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Insomnia, or Something Like It

I don’t remember when the No-Sleep Off officially began; probably sometime after sunrise, probably after you said “you won’t last” and I said “watch me.”

It started off innocent enough: the Skype glow softening your face in the morning light, my webcam grainy from the cross-country connection, your voice just brushing the edge of tenderness.

By hour fifteen, I was gritting my teeth and blasting EDM. By hour twenty-one, my limbs started to ache. I thought:

"This is what love is. A haze. A dare. A boy who keeps me awake just by breathing into my headphones."

You probably played some video game, chugged cups of coffee. I stopped blinking. My head lolled like a lucid marionette. You kept checking to see if I was still there. I was. I wouldn’t break first. I couldn't lose.

I'd already laughed myself breathless underneath you, let you bite my neck purple, worn knee socks and peach chapstick like a spell, traced I love you into your chest and let the silence echo louder than any answer.

By hour twenty-eight, I was trembling. By hour thirty-two, I couldn’t feel my face. My stomach churned. My eyes watered. I whined involuntarily.

You started sounding frustrated—guilty, even. You told me to stop, said it wasn’t funny anymore. The game had turned into something else, something you couldn’t name, something that made you uncomfortable in your own skin.

So I did. I let you win. Not because I really lost, but because you seemed too shocked at how much pain I was willing to bear for you.

I remember wearing your clothes like a confession, red dye bleeding into my bathtub, singing through tears at tech week like it didn’t mean anything.

I thought maybe this was it. This was what ruined me.

And even in bliss with someone who loves me better, I still smile. I still ache.

I still feel wide awake.

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I absolutely love these three people😻

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Over the garden wall background art

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hey, did you know that the world is a better place because of your creations and art and writing, no matter how niche or how many people see it

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Adult Ed Edd n' Eddy fans, where y'all at???

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Actually no one should be having sex. All of us are aged-up minors and the passage of time is inherently problematic

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☀️ it’s her month!!! ☀️

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Fandom - Ed Edd n' Eddy Rating - Teen and Up Title & Link - Porcelain Genres - high school AU, angst, rivalry, character study Pairing(s) - Kevin x Original Character (implied), Edd "Double D" x Original Character (implied) Words - 557 Summary - Tracey's used to being the girl everyone smiles at, and Marie's had enough of it.

Author's Notes - Think my OC is a Mary-Sue? Marie thinks so too. This is a short vignette about Tracey's internal and external landscapes, through the lens of a justifiably frustrated Kanker sister.

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My OC Ship Dynamics:

Kevin and Tracey (KevTrace) are made for the people who love chaos, who romanticize recklessness, who know what it’s like to be wanted more than they’re understood. They're made for sneaking out during class, yelling over dirt bike engines, kissing like it's a dare, and breaking up without ever saying the words.

Tracey and Edd (TracEdd) are made for the people who crave quiet connections, who overthink everything, who’ve been waiting their whole life for someone to really see them and stay. They're made for brushing fingertips in science labs, finishing each other's thoughts, falling apart without needing to explain, and falling in love like it's a hypothesis that keeps proving itself.

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Tryna draw my version of these kids more often bc I rlly like the designs… and I just wanna draw them again

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Fandom - Ed Edd n' Eddy Rating - Teen and Up Title & Link - The KevTrace Files Genres - high school AU, fluff, non-graphic smut, angst, coming-of-age, slow-burn, sad ending Pairing(s) - Kevin x Original Character, Edd "Double D" x Original Character, Kevin x Nazz Chapters - 4/18 Summary - Tracey Foxgrove didn’t move to Peach Creek looking for trouble. But trouble tends to have a nice smile, a busted-up bike, and a leather jacket that smells like gasoline and cheap cologne. Kevin’s the kind of boy your mother warns you about, and Tracey’s the kind of girl who laughs as she ignores every warning. In a town too small for secrets, the two of them spark something fast, loud, and messy. And neither of them knows how to slow down.

Author's Notes - Buckle up folks, because The KevTrace Files aren't just going to be messy, they’re going to be frustrating, reckless, occasionally tender, and absolutely doomed from the start. This is a story about choosing the wrong person on purpose, ignoring red flags with both eyes open, and realizing too late that adrenaline isn’t intimacy. The first four chapters are up now!!

