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Nick Valentine comfort bc why not. Itâs been a while since I was writing something.
Tw for family issues, Dysphoria, transphobia/homiphobia/etc, past/depictions of SH, mental health issues, and overall just a lot of things that go on in oneâs head when they are suffering from mental health issues.
[ Family is not by blood, it is by love ]
It had been a long night of work at The Dugout Inn. It was your main job outside of being an intern for Nick Valentine, especially since he desperately needed an extra set of hands and eyes on his cases now that Ellie had been helping the fated Sole Survivor get back on their feet.
You tiredly walked home in the rain, knowing what would likely ensue the moment you stepped in the door of your parentsâ home. One you grew to hate being in. Despite being an adult, caps were hard to come by nowadays. After Diamond City entered a recession, everyone was working overtime. Even your own damned parents. The parents that only saw you as your birth gender. Ones that never validated you. Your mother had tried, oh she had tried to make you feel more validated. She kept saying that she wouldnât understand but she would never not love you. But she never used your preferred pronouns or name. She didnât even bother trying. And your fatherâŚhe hated you. He hated everything about you the moment you came out to him. The moment you saw the world in your own eyes instead of his. Your father was a wretched, bigoted man. And yet you still stayed in that house. With your bigoted parents. Because you couldnât afford to leave. No matter how many times your father had yelled hurtful words at you despite your motherâs peace-bringing words. No matter how many screaming matches you had with him, yelling at him about his own actions. His own hypocritical behavior and bigoted, narcissistic attitude. It brought you to angry tears knowing they were never going to listen, and yet no matter what, you still tried to make them at least try and accept you. Try and realize you werenât going to change. No matter how much they hated the idea of you changing.
You were just about in the doorway when your father came yelling about you identifying yourself differently. He yelled at you that you were never going to be the gender you wanted to be. That it was whatever demon he believed in and you didnât. You were able to tune him out most nightsâŚbut tonight you snapped. You screamed obscenities back at him, calling him out for being soâŚso heartless. So hateful. Towards his own child, no less. One that he had the obligation to protect and love, but instead chose to fret over them not being a perfect carbon copy of himself. To get angry at you for just trying to be yourself. You left in a hurry, your old school bag that you used for work on your back, grateful for having a binder on your body. The sight of your body made you sick. You couldnât even shower without wanting to scratch and pick at whatever skin you saw as imperfect, as a disgusting mass of tissue and muscle. It would render you looking like an addict, but you didnât care. You just wanted to be perceived as the gender you were. Not as the gender you were born as. It had gotten bad enough that you had began to relapse againâŚyou only somewhat stopped because of Nick. And now, as you rushed out the door, sobbing in anger, frustration and out of pure despair, you were at Nickâs doorstep.
The lights were on. That was a good sign. That meant that Nick or Ellie was still up. You stepped inside, frustrated that the door handle was sticking from the wasteland being so cruel to the architecture of Diamond City.
âKidâŚ?â Nick looked up. He saw just how ruined you were. How you were going to relapse at any moment if it wasnât for you running off to the agency to begin with.
âKid whatâs going on? Are you okay?â Nickâs voice went cold with worry. He had never seen you like this. He had seen you cry, he had seen you struggle, but he had never seen you absolutely wrecked like you were now.
You shook your head, tears streaming down your face, trying desperately not to sob. Nick didnât hesitate to get up and attempt to comfort you, putting his mechanical hands on your shoulders, urging you to sit down before you collapsed on him. You nearly choked on your own words as you explained what had happened. âMy dadâŚmy dad found outâŚhe found out.â You broke down as you recalled just what happened. You fought with him, and you ran off, knowing he would kick you out sooner or later.
âOh noâŚkiddoâŚâ Nickâs voice softened. He knew that it was going to happen. You both knew. You just didnât know it would happen now.
âEasy, kiddo. Youâll be ok. Just let it out. We both got ya. Youâre safe, kid. Youâre safe.â Nick was almost uncharacteristically soft spoken and gentle as he let you cry into his arms, his grip somewhat tightening as you shook with disbelief and frustration, your sobs muffled by the fabric of his
It took a while to get yourself to calm down. Your eyes stung as the tears came to a halt, exhausted.
Nick held you close to his body, stroking your head like a parent would when they were calming down their child. And in a way, Nick was your parent. He wasnât just your boss. He was the only person who really accepted you for your own self. He was your only support system.
âJust breathe. I got you.â Nick reassured, letting you lean on his metal body, keeping you safe from your own head. After a long moment of silence, you spoke, your voice hoarse from crying.
âNickâŚwhy is it so hard for them to accept meâŚI donât get itâŚâ
âWell, kid. Some people donât understand how things workâŚand it scares them. It scares them so much they turn angry. They feel like only their way should be the right way. And donât even stop to consider how others might feelâŚI know, itâs rough kidâŚâ Nick absentmindedly brushed a stray hair from your forehead.
âYeahâŚyeah I knowâŚâ you sighed, knowing that he was right.
âFamily isnât defined by bloodâŚitâs about who cares about âya. I want you to know that, alright? So no matter what happens to you, you always got a spot here with Ellie and I, Got it, kiddo? We wonât ever turn ya away.â Nick hugged you again, standing up.
âYeah. Thank you, NickâŚthatâŚthat means a lot to me.â You gave a weak smile, steadily getting up, legs still shaking from sprinting down to the agency.
âWhy dontâcha room with me and Ellie tonight? Itâd be better if I knew you wouldnât be hurt. And donât worry about taking up space, kiddo. We already got a couch set up back when that Vault Dweller worked with us full time.â Nick placed a hand on your shoulder, guiding you to the back of the office where Ellie and Nick slept.
âYeahâŚyeah Iâd like thatâŚâ
[Mirror, Mirror, on the Wall.]
You and Nick had been dating for a while. And he knew full well about your identityâŚhow your parents werenât accepting, how you hated looking in mirrorsâŚeven how you relapsed out of pure disgust over yourself.
And tonight was no different. You had been laying in bed, tending to your newest relapse, pain shooting through your body, itâs sickly, bittersweet feeling lulling you into a world of bleak thoughts and bad memories. You stared down at your bodyâŚyour mouth went dry just looking at the silhouette of your chest. The silhouette of your hips. You squeezed your eyes shut, sighing deeply, as Nick came home.
âHonâ Iâm home.â He called, setting his coat on the coatrack and his fedora on the table.
âDonât tell me you ainât here, nowâŚâ He said to himself, starting to look for you, calling for you. You only spoke up when he started to get a little bit nervous, not being able to find you.
