#Compass of True Love

[0x-hazel]

Hazel's Book Club

I'm doing this again! hopefully consistently! Apologies to the two of you who care, I've been kinda busy the last while.

First story I wanna shout out is Pocket Healer by abby_gay_ill, it's super sweet and gay and I love it dearly. Very dense egg hatches after teaming up with some supportive folks on (a game that is totally not) overwatch. It's funny and it does remind me of some of my time with the game it's based on (and I also definitely didn't have any gender feelings there xP)

Next up is Compass of True Love by Muffin_Maeve, which is a polyam fantasy romance drama thingy, and it's been fun so far. Still ongoing and a bit more explicit than some of the others I recommend so take that as a warning, but other than that it's lovely and I hope it continues ^w^

Finally, since I seem to gravitate towards three main recommendations and then a few miscellaneous special mentions, I'm gonna put in Rainbow's “If I lose my virginity, I’m stuck as a girl” story, but I tried my best to make it actually good, which is a bit of a mouthful but it's a part of her sorta-series of kinda trashy tropes made a bit more palatable, and is again very sweet :3 Surprisingly minimal sexual content for the name, so don't be worried there.

Finally Finally, a couple of special mentions! How (Not) to Make a Love Potion by @zemathememequeen, please check it out, it's fun! Not explicitly trans but it's queer and none of the characters claim to be cis, so I believe~

and then also! @chirivulpes and @luminamystere have finally gotten fluff4.me online for wide(ish)spread use! It's still a beta and constantly getting more features and fixes so don't expect the world, but do check out the stories on there and maybe throw them some money if you can (although this goes for every author I post about tbh)

[handweavers]

when someone has it drilled in their head from childhood that they are a black sheep and an island and cannot trust anyone in the family other than their sibling and parents, that no one else will truly be there for them or love them as they deserve to be loved, trying to be the first one in the family to break through that and love them well and be someone they can trust is an uphill and thankless battle but it's worth it because i love them and i know they love me. "please let me lance that wound and clean it or it'll kill you" but they have to give me permission to do it and keep choosing to give me that permission. for both our sakes, because we need each other and cannot afford to not have each other. but these things cannot be forced. you cannot save people you can only love them. and so on and so forth

[dinosaurwithablog]

For Hope Week, these two brothers choose to see behind the scenes of the Yankees. Gerrit Cole accompanied them, and they got to do so many great things and have fun. They have Muscular Dystrophy. They will never play the game of baseball, but they got to throw out the first pitch, raise money for their cause, announce the game with Michael Kay, and they had a great time!! I'm happy for them and proud of my team for making their dreams come true 😁😍

They are beautiful boys, and their smiles have made my day!! I love to see big, powerful organizations give back to others like this. This is how it's supposed to be done!! Thank you, Yankees, for making these boys very happy and by doing so, making me very happy!! I love the Yankees ❤️

LET'S GO, YANKEES!!!!! Please keep sharing the wealth and setting a great example for us all. Kindness and compassion are priceless!! So are the smiles on those boys' faces 😁😍🫂

[thepersonalwords]

When your love has conquered your desire for possession and lust, this love then, turns into a compassionate energy, that crosses all bars of distance and time, and touches the one you love, in ways never understood but just felt.So whether, in acceptance or in rejection, keep feeding love more love. And always believe the one you love can never remain untouched by it.

Wordions

[soulshards]

What does your heart look like?

Tagged by @naejlas-axe! Thank you! I spun the wheel and picked 2 OCs for this one as, uh, yeah, we would be here a while otherwise!

Rhulvan // a cage with iron locks

You are an enigma. You take care to remain that way. You aim to keep people guessing; your motives are uncertain even to yourself. What is it you truly want? You’ll never know if you keep your heart locked away like that. You deserve to be known, truly and fully. Stop being afraid of what you might find if you open your heart up to self-reflection. Stop thinking that no one will love you the moment they understand you. You are more than the facade you put on.

Nanako // an open door, a burning hearth

Your chest is wide open, and your heart is a home. Others are welcomed in readily and asked to stay. You are comfort and love, everything you were never given but so desperately want to provide for others. You have built this welcoming hearth with your own two hands and won’t see anyone else left out in the cold. Be careful to not burn yourself out trying to keep everyone else warm.

I won't tag anyone as I've seen this floating around a bunch already / people I would tag have already done it! But if you have not done it and wish too, feel free to @ me!

[qunaributts]

Designing this facet of Mythal to look like Galadriel when she's tempted by the One Ring is a choice I will never be over in a million years. Like holy shit, what a delightful and wonderful inter-textual reference.

Like when Gandalf said "Understand Frodo, I would use this Ring from a desire to do good... but through me it would wield a power too great and terrible to imagine." YEAH!!!! YEAH THAT! Mythal made the choice to rule with the Evanuris with the intent to do the right thing, but it was still a villainous choice!

