE YOU.] Okay, this doesn’t sound so bad on the surface, but Sigma will not argue with you or have difficult conversations. Ever. You want to have a serious talk with him? Ah, he’s busy, but he’ll bring you home a gift after work! He did something you don’t like? Don’t get made, please, how about he takes you out to dinner? He’s avoidant to the core when it comes to you, only because he knows there are more experienced guys out there who know what they’re doing, and you could leave him for one of them any day, but especially if he says the wrong thing during an argument. So he just... doesn’t have them! Simple, right? Yeah, not so much. It’s all smiles and rainbows according to Sigma, and he outright refuses to listen to any separation or break talk. It’s just not necessary, you know? Why waste time getting angry when he could get you a shiny new necklace, or that outfit he knows you’ve been eyeing? Good luck with that attitude, buddy.

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