âIâm in here, nick..â you tiredly called, curling up away from the door out of habit.
âAh..,there you are. AreâŚare you doinâ ok, hon? You seem down tonight. Somethinâ happen?â Nick enters the room, coming up beside you to gently place his hand on your shoulder.
âIâm,..Iâm fine Nick, just tired, is all..â
âYou sure? You donât sound fineâŚâ Nick could tell something was offâŚand it was better to not lie about it than try to lie, knowing heâd find out either way.
You sighed, shaking your head.
âAnother one of those days, huh?â Nickâs voice became gentle, knowing what had happened.
âOh, honââŚIâm sorryâŚyou shouldâve called me. I wouldâa came home sooner.â Nick slowly slipped into bed next to you, holding you in his arms.
âI knowâŚbut I didnât wanna bother you while you were out on that caseâŚI thought I could handle it on my own.â
Nick sighed, running his hands over your shoulders reassuringly. âYou know Iâm here for you. You donât have to keep these things secretâŚyou shouldnât have to âhandle things yourselfâ either, sweetheart. That isnât how things get better. Youâll just get yourself killed if ya keep trying to trudge along like thisâŚand that ainât right. Not at all.â
You gave a tired sigh, almost collapsing into his chest as he held you from behind, his mechanical body gently whirring underneath his synthetic skin as the closeness of the two of you soothed both of your anxious thoughts. âI knowâŚI justâŚI donât know, Nick. I couldnât stop myselfâŚâ
âAnd thatâs alrightâŚIâm not mad at you. Iâm just worried, is all. Concerned for ya.â Nick felt the razor against his chest as his hands brushed against your sides, reaching for the front pocket of your sweatshirt and setting it off to his side of the bed. ââŚYou wanna tell me what happened?â
You nodded slowly, explaining to him how bad your dysphoria got, somewhat crying as you felt the frustration of the situation. Nick listened attentively, idly running his hands through your hair as you explained, feeling you hug his body somewhat tighter than before out of comfort.
âOhâŚoh sweetheartâŚâ Nick held you against his chest, as if he didnât want to let you go. If he was human, he would have been sobbing by now, just hearing how much it hurt you to see yourself like thatâŚhear how others thought of you. âIâm so sorryâŚâ
As you explained yourself to Nick, you started crying, hating how such little things could set you back and make you feel sick.
âHeyâŚhey look at meâ Nick noticed you crying, gently cupping your face and making you look up at him, noticing how you looked away in frustration and embarrassment. You didnât like crying. And Nick knew that all too well. âHonâŚlisten now, alright? You are perfect as you are. You got it? Those people out thereâŚtheyâre wrongâŚyouâre just as much of a person as anyone else in this wasteland. And I wonât let you think anything different, you hear? Youâre the best thing I couldâa asked forâŚand youâre more human than anyone else in this damn worldâŚno matter what you look likeâŚno matter if you pass or notâŚyouâre valid. You are loved. Both me anâ Ellie wonât ever leave you like that. And more people need to see you for who you really areâŚand not what they think of youâŚâ
You felt your head hit Nickâs shoulder lightly as your exhaustion got to you, small tears being wiped away from your face by Nickâs gentle hands, his embrace keeping you safe. âI love youâŚâ you croak out, your voice weak from crying so much. You feel better with him, even if the pain was still lingering. You felt safe in his arms, despite the brutality of Diamond CityâŚand you needed to keep it that way. Not just for you. But because you knew it would crush Nick if he knew something happenedâŚ
âI love you too, hon.â
#these are mainly just for me.#Iâve been struggling a lot with dysphoria lately and Nick is my comfort character so yeah#for all u trans/enby Nick Valentine lovers out there#ily guys <3#also random headcanon but I have a feeling that Hancock would know a guy who supplied HRT.#thatâs where I feel sole would get their HRT if they needed it for any reason whatsoever. just ask Hancock#on that note I should write dysphoria comfort with Hancock too#fallout#fallout 4#nick valentine#nickvalentine#may be a bit ooc but I donât care. Nick is a softie at heart imho#he just wants to make sure ur ok <3#Stephen Russell in general is just a comfort for me.#heâs always so kind and I love him for that.#fallout companions#random drabbles#hurt/comfort#trans/enby reader#dysphoria comfort fic#tw dysphoria#tw bad mental health#tw family issues#tw depressing thoughts#tw mentions/actions of SH#yeah. shits rough.#again this is solely just for my personal comforting.#but read it if you want idrc#i just needed to get it out of my system#or whatever the fuck my mind is now
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could u do a fyodor with sub, gn reader with dumbification, overstim, biting and choking too with a red and white theme? (( something non canon, like him being a secret vampire priest or something of the like and reader is a devoted worshipper of his Church mayhaps..)) .. drabble, or full fic for me is fine eitherway!!
ă ⌠AMAB! DOMTOP! Fyodor Dostoevsky x AMAB! GN! SUBBOT! Reader
{ sorry it was a drabble, I started my second year of college so I had a lot of work to do }
DRABBLE !!
NSFW UNDER THE CUT!
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | Imagine being a membef at a church, you've decided to devote your life to god. Collecting donations and volunteering around the chapel isnât anything new. Sometimes it was boring, but, this was the price to pay if you wanted to show your dedication to the lord , (^Îľ^)âŞ
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | The head pastor introduces a devilishly handsome man to you, asking you to tour him around the church buldings. The stranger had fairly pale skin with reflective dark hair that contrasted with it. Deep purple eyes that suck you in, you couldn't help but blush, which was embarrassingly evident on your face ! âę°â´Đâľâęąâ
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | His soft smiles take your breath away, your heart being pulled out of your chest. You take every opportunity to lovingly stare at his face, and you also got caught several times, but it seemed like he enjoyed your company !
ďž(â§â˝âŚďž) âŞ
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | he seemed off though, sometimes his skin would turn grayer and he would avoid mirrors. It's such a coincidence, vampires aren't real, you're being silly !