And how much the design says about Mythal's character is WONDERFUL! "Not dark, but beautiful and terrible as the dawn!" Benevolent, but vengeful. Compassionate, but ferocious. I sure do think Solas specifically understands "love me and despair" in excruciating detail.

[astrogirlythings]

[atrophiedemotion]

ivan & the weagein

i don't think that's how it's spelled but i'm taking it straight from patreon so

one of my favorite bits of ivan's character that i wish was talked about more is his relationship with the weagein at anakt garden. so i wanted to give my two cents on it and why i think he was fond of it & his reasons for staging the confrontation (as well as how his view of till was shaped by it).

why did ivan befriend the waegein?

when ivan was young, he had yet to create and adopt his effortlessly charming persona he uses in his later years. he likely didn't think it was worth it at that age especially when he was already planning to escape. he's largely silent, unapproachable, and generally a bit unnerving. ivan is different than his peers, doesn't experience emotion in the same way and can't understand why/how they feel things or how to communicate as efficiently.

i'm certain he's aware of this, and anyone in this situation (no matter how unaffected they may appear) would start to feel at least a bit like an outcast and like something was wrong with them. ivan did not fit in with the other kids at anakt, so it makes complete sense to me that he would see himself in the waegein.

a guard 'dog' that is only meant to scare other creatures. horrifying and monstrous. kept in a place for a single purpose and assumedly not given much autonomy. treated as lesser than creatures that are the same species as it.

i believe ivan saw himself in the waegein, and took comfort in its presence and existence because he felt a commonality with it that he doesn't feel with his peers. he felt he could be himself around it and not get judged for it. he grows close to it (in a way i imagine would be similar to slowly befriending a feral cat who bites) and bonds with it so well he can be physically close to it. i wouldn't be surprised if the waegein felt similarly seen, honestly.

why did ivan stage till & mizi's confrontation with the waegein?

wellll i think there are a few reasons. these could exist separately, but i personally feel that it's a combination of the three.

ivan needed to show/prove to till that anakt garden is just as dangerous as the outside world.

he wanted to gauge other human's fear response and reaction in general to something they would consider dangerous/scary.

he wanted to test how till in particular would react to danger.

reason one - proving anakt was dangerous

ivan, presumably, knows from the beginning that anakt is not a safehaven or the ideal place for humans to be 'raised'. we can assume this from context clues and his charcter in general, but i think it's a safe assumption. he knows that there's a real world out there, somewhere with the real sun and the real stars and no aliens.

he wants to escape and he wants to take till with him, so he needs to show him that the world they're being forced to live in is just as dangerous and, worse- has hidden horrors as opposed to outright ones. the only way till would actually be willing to run away would be to show him firsthand how much danger they're in. telling him isn't enough, till has to experience it himself (till would never take ivan's word i think lmao).

reason two - gauging fear response/reaction

this one's pretty self explanatory- since ivan does not experience emotions in the way most people do, he learns via the reactions of the people around him so he can mirror them. life or death fear isn't something they're really faced with at anakt, so he needs to set up the situation himself. it's basically a science experiment lmfao

reason three - studying till

ivan is already interested in till at this point, since the timeline isn't exactly in the order shown to us. he's enraptured by till's explosive show of emotions and the way he essentially wears his heart on his sleeve, because that's not something ivan can even begin to comprehend. it would make sense that he'd want to see how till, another person he sees as different from their classmates but in the opposite way of himself, would react to something ivan doesn't blink twice at.

with all this being said, i feel like i can somewhat safely say that ivan is probably both confident in the fact that the waegein will not genuinely attack till & mizi and relatively uncaring if it does. the likelihood of them dying is low, ivan most likely had contingency plans in place, but i also don't think he feels remorse or guilt as much as he feels shame. (but that's for another day)

okay i was going to into how this event shaped the way ivan saw and felt about till & the correlation with the meteor shower but this is already very long so i will make a separate post talking about that and link it here when im done lmao

[lovelylouise25]

[smile-files]

randall: do you think we're brothers in every universe?

henry: we're not even brothers in this one...

[libraalynn]

[holistichealingg]

[stantheanomaly]

When you admire nature, I hope you remember, you're nature too.

- Suvrahadip Ghosh, Nature within you

[extravalgant]

im only half joking when i say that dyvim is the only reason the wizard is still a good guy

[astrogirlythings]

Those who wear their hearts on their sleeves have an easier life than the rest. 💝

[kingdom-of-shamballa]

I am

I ask myself

Why i use so much time with Tumblr

I like the poetry, texts & women

But is that really true

I don't know ?

Also i send love, tenderness & compassion

Touching as much people as possible

Wanting to change the world

That is what i truly want

Touching people & the world

Changing the world

I am happy & satisfied

I am that i am