youpavedtheroadtohell

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TEXT ME

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“Sometimes you just need someone to tell you you’re not as terrible as you think you are.”

— Unknown

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if we don’t talk again remember i loved you

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“It was a suicide attempt, you know that, right?”

Funny how those words hit different when that was never the plan.

And then

“You should be glad you’re still here. Others weren’t so lucky.”

As if survival was a prize. As if I should thank the silence for not being loud enough. As if staying was mercy.

Yeah, whatever, Doc.

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June 24

I didn’t want to die. Not exactly.

I just wanted the screaming in my head to shut up. To stop spinning. Just for a second. But apparently, six Tavor won’t do it. What a joke.

And when panic hit and I reached out - nothing.

No response. Silence louder than my thoughts.That’s the part that really hit.

It’s funny, in a fucked up kind of way. Not funny ha-ha. Funny pathetic.

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I don’t want to wake up tomorrow

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please someone kill me before I kill myself

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woke up thinking of planning my suicide lol

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"Funny how you cry of being unloved,

while others wilt waiting for your reply,

reaching out again and again—

made to feel like beggars at your gate."

Funny, yeah

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I am too tired and  I miss you too much.

Simone de Beauvoir

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If you wanna forget me for the rest of your life

that’s ok.

And if I remember you for the rest of mine

that’s ok.

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"I would never hate you!"

but you do?

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Manchmal hab ich das Gefühl, dass kaputt sein ist das einzige ist, was ich richtig gut kann.

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if we don’t talk again remember i loved you

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we won’t forget each other, right?