('Aď˝*)
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | But,,, one day, you found the man kneeling over, trying to hold his composure. Fyodor was sweating profusely as his fangs sharpened when you got closer to him, letting out a meekly, âf.. father ?â. He stayed still for a moment, his back was turned so you couldnât see his expression . ( â˘Ěă
żâ˘Ě )
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | Suddenly, he lunges at you! You barely had time to react, instead, you felt a sharp pain in your neck and a wet sensation going down your collarbone. Your eyes found Fyodor's head, him draining all the fluid out your neck. It was really painful at first, then it turned so electrifying, sending shivers righr down your cock . (â˘ÓŠâ˘)âĄ
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | Imagine Fyodor licking your neck and taking off your clothes, his moist tongue on your skin and you felt yourself getting harder and harder. Your soft moans encourage him to continue . ( ÂŻ ĎÂŻ )
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | Some time later and your head is buried in your pillows while Fyodor was plunging into you, sloppy and firm. Grinding inside your guts to make sure your prostate gets bullied by his cock, your body was so sore, from the bites and especially from Fyodor's relentless thrusts . o(ăďźžâ˝ďźžă)o
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | Your mind was far gone, everything was getting fuzzy and your cheeks were soaked from your tears, your tight, puffy hole making a squelching sound everytime he dug his cock into you. Your body stained from your cum and your blood, what a pretty painting ! ŕ§(-áˇ
Ű-áˇ)ŕ¨
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | He reaches down your neck as you let out a melodious whimper. Fyodor loves your pretty sounds, to him, it's the same as the church choir, so he's going to make sure you sing for him some more ! ��ďšâ˘
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | Your cock was so tired just trying to pump out semen, it was throbbing so badly. You begged Fyodor to have mercy on you, "P...plEASE! I- I don't.. I CAN'T.. c-c...come anymore! ~", he tugged your hair back, so you could look at him, "then release yourself for me, one last time, my dear", he went quicker to feel your walls tightening up ! â_â
× đ đˇ ďź â ŰŞ | Imagine your eyes rolling back as you felt euphoria coursing through your body as you stiffen up. Your hole squeezing Fyodor's dick, him grunting as his cum intrudes inside your guts ,
"I changed my mind, actually, let's go for another hour hm?"
#bottom reader#amab reader#bottom male reader#bttm male reader#enby ns/fw#enby reader#mtf reader#mtf nsft#mtf trans#mtf sub#fyodor x male reader#fyodor dostoevsky#bsd fyodor#fyodor smut#fyodor x reader
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6 or 8 from the prompt lists with dr robby !! whichever you like more!
oooooOOOOO ok ok ok heres what im workin with. let me know if you prefer these getting straight to the point or if the background/scene setting is important
sorry it took so long, saturdays r my napping days so i spend most of it unconscious lmao
you werenât that inebriated, pleasantly tipsy after a night out with colleagues at the bar by the hospital. the alcohol warmed your belly and made your fingers tingle. but that heat started to pool lower than you expected, having spent a good 30 minutes squirming in your seat as santos and ellis talked loudly, everyone else more amused by the spectacle than whatever was going on with you.
from across the bar your eyes were trained on robby, leaning against the bar top with abbot talking his ear off. he looked so fucking good out of his scrubs, a dark green buttoned shirt with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows, forearms thick with dark hair just out for anyone to ogle. the more you stared the worse your squirming got, discharge seeping into your boxers as you imagines those forearms littered with bite marks and wrapped around your throat.
robbyâs eyes finally met yours, warm dark brown that made your blood feel like molasses in your veins. he was too aware, recognition on his face as he took in what could only look like discomfort. he raised his eyebrows, then his eyes flit to the back of the bar where you knew the gender neutral restroom was. a single restroom with a lock on the door. thank whatever higher being there was that robby was able to read you like a book, and had an empathetic streak.
you gave one swift nod, everyone at your booth still paying you no real mind. you excused yourself to the restroom and tried to walk slowly, despite the anticipation roaring blood in your ears. didnât want to make it too obvious. after you shut the door behind you and leaned your back against the adjacent wall you waited, tapping your foot impatiently against the sticky floor.
thirty seconds passed by before a single knock hit the door and robbyâs imposing figure slipped into the restroom, nimble fingers locking the door behind him.
his cheeks were pink, so you knew he wasnât past the point of no return. his eyes were dark as he crowded you against the wall, hands heavy on your waist.
âwhatâs the matter, bub? lookinâ a lil antsy there,â his fingers began to trail under the fabric of your shirt, rubbing soothing circles into your heated flesh.
âsâtoo warm, robby,â you mumbled, nosing at the underside of his jaw. âcan i have you now? please?â you let your tongue trail along his neck, a shudder running down the older manâs spine as you reacquainted yourself with his taste. the salty flavor of his skin making your core clench down on nothing, eager to feel him properly.
robby groaned, grinding his hardening cock into your hip. he let you mouth at his throat, wet open mouthed kisses trailing their way towards his lips. your lips met like a wave meeting the beach, an inevitable meeting of two forces of nature. robbyâs fingers made work to undo your pants, bringing the fabric and your boxers halfway down your hips for easy access.
he gasped into your mouth a upon feeling how wet you were between your legs, your hips grinding down at the light pressure his fingers provided you, rubbing circles around your aching clit.
âoh my poor baby, i gotchu. gonna make it right, okay?â
robby guided you to the sink, bracing your hands on the edge and bending you over gently at the waist, one hand rubbing against your spine soothingly as his other released his member from his jeans. heâd been leaking pre since he recognized the pained arousal on your face in the busy bar, aching for something to touch you. for him to touch you.
he jerked himself languidly, wetting his member with the discharge from his tip and rubbing against your lips to collect your wetness. you whined, grinding back against his cock impatiently. âyâfeel so good, robby.â
robby notched himself at your hole, hips pulling back and forth as he gently eased himself in. fuck you were so warm, his hands trembled as he wrapped one forearm around your shoulders, rubbing his furred cheek against the side of your head. âjust a quick one baby, then weâll get outta here. iâll get you home,â he growled into your ear as he finally bottomed out, other hand coming up quickly to cover your mouth as a wail nearly ripped out of you at finally being full.
âgotta be quiet, canât let everyone know how good âm treatinâ you,â your thighs trembled at the brutal pace robby set, his jeans rubbing the backs of your thighs raw from the material. you held onto his forearm, keeping you close with his front heavy against your back. he shifted his stance and rammed into you, the new angle making you cry into his palm as you leaned against the sink.
âthereâs my guy, youâre almost there, bub. iâve got you,â robby nestled his cheek against your own. he fucked into you harder, slamming into your sopping center. by the way you clenched and fluttered around him it was evident you were at the precipice. he kept his pace, holding tight and whispering how good you were for him and how great you were doing. the praise sent pulses into your belly as you finally hurdled over the cliff of your impending finish.
robby followed suit, moaning against your ear as his hips stuttered, keeping his hips flush with yours so every single drop stayed inside. his hand dropped from your mouth, giving you perfect opportunity to press your lips against the forearm still holding you.
the two of you stayed like that for a moment, basking in the after glow momentarily before untangling yourselves. robby helped pull your boxers and pants back up, turning you around so he could fasten the buttoning and kiss your forehead affectionately.