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Fandom - Ed Edd n' Eddy Rating - Teen and Up Title & Link - Chemical Reactions Genres - high school AU, coming-of-age, slow-burn, fluff with a spicy twist Pairing - Edd "Double D" x Original Character Word Count - 1,368 Summary - Balancing chemical equations should be simple. Balancing the way his heart stutters every time Tracey leans a little too close is not. Edd's afternoon was supposed to be about science, not survival.

Author's Notes - In addition to my new OC, I’d also like to introduce the first ever fanfiction for my Ed Edd n’ Eddy Highschool AU series!

In this universe, Double D has a secret, blooming crush on Tracey. He’s not sure if it stems from her inherently flirtatious nature or a genuine romantic desire yet. This fic details his first reckoning with those feelings. Be warned, it does get a little spicy at the end ;)

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kevin... my goober

some random hcs i think abt tbh;

despite his tough, "cool guy" exterior, i feel like.. he has a secret soft spot for animals. like he’s always the first to try to help a stray cat or dog in the neighborhood, even if he pretends to be annoyed by it (he's def a dog guy)

follow up. kevin has a hard time being honest about his emotions. he often deflects by teasing or acting like nothing bothers him, but he’s actually a lot more sensitive than people realize. he tries to hide his softer side behind sarcasm and teasing because he doesn’t want to seem vulnerable.

i think he's sorta good at singing ((but only when he’s alone.)) If anyone were to catch him, he’d get embarrassed and try to act like he was just messing around. But in private, he has a pretty good voice :p

kevin might act like he’s annoyed by double d, but lowky deep down, he actually has a lot of respect for him bc. dd has a lot of intelligence and creativity, even if he’d never say it to his face!!! he might even go to him for help on rare occasions, but he’d never let it show ong

kevin occasionally daydreams about being a famous race car driver or motorcycle stuntman. he imagines himself on the cover of magazines and getting tons of attention. sometimes, he even practices his “celebrity wave” in the mirror when no one’s watching LMAO

ok thats enough silly headdcanons byeee im insane sorryyyy

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NOW INTRODUCING: My Ed Edd n' Eddy OC! Firstname Tracey, Lastname Foxgrove. I came up with her 15 years ago and she's been gnawing at the back of my brain ever since. Here are some fun facts about her lore:

Tracey moves to Peach Creek from a big city at the start of high school.

The graphic on Tracey's shirt is known to occasionally change based on the mood/setting. It shuffles between a clover, a daisy, paint splatter, and a star.

Tracey initially sucks at Chemistry and only passes the class due to Double D's instruction/guidance. She's pretty good at English, though.

Tracey can be reckless and messy, but she is never cruel. She enjoys poking fun at her friends in a lighthearted way, and has found that getting under Double D's or Eddy's skin causes the most entertaining reactions (each for different reasons).

Closely following her move to Peach Creek, Tracey and Kevin start dating (she likes his speed and danger, and he likes her novelty). The relationship lasts a little too long and fizzles out over time due to each person's connection to an external, third party.

Marie does not like Tracey and, by extension, neither do the other Kanker sisters (often calling her "new girl," "little miss perfect," or "princess")

Tracey quickly becomes friends with Nazz after moving to Peach Creek, which causes some unintended tension after she and Kevin start dating.

Tracey is impulsive and stimulation-seeking, often twirling her pen in her fingers or chewing on her pen caps until they are unrecognizable.

Sometimes, Tracey doesn't take things seriously enough. She will laugh in situations where it isn't warranted, either out of obliviousness or discomfort. It leads some people to think of her as self-absorbed.

Tracey’s parents are physically present, but emotionally absent

Tracey has no idea what she wants to do with her life, but has dreams of seeing the world. Her ideal vacation would probably be to go see Australia.

I've also got a ton of fanfiction planned for her. The first is going to be an Ed Edd n' Eddy Highschool AU while the second will be set in the FusionFall universe (how I first came up with her). See here for her official character playlist :)

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Hi, my name is Yazi. I'm a neuroscientist and self-taught artist who is trying her hand at writing through exploring old OCs from my youth (currently working on an Ed Edd n Eddy High School AU). A mix of fandom and original work to come. My work is sometimes disjointed, but always full of heart. Welcome to my page! ✨

DISCLAIMER: This blog is pro-fiction and anti-harassment. Minors, please see the door xx

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