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Are you my ugw? Because i'd do anything for you ;)

(ed rizz)

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omg hi yall it's been a while

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imagine. not having to worry about your thighs looking massive when you're sitting

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I don't want to be the sick kind of skinny, I don't want to be the healthy skinny either. I want to be on the line between the two. To be small and light, but not weak and fragile

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it's a lifetime job

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just looked at myself in a full length mirror.

don't recommend

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downed a white monster a few hours ago... i can't sleep. it's 1 am. i have to get up early.

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"when everything else sucks, i can just look down and tell myself: 'it's okay, you are fucking thin."

— Bella Hadid

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role model

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hi, i'm dreamer!

i was @zerocokedreamer but that account got t-word. i'm back. BLOCK DON'T REPORT I DO NOT PROMOTE ANYTHING

about me:

she/her | 20 | istp | aries | ace

stats: (to be updated)

height: 1,70m

hw: 73kg

cw: 67kg

gw1: 65kg

gw2: 60kg

ugw: 54kg (what a dream <3)

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I don't want to be skinny for the summer

I need to be skinny for the summer

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yall 💀 last thursday i was at a café with a friend of mine and we were talking, but then the conversation turned to weight and summer and all that jazz.. she knows i struggle with body image (she just doesn't know the extent of it ofc) so she asked like "oh but your bmi is normal... right?" AHHHHHHHHHHH i know it was a super normal question, but my fucking brain was TRIGGERED. why was she questioning it? do i look like my bmi is overweight?????? WHAT. i'm gonna st4rve fuck it.

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Eating tiny portions

A couple of bites being enough to fuel me for the day

Having a small cup of coffee in the morning and calling it breakfast

Being full with 1/3 of my portion while others at the table keep stuffing their faces

Rejecting any food people give me because I'm not hungry, or keeping it for later if someone made it for me

Sharing my food because I won't be able to eat so much anyways

Making sure my food is good for me because I don't want to feed my body with greasy sugary junk

Being told that I always eat so little, that people want to give me more

Allowing myself to be lazy because there's not much to burn

Spending my money on books, art supplies and beauty products instead of wasting it on food

Never binging because I eat just enough and get enough nutrients

"I'm full" "I already ate" "I can't eat this much" "split it in half" "I'll only have a drink" "I don't need extra"

Always forgetting to eat or being too busy

This will be me. I can control myself.

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hi there sweetheart, you're feeling a little down right now, arent you? feeling some hunger pangs? well every time you feel the hunger and resist it, you're proving how strong you are and how badly you want to lose weight. <3 and when we put in effort, do you know what we get? rewards. rewards which you fully deserve. keep working, sweetie.

you've got this.

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good morning edblr, i'm really tired and my stomach hurts. best way of starting my day

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yesterday was my birthday (your girl turned 20), and damn i ate so much junk.. i'm terrified of seeing the number on the scale go up, i can't for the life of me step on it!!!!!!! oh well over eating was fun while it lasted, we're back to business.