ânow, youâre not feelinâ too good, so iâm gonna take you home and make sure you rest. thatâs the story, bub, try not too look to pleased with yourself,â you grinned, staring up at robby with as much affection as you could muster in a single look.
#the pitt#michael robinavitch#dr robby#x reader#michael robinavitch x enby reader#michael robinavitch x ftm reader#michael robinavitch x masc reader#michael robinavitch x reader#dr robby x masc reader#dr robby x reader#x enby reader#x masc reader#x trans reader#prompt response#the pitt x reader
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A Good Day? [Frank Castle x Gn!reader]
A/n: written for @mattmurdocksscars 2.5K celebration! I honestly misread the thing at first and thought we were submitting requests for the prompts but NGL I had fun with this so fuck it we ball
Genre: uhhhh irdk it's not particularly fluffy or angst but def not smut... Just BAMF frank castle protecting his boo
Summary: frank castle thinks he can just have a good day? Lol. Lmao.
Warnings: gun mention
Other tags: Gn!reader, no pronouns used, no body description, clothes described, low cut pants and high cut shirt, sorry if that's not your aesthetic but I made an executive decision
Word count: 839 (sorry it's so shortđ)
Today was supposed to be a good day. You had been bratty all morning, sending teasing texts and pictures to Frank. This means that he now got to had to go home and fuck some sense into you. But he should have known better. It was too good to be true. He's clocked 2 snipers on the walk home, and seen the same car drive past three times.
He knows how to play it off, act oblivious. It's the best move, considering he was dumb enough to not carry today. He needed to make it home to you. Make sure you're safe before anything. So, as much as it kills him, he continues his leisurely pace home, still teasing you over text and telling you which street corner he's at.
"Be home in a few. You better be ready."
"And if I'm not?"
"You will be."
You were horny off the charts. You'd been wanting some tough love from Frank lately, and today was the perfect day to brat. Neither of you had any plans, and both of you were off early. The stars had aligned. So you wait at home, wearing the low cut pants and high cut shirt combo that you know drives Frank crazy, especially when you wear that one pair of underwear that is the perfect fit for the elastic band to peek out from under the pants.
You felt good enough to eat, as Frank would lovingly put it, and you were completely oblivious to the 3 or more men who were currently taking Frank home. Luckily, they didn't know where he was going, otherwise you would have at least 1 bullet in your body by now. You get goosebumps when you hear footsteps coming down the hallway of the apartment building, no doubt Frank's heavy steps.
Frank puts his keys into the doorknob, trying to continue playing it cool. He knows he won't have much time when he gets into the apartment, so he'll need to act quickly. He takes a deep breath to buy time, his thoughts racing a mile a minute. He'll go in fast, and tell you to get down before the bullet even goes through the glass of the window. It was a solid plan considering he only had two seconds to come up with it, and he'd figure out the rest as he went.
You are practically shaking as you hear the door finally squeak open, and your out of had the intended reaction. Frank pauses when he sees you, his plan having gone out the window momentarily. He opens his mouth to tell you to get down, but his dick had other plans.
"Bend over." He utters, though it sounds like he's choking on his words.
"Or what?" You tease, unaware of the danger.
It's by some miracle that the first bullet misses you, just barely grazing your arm. Frank snaps out of it then, tackling you to the floor just before a whole barrage of shots is unloaded into your apartment. Frank shields your body with his, covering as much of you as he can while you let out a string of curses from the bullet that grazed you. Because despite not getting actually shot, it still hurt like a bitch.
He waits until the bullets have stopped, indicating that your attackers are reloading. At that point, he lifts his head and looks around to be sure. Lots of things were damaged in the onslaught, and the worst one of all was a stuffed animal you had laying on the couch. You had ordered it online because it reminded you of Frank with its grumpy expression. He always pretended to hate it, but you both knew he loved it. And now there was a gaping hole in it's chest, polyester stuffing coming out like some pg-rated Gore.
He gets off of you and crawls over to get one of many guns hidden around the apartment. He checks to make sure that it's loaded before standing up, and firing a few shots out of the now broken window. You hear two heavy thuds, but he's still tracking something out there. Before you can ask, he's pulling you up and checking your arm.
"You okay?" He asks quietly
"Better than the alternative..." You wince as you put pressure on the wound
"Nicked you, huh?"
"It's not that deep, I think... I'll be fine." You assure him.
"I'll be back. Okay?"
"Where are you going?"
"They hurt you while tryin to get to me. No way in hell am I gonna let that slide." He mutters before leaning in to capture your lips in a searing kiss that seems to steal your breath away, making you momentarily forget your arm is hurt.
"Uh... Yeah... Okay..." You nod when he pulls away.
He lets out a soft huff of a laugh, shaking his head before leaving. You know he's going to come back covered in blood that's not his own, but honestly... You can't find it in you to be upset.
My Masterlist | celebration masterlist
#moth writes#frank castle#frank castle x reader#gn!reader#frank castle x fem!reader#frank castle x masc!reader#frank castle x male reader#frank castle x trans!reader#frank castle x enby!reader#the punisher#frank castle fanfiction#the punisher fanfiction
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unconventional gender neutral terms of endearment ^^
(mostly made this cause my drafts always have "baby" a million times and then i replace them lol)
- pretty (as in pretty girl/boy, but without the gender word attached) - starlight/my star, sunshine - honestly if you put "my" before anything it could probably work as an endearment - animals: firefly (got the idea from sufjan stevens), bunny, dove, mouse, hamster, hummingbird, penguin, monkey đ, kitten (this one's kinda popular) - flowers: tulip, rose, sunflower, a flower that's special between your characters - fruits/vegetables: pumpkin, bean, mango, lychee, kiwi, peach, nectarine, apricot, berry(!!), blueberry, strawberry, raspberry, cherry, etc - sweets! a special weakness of mine is sweets from the person saying the endearment's culture. like if someone who was also indian called me their kaju katli i'd melt (but probably not laddu unless it's clear they're teasing and i get back at them đ). maybe runs the risk of being cringey tho? honestly as long as it's from the sayer's culture and suits their personality it's fine - examples of sweets that don't belong to a certain culture: cookie, brownie - nature: snowflake, raindrop?? (i guess it works if your character has something to do with water), sprout, sapling
and here's some classic gn terms of endearment if your character's more into that: - darling (i see this as a perfect alternative to princess/prince) - love/my love - lovely/beautiful - baby/babe (can be used in both cute and teasing/suggestive moods) - angel (personal favorite of mine!) - dear (it's so "grown old together" vibes, i'm in love with this one for this purpose) - honey, honey pie, sugar, sweet(ie). honestly if they're used for s/os, it feels kinda old-fashioned. but for parent figures saying it to someone much younger that they care about, children or otherwise? (i'm imagining a southern (from america) beekeeper with no children or spouse of her own who sells her famous honey to buy food for the small army of orphaned children that shows up on her front porch every morning for breakfast. and these are the kinds of things she'd call them. perfection.)
