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Happiness

I found it again

a goddess of spring in winter

how do I explain

the flowers withered

I went insane

the voices whisper

they left these bloodstains

I shouldn't have listened

but I'm still partly human

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Hello. I am writing to request permission to use your poem in a self-help book I am publishing. Please let me know what the best email is to send you the permission form. Thank you!

Absolutely, I'm happy you like my poetry! Poshi@live.com

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Love letters with a cigarette

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hot lava game

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just face it my dear people will like you a lot less when you’re lying at home lonely, anxious, and super depressed

k.s.b

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I’m stuck, stuck in this insane pattern of giving people everything because I’m so desirous of making meaningful relationships even though I know what a maniac I am for doing this since no one will ever do the same thing for me and I can’t expect them to because everyone else has too many people who cares for them to be able to give one single person as much as I do

k.s.b 

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the explosion is gone and for a minute or two I don’t feel anything else than happiness

k.s.b (via foxmetal)

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when I’m feeling empty I try to fill up the hole by ripping out some poetry or pretending like I have control when I’m high as a kite the explosion in my lungs compress so somehow I feel happy and I forget that I’m a mess when I’m around shot glasses you always see me smiling if they ask me why I drink so much just expect me to be lying now I’m blowing out my candles and I can’t help but wishing to get back that essential part that it feels like I am missing

k.s.b

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if there is anyone else out there who have tried to put on make-up while crying I just want you to know that I’m so terrible sorry I know how it feels to look yourself in the mirror while crying and trying to make the tears stop while you try to put on foundation without the tears ruining it I’m so sorry that there’s people out there who tells you that you’re only doing it for attention when really you’re trying so hard to cover it up I’m so sorry that you feel like you have to put on a mask and seeing how your body can’t take it anymore I’m so sorry that you’re just trying to be the usual you but the sadness is too damn strong I’m sorry that you have to be so strong just to be able to put on makeup

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I'm sorry for not posting anything but it's just a bit much now with christmas and everything. Hope I'll be able to start again soon!

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She told me that she’s a burden to each and every person I told her that her smile is what helps me to survive We told them that we were tired of life and all it required so we agreed to stand by each other’s side and help each other to stay alive

"WE", ksb

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Anyone who would be interested in buying my book if I published one soon?

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they say your eyes look dead and it’s like someone’s there but no one’s home I’ve seen your scars and I’ve seen your burns darling, I know a battleground when I see one

"Battleground", k.s.b