#System Stuff

[evilsystem]

being immortal and having DID must be crazy. yeah our boy Carlos hasn't fronted in 300 years and just woke up to the sound of Uptown Funk and started screaming

[fabledpigeon]

we say we have seven alters. that means seven alters that are solid enough to be given profiles and have enough distinctive autonomy to be able to interact as individuals in places like this online. how many actual alters we have???? probably at LEAST 20, more likely pushing 30. Someone gets ‘solidified’ every few months.. generally. But that doesn’t mean they only just appear then. Most ‘new’ alters have been around for at least months, appearing in fragments or blurry periods or strange flashes of emotions before they actually settle into a proper identity. And the few dozen that haven’t done that may never. Or they might. Who knows.

and that’s fine !!

one of the most important things about dissociative identity disorder and generally being a system that i wish people would understand is that it truly isn’t as cut and dry as it may seem for member count.

you’ll see people who say they have “six alters” and then immediately assume it’s six fully fleshed out equal individuals with no confusion or fuzziness regarding identity. that’s simply not true in a majority of cases, as i have seen.

most systems still VERY much deal with confusion regarding potential splits, go through dissociative episodes where they’re unsure of who they are, sometimes feel no attachment towards any identities, feel like they might have split and then suddenly that person is gone, unsure if alters they haven’t heard from often have gone dormant, not sure how to react when alters do come out of dormancy, etc.

it’s not a fun feeling and it’s genuinely unfair in certain situations to force systems to list every single alter to you with full certainty, as if it will never change. because it will. for so many different reasons, systems will grow, they will shrink, they will fuse, they will develop. you can’t expect the person with the dissociative disorder and lack of core identity to be able to keep up a perfected list of forever, it’s simply impossible. you may have alters who stick with you, but that doesn’t mean changes won’t happen.

and systems who may be reading this — please don’t feel bad. you are not a hassle, you are not a headache, and you are not an inconvenience for simply coping with something like this. it’s out of your control and the only thing you can do is continue to cope to find ways to help yourself retrain from these reactions. please don’t allow yourself to be harmed by others who don’t understand what you are going through. there are people who will accept and love you for who you are, all of you.

past, present, and future.

[the-cat-collective]

when you see a relatable post but see the "endos fuck off" tag

like damn I was about to reblog that😔

[volatilevulgarity]

If I tell you I’m a fictive and tell you my source, that’s not your sign to go ahead and start telling me how much you want to fuck my source.

You’re weird as shit.

[warthunderbutnotthegame]

yeah that’s why i kinda became one… love being a system protector</3

[rustybutterknife]

Microdosing polyamory by dating a system

[clockwork-collections]

DID ISNT RARE! OSDD ISNT RARE! ALL SYSTEMS HAVE DIFFERENT EXPERIENCES SO ITS HARD TO GET RECOGNIZED! YOURE SEENN!!!

[melted-halo]

Our Host. Just saying- cough cough

-Estella💋

the "cycle"

[saiiboat]

erm. well!

[felixcosm]

Some pro-endo reminders 💟 Free to use/steal!

[plural-questioning]

question 138: do you think, looking back, there ever "signs" of your plurality, or of specific system members? did you notice them at the time, or can you only tell now, with hindsight?

[drag-queen-trav]

this ngl

Hey, just a fictive psa.

Don't go up to fictives, especially if they're of popular characters from the source they're from, and expect them to be in a relationship with the really popular ship the fandom ships them with.

It's really creepy and invasive. Fictives are people, not irl characters you can interview and project on.

[thefluxsystem]

You know what the worst part of having a dissociative disorder is, for me personally?

The emotional amnesia.

Your entire life feels like something that you watched on TV, rather than something that you actually lived through.

You know that some of the most horrific things imaginable have happened to you, and you feel nothing about it. Sure, the memories disgust you on principle, but you don’t feel anything.

It makes you question if anything that you remember is real. If that actually happened, shouldn’t it feel significant? Shouldn’t you be sad, angry, hurt, something?

And to top it all off, nobody understands. Not even yourself.

[lethroe]

Here's your daily reminder that telling someone they're faking is a classist and ableist action as not all doctors are unbiased, and not all unbiased doctors are affordable

[sysboxes]

[This user loves the color Purple TOO much.]

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