#vega has thoughts#misc tags (don't look at these):#gn!reader#gn!mc#terms of endearment#enby#nonbinary#trans#transgender#writers#writers on tumblr#writeblr#writing advice#writing help#writing tips#just writer things#writing problems#writer problems#writing#inclusion#inclusivity#gender neutral#words of endearment#gender neutral reader#gender neutral y/n#fiction#imagines#kpop imagine#imagine#x reader
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This is a hastily made vent fic
Simon Riley x Reader
(Gender neutral reader, reader does not have gendered pronouns, but does mention having a period)
Hurt/Comfort
Warnings: Mentions of hospitalization and surgery, mentions of strained familial relationships, mentions of periods
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You woke slightly startled by the sound of the front door to your apartment opening. Quickly checking your phone you noted the time; 4:37 pm. Simon was finally home from another deployment. You moved to meet him in the living room, but before you could even make it out of bed he was already standing in the bedroom doorway, looking at you with a hint of anxiety in his eyes.
You stared back for a couple moments before offering a weak smile and a quiet welcome home. He let out a sigh like he'd been holding his breath and said âThere you are, love. I'd been trying to get ahold of you on my way over here, but you didn't answer. Had me worried.âÂ
You checked your phone again and this time noticed that he had called and texted you, several times in the last hour. You turned back to him, âI'm so sorry, I was⌠taking a nap.âÂ
Simon continued watching you from the doorway, staring like he was analyzing you. You had the blinds closed and curtains drawn shut, leaving your room dim despite the sun still shining bright outside. Simon turned on the ceiling light to get a better look at you, and you flinched. He sighed again as he took you in, this time less relieved. Your hair was a mess, you had dark circles around your eyes, your lips were chapped, and you'd been asleep in your day clothes. He moved toward you and sat at the edge of your bed.
âLovie, what happened,â he asked, placing the back of his hand against your forehead to check your temperature, âare you sick?â
âNo, no! I'm fine! I'm just⌠Tired.â you said, adding under your breath, âhaven't been sleeping well.â You were avoiding looking him in the eye. Simon gently grabbed your hand with one of his, and turned your face toward his with the other.Â
âTell me what happened.âÂ
It was firm, but not a demand. Suddenly you felt tears prickling at the corners of you eyes. You leaned into him, your head resting on his shoulder, and his arms wrapped around you, instinctively, protectively, as you started to fall apart.Â
âMy dad⌠He's in the hospital! While you were gone he was diagnosed with cancer. He got rushed into surgery to remove the tumor. In a few weeks he starts chemotherapy. My mom and grandmother have been at each other's throats, arguing about what's best for him, who should take care of him during his recovery. Grandma's even been picking fights with the hospital staff! Even before all that, I got laid off! Something's gone wrong with my insurance, and I haven't had the time to sort it out, so I'm off my meds because now I can't afford them! My period started a week early last month, and I bled through my clothes, and this month it's a week late! I really haven't been sleeping well, my stomach is in knots, so I can hardly eat! And I missed you! I missed you so, so much!â
Simon just sat there with you, rubbing slow, soothing circles on your back while you let it all out. Once you had, he kissed your forehead and said a soft âI missed you too.â
Then he pulled away slightly to look you in the eye, concern evident on his face, but layered with what seemed like a little hurt. âSweetheart,â he said more firmly again, âwhy didn't you tell me any of this was going on sooner? I know we didn't have a lot of chances to talk, but everytime I called you said everything was fine. Why'd you lie to me?â
You looked away, shame creeping its way into your chest while you found the words to answer him.
âI just⌠I didn't want you to worry. Your job is so dangerous, I didn't want you to be distracted by my problems while you were out there fighting.âÂ
âYour problems? Love, no matter where I am, or what I'm doing, your problems are my problems. I'm your partner, and I'm here for you, even when I'm not with you.â
The corner of his mouth quirked up into a bit of a smirk before he said, âAnd I'm no amateur. I'm more than good enough to do my job and care about you at the same time.âÂ
You couldn't help the small laugh that bubbled up out of you at his cocky attitude, and he smiled seeing the shell you'd crawled into start to crack a little.
You sighed as you gazed up at him. âI'm sorry, for not being honest with you,â you said. He pulled you into his chest again and kissed your temple.Â
âIt's alright, I know. And I'm sorry you've had to deal with so much by yourself.â
The two of you sat in a comfortable silence, finally able to enjoy each other's company again after being separated for so long, until Simon began to lift you off of his lap and make his way toward the door again.Â
âWhere're you going?âÂ
âGetting my phone, gonna order that dumpling soup you like. While we're waiting for it we're gonna take a bath, and you're gonna tell me everything else I missed out on while I was away. Good, bad. Everything. Get out that scented bubble mixture.â
And with that, he disappeared into the living room, leaving you with a smile on your face as you made your way to the bathroom to run the bath and find the bubble soap.
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I've been going through... a lot lately, so I wrote this to cope. Cheers.
#cod x reader#simon riley x reader#simon ghost riley x reader#simon riley x gender neutral reader#simon riley x gn reader#simon riley x ftm reader#simon riley x trans reader#simon riley x nonbinary reader#simon riley x enby reader#vent fic#nycto writes
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Not-A-Woman | Arnold Rimmer
MASTERLISTÂ |Â AO3
Note: In this fic, the reader is AFAB and nonbinary. This fic positions the notion of being perceived as a woman as being the worst thing in the world for the reader. But, hopefully it is clear that this is because the reader is trans and they have a lot of dysphoria around how they're perceived, and not because there's something wrong with being a woman. I felt that making this clarification in-story would only read as clunky, so I decided to include it here.
Relationship(s):Â Arnold Rimmer x AFAB!nonbinary!reader (implied romantic); Dave Lister x AFAB!nonbinary!reader (platonic; mentioned)
Summary:Â Who would have known that Arnold Judas Rimmer wasn't so bad at the whole 'counselling' thing after all?
Warnings:Â Gender dysphoria, references to periods (reader is implied to have periods), references to misogyny (Rimmer makes a very Rimmer comment that reflects his character and not the views of this author), canon-typical humour (or a Gen Z's attempt at that), jokes about suicide (again, nothing more extreme than you'd get in canon). (Let me know if I need to add any)
Word count:Â 3k
(A/N: This is incredibly self-indulgent, written solely with my own personal enjoyment in mind. This is my first fic I started writing for Red Dwarf, about a week after I'd started watching the show. It's weird to think I've only had this show for a month and it's already so dear to me. I've finished writing a different Red Dwarf one-shot since then, which you can find here. Red Dwarf, and Rimmer specifically, has gotten me back into writing reader-insert fanfic and it's been a lot of fun to rediscover my love for it, and to have two fics that I'm so proud of. I have a couple of other Rimmer fics in the works, one of which is a sequel to my Terrorform fic, but feel free to send in requests. I want to write a Lister fic at some point but I'm stumped for ideas, so feel free to send in suggestions for him as well.)
It had been something innocuous that had set this whole thing off. Lister had saved you from the latest thing that meant you harm- it felt like a weekly occurrence at this point. Had he not intervened, you would have died, or at least gotten a nasty wound. Normally, you would have been suitably grateful that your friend hadnât let you die, but something about this time bugged you. It really bugged you. It wriggled under your skin like a familiar parasite, feasting at your innards and your patience. Lister had saved you, like he had all those other times, and yet you could hardly look at him without wanting to tear off your own skin, or his skin for that matter. It was a strange kind of resentment. You were consumed by this restless annoyance, but you felt guilty enough about it to hole yourself up in your room to avoid saying something you would regret, as well as to be perceived as minimally as possible. You hid your body beneath a rotation of objects: a blanket you wrapped tightly around you (just not tight enough to fit the shape of your body), a cushion you hugged to your chest, and the most oversized top you owned.
No one thought much of it when you decided not to join them for a well-earned dinner and drinks. After all, you were tired- thatâs what you told them, anyway. They didnât have to know that you stayed up about as long as them, drinking alone in your room. But, they took notice when there was no sign of you the next day.
The first of them to check in with you was Kryten, who had gone through the trouble of making you lunch. He asked you if you were okay, an understandable question, and you assured him you were fine. He picked up that something wasnât right, so he asked if you were sick. You decided to lie and told him that you were on your period. You hoped it would be enough of an excuse to explain away your absence without causing any alarm, and that your crewmates, all men or man-adjacent (besides Holly), would be too overwhelmed by the concept of a period to even think of bothering you.
Unfortunately, Lister wasnât bothered by your fictitious period like you had hoped. Later that day, he turned up at your door. He invited you to do something- you werenât paying attention so you had no idea what exactly it was, but you guessed it probably involved alcohol, curry and/or poker, seeing as thatâs all you guys seemed to do. You declined, a little bluntly, using the excuse that you werenât feeling up to it, whatever it was. âYou know how periods can be,â you had said. He wasnât convinced that everything was fine- as fine as it could be while you were on your period- but it had only been one day. He could give you the benefit of the doubt and believe that you really were this wiped out. So, he left you to it. Youâd be back to normal soon enough, you assured him. Anything to get him to go away. And, really, you had thought youâd be fine within the next couple of days.
But, you didnât leave your room the next day, either. Kryten delivered you some food. And, Lister tried to coax you out again with some activity or another. You declined. So, he asked you if you were alright. You told him you were fine. But, he really didnât believe it this time. He asked again. No luck. So, he told you to come talk to him when you were ready. That made you feel worse.
Another day went by and you hadnât taken him up on his offer. If he wasnât worried before, he certainly was now.
Nothing could have prepared you for Rimmer throwing his hat in the ring. Your best guess was that he had put himself forward. You could imagine Lister scoffing at the idea and Rimmer going ahead with it anyway. Thinking about Lister further soured your already displeased expression, which also came with an inevitable wave of guilt. Your lack of enthusiasm did nothing to deter Rimmer, who invited himself in without hesitation. You watched him from your bed.
âI thought it might be worth checking in. You havenât left this room in days and itâs safe to say weâre all growing a bit concerned.â
You might have been touched and more receptive to his presence if he wasnât speaking with the tone of a teacher.
âAll of you? Even Cat?â
âWell, no. Perhaps not Cat. In fact, the next time you see him, you might very well have to re-introduce yourself.â
You rolled your eyes as he paced around the room, making a failed attempt at pretending as though he wasnât closely examining it for any sign of whatever he was looking for.
âI think youâd better leave, Arnie. I know about the Lemming Sunday incident and with how Iâm feeling right now Iâm worried thereâll be a repeat of it if you keep talking to me.â
He was clearly caught off-guard by the comment. He thought for a moment, then let out a deep exhale.
âI suppose I can call a meeting and arrange a rota for suicide watch.â
Given he was discussing the topic of suicide watch, his tone was perhaps inappropriately casual.
You shot him a glare, already sick of him. Normally, you were the first to defend him, but this conversation was giving you a glimpse into how Lister, Cat and Kryten must have seen him.
âI was joking. Mostly. But, I wasnât joking about wanting you to go away.â
âYou know, whateverâs bothering you-â
âNothingâs bothering me. I told Kryten, Iâm on my period. So, I donât want to be disturbed-â
He raised his finger to interject.
âAh, about that.â
You squoze your eyes shut and rolled your head back. You were sure whatever he was about to say was going to annoy you. The last thing you needed was Rimmerâs input on the subject of menstruation.
âHolly says youâre not due a visit from Auntie Flo for another two weeks and three days. So, Iâm afraid thatâs the end of that excuse.â
You straightened up, eyes wide as you stared at him in bewilderment.Â
âHolly tracks my cycle?â
âIâm sure sheâll start giving you a few dayâs warning if you ask her to.â
âThatâs not-â
âNow, I suggest you start talking.â
âFor Godâs sake, Rimmer, Iâm depressed, not a prisoner of war.â
âAha! So, you admit it. Youâre depressed.â
He seemed far too gleeful about that revelation. You looked at him blankly.
âI thought youâd figured that out already.â
âItâs one thing to reach a conclusion based on pure intuition, but itâs another kettle of fish wrenching out a confession- so masterfully, might I say.â
âOkay, well, youâve got your âconfessionâ. Can you smeg off now?â
âIâm afraid not. This is what we call a âsafeguarding issueâ.â
âIf you werenât a hologram, Iâd give you a âsafeguarding issueâ.â
âNow, now, thereâs no need to get hostile,â Rimmer tried. He thought for a moment; you assumed he was trying to recall some advice he had read in a book about negotiation or interrogation. âAlright, would you rather speak to Lister about whatever this is?â
The glare you directed at him sent a chill down his spine, or the hologram equivalent of that sensation.
âNo.â
Realisation settled on his features, and what followed was a wave of smugness. Amidst his pride, he smirked and folded his arms. He paced victoriously.
âAh. So, youâve fallen out with old Listy, eh? What is it, then? A playground squabble? A loverâs tiff?â
âI donât want to talk about it.â
He wavered.
âHang on a minute. Are the pair of you-â
âWeâre just mates, Rimmer. I donât fancy Lister and Lister doesnât fancy me. Believe it or not, I can be friends with a bloke. Men and women can be friends. And, Iâm not even a woman, so that doesnât even apply here anyway.â
Rimmer, thankfully, was clueless as to what to say. Before he could attempt to string together a sentence that would most likely compel you lob a chair through him, you continued, softening your tone a tad.
âLook, Arnie, Iâll be fine in a few days. Give me some time and itâll be like this never happened.â
âAnd, until then?â
âI donât know. Iâll manage. I always do.â
Rimmerâs gaze landed on your wastebasket, which could best be described as a growing mountain of empty cans. His eyes widened in alarm. He hadnât been observant enough to notice them before.
âChrist, are those from the past three days?â
You shrugged.
âThatâs how Iâll manage.â
He sighed.
âTrust me, I can understand loathing Lister with the burning passion of a billion suns-â
âI donât-â
âBut, Iâve never withdrawn like a maladjusted hermit and stumbled down the slippery slope of alcoholism because of it.â
He seemed genuinely concerned, so much so that you couldnât bear to keep looking at him. You were hyper-aware of the fact that he was looking at you- watching you with a softness you scarcely saw from him. It was kind of nice, but also mortifying. As tender as it was, you werenât exactly in a mindset where you wanted to be perceived. You shifted uncomfortably and shook your head.
âYou wouldnât get it, Arn.â
âGo on. Try me.â
Maybe Rimmer would understand. He knew a thing or two about self-hatred and insecurity, after all. You took a deep breath before speaking.
âLister always saves me from being killed or hurt or anything.â
Rimmerâs brows knitted in confusion.
âThe bastard?â
You paused and shut your eyes for a moment.
âI know weâre mates and thatâs why he bothers to not let me die, and I appreciate it. I really do. But, I dunno. Sometimes it feels like him and all the rest of you lot see me as a girl because Iâm not a full-on bloke. And, I guess, whenever he saves me from things itâs like Iâm just some damsel in distress to you guys- like no matter what, Iâll always be at least woman-adjacent.â
Rimmer exhaled from his nose.
âTrust me, if Lister saw you as a woman, heâd be on you like the foul odour on his⌠everything,â Rimmer insisted. âWhat does it matter what he thinks of you, anyway?â
âHeâs my mate. And, the thought of him- or anyone- seeing me as a woman makes me feel a bit sick because thatâs really not who I am.â You paused. âDo you see me as a woman, Arnie?â
âI thought this was about Lister.â
âSo, is that a yes?â
âNo. Were it a yes, I would have said, well, yes.â
âBut, you didnât say no. Not right away. You dodged the question. So now it feels like you do see me as a woman.â
There was an undertone of panic in your voice.
âI donât see you as a woman.â
âThen, why didnât you just say that straight away?â
âBecause, no one ever cares to hear my opinion on anything. I was taken by surprise.â
You glanced at him, half-pitying, half-apologetic.
âOh.â
There was a brief moment of awkward silence.
âWell, why does it matter if Lister sees you as a woman or if I see you as a woman?â
âWhen you phrase it like that, it seems like you do see me as a woman.â
He tipped his head back in frustration.
âNeither of us see you as a woman! But, I have to tell you, this hysteria really isnât helping your case.â
Your growing fondness for Rimmer came crashing down. Of course it was too good to be true. And, oh, he had been doing so well.
âMisogyny. Nice. Can you actually smeg off now, you total-â
âItâll take more than accusations about my character and childish insults to get rid of me.â
You could have throttled him. Well, technically speaking, you couldnât.
âAre you really that stubborn that you wonât leave me alone?â
âThis isnât about me. Youâre having some sort of crisis and I donât think hiding in your room like a recluse and drinking enough to kill a horse is doing you any good.â
He had you there.
âRight, well, what do you want me to do, Arnie? Because, thatâs all I feel like doing right now. I donât want to be looked at. Not when people look at me and see me as something Iâm not. And, not when heâs there to remind me of what a failure I am as⌠not-a-woman.â
Rimmer cleared his throat.
âWell, then, perhaps Iâd better leave. I wouldnât want my masculinity to make you feel inadequate.â
Well, you certainly hadnât expected that. Your eyes widened with shock. You stifled a laugh. The corners of your lips stretched into a smile, one you hid behind your fist. You chewed on your finger and turned your head away from him. He sent you a look of confusion and mild indignation.
âWhatâs so amusing?â
You shook your head.Â
âNothing. Nothing.â
Rimmer placed his hands on his hips. Your body shook with laughter that you tried to keep as quiet as possible. You felt so mean but you couldnât help it.
âYou donât think Iâm masculine?â
You managed to compose yourself a bit to answer him, taking in several deep breaths.
âItâs not that! Iâm so sorry, Arnie. Youâre a perfectly acceptable man.â
âThen, why are you laughing?â
âIt took me by surprise.â
Rimmer shook his head.
âI see how it is. Tell me, then, what is it that makes David Lister a veritable paragon of machismo?â
You chewed your nail, thinking for a moment. You paused. You sighed.
âIâm sorry for laughing at you, Arn. Will you please let me explain?â
After a moment of hesitation, he let out a huff.
âVery well. Go on.â
âDaveâs a proper laddy lad, you know? Heâs confident in his own bloke-ish-ness. Heâs, like, the quintessential bloke. He drinks beer, he tends to be handy to have around, heâll shamelessly wear curry-stained clothes that havenât been washed in a year,â you explained. âI mean, youâre far from laddy- and, no offence, you can be a bit pathetic sometimes- but youâre still a man. Catâs a bit metrosexual but heâs taken seriously as a man. And, Kryten: heâs not even technically a man but thatâs how we treat him and itâs probably right for him. Youâre all men and you all do it so differently but it doesnât change how people see that part of you.â
You folded your arms tightly over your chest.
âBut, then thereâs me. Iâm not a woman. Iâm not a man. But, it feels like because Iâm not a man and all of you are, other than Holly, Iâm a woman by default because Iâm âcloser to being a womanâ than the rest of you or something because thatâs how I was born. So, I get it in my head that everyone sees me as a woman, because Iâm driving myself mad with the âwoman thingsâ I have. And, it really gets to me how you can all just be men so differently and effortlessly and I canât have that for myself.â
You rolled your head back, squeezing your eyes shut.
âItâs no oneâs fault how I was born or how I am- not even mine. But, I know itâs all down to me, to deal with how Iâm feeling. So sorry for being a bitter, miserable prick. Thatâs why I was trying to avoid all of you until it stopped.â
You had been going on for so long about your abject misery that you had forgotten you were talking to Arnold Judas Rimmer, who Lister had once described as having all the gentleness of a prostate exam from Freddy Krueger. But, when you finally dared to look at him again, you were met with that same soft expression from earlier. Your shoulders sank, a sense of relief washing over you.
âYou know, if you feel you must try to emulate Lister, his drinking habits certainly arenât what I would attempt to mimic,â he finally said. âIt makes him an idiot, not any more of a man.â
You laughed weakly. âI suppose youâre right.â
âAnd, for what itâs worth, I think youâre a perfectly acceptable⌠not-a-woman.â
âThanks, Arn.â
He carried on looking at you, thoughtful. You stole another glance at him. When your eyes met, your heart skipped a beat and warmth flooded your stomach.
âYouâre not actually going to do anything stupid, are you?â
âProbably not.â
He appeared dissatisfied by your answer.
âNo. Iâm not actually going to do anything stupid, Arn.â
âGood.â
You smirked.
ââGoodâ because me killing myself would somehow inconvenience you or âgoodâ because you care about me?â
He hesitated.
âA bit of both.â
You grinned.
âThatâs the nicest thing youâve ever said to me. Iâll take that.â
âSo, are you feeling better, then?â
âA bit. You donât have to worry about me anymore. And, Iâd say youâve earned the right to tell them they were wrong about you being able to help me.â
He knitted his brows.
âHow did you know about that?â
âIntuition.â
â â â
âHang on a minute, are you seriously saying that Rimmer made you feel better?â
Lister leaned back in his chair, eyeing you incredulously and with clear unease.Â
You nodded.Â
âYeah. He did.â
After Rimmer had helped you feel better, you didnât mind that he was eager to parade you in front of the crew to tell them that heâd done a good job despite their misgivings.
âArnold Rimmer?â
âYep.â
âArnold Judas Rimmer?â
âYes.âÂ
Lister got up and pointed directly at an indignant Rimmer.
âThat git?â
âHe might be a git-â
Rimmer folded his arms.
âExcuse me!â
âBut I appreciated his help anyway.â
Lister huffed and sat back down.
âWell, I suppose all that matters is that youâre feeling better.â
Still, he seemed unsettled, while Rimmer was able to return to being smug. You thought it was kind of sweet, but it was obvious that Lister didnât share that sentiment, judging by the way he was massaging his temple.
âAnd, to think,â Rimmer said with a self-satisfied smile. âYou were so vehemently against me offering my counselling services.â
Cat casually strolled into the room, carefree as usual. When he passed you, he did a double-take, then he looked between Rimmer and Lister with confusion.
âWhoâs that?â
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Desperate doms who fulfill every fantasy you have because they just want to be sooo good for you đĽľ
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In lieu of Stuff Your Kindle day, can we talk about the issue of how the m/m genre of books, romance or not, is almost entirely dominated by women? Can we talk about how the most recognisable gay couples in media are written by women? Can we talk about how queer men can't even write about ourselves, how we are only allowed to exist when it's from the point of view of a straight woman sexualising us?
Can we talk about that? Or am I going to get called misogynistic for pointing out the disparity between who gets the writing deals, & who gets their books turned into movies, & whose shit gets popular versus whose doesn't? Can we talk about how m/m fiction is only allowed when it appeals to a cishet gaze, or is that too much for tumblr to take?
Can we also talk about how trans queer men are even more hated by publishing? Can we talk about how we get shit from both sides? Can we talk about how books about the experiences of being a queer man, written by queer men, never get the same recognition as books written by women on this subject (barring academia which has its own problems)?
Can we talk about that? Can we?
#booker speaks#no bloody clue how to tag this#this is for the tags only but#people would get up in arms if the f/f book scene was dominated by cismen only#why are we not extending this same energy to ciswomen writers of m/m?#why did we forget about the original meaning of own voices?#why are queer men pushed out of publishing in the way that we are?#& im not just talking about romance here#like there are fantasy & scifi & contemporary novels about men loving men that are written by ciswomen who have a very narrow view of what#m/m relationships are like. & this extends towards stuff like manga too but im not gonna get into that cause i dont read mangs/comics#can we talk about how hard it is to find queer masc authors nowadays?#saying this both as a reader & as a writer#can we also talk about how lists of queer & especially trans novels almost always forget to include anything by transmascs & gay transmascs#or if they do include us its 1 transmasc book to 1 enby book to 8 transfem books or books about the 'trans experience' in nebulous terms#can we stop reccing detransition baby & start reccing the spirit bares its teeth?#can we look at works written by queer masc people that arent just red white royal blue & stone butch blues?#go read cemetary boys#read alexis hall & max turner#read bloom if you like comics. or nimona#read my shit too!#im gonna be focusing on my writing blog way more this year#& im working on some projects that may or may not end up being published in physical form#read more queer masc stories by queer masc authors!
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"i know you wanted me to breed you now, but if you're really good i'll make sure to cum buckets inside you next time! ok, sweetie?"
[allowing them to watch me put a condom on so they know, with complete certainty, they're being denied. positioning their body in a display pose to receive my small, lubed, pretty cock.]
"i want to hear your cute moans for me. i want you to say 'thank you' whenever i slap your face, tits, dick/pussy... i want you to be a good little fuck toy, alright?"
[breathing steadily as i begin thrusting at an even pace, holding and grabbing parts of their body... caressing them, enjoying their flesh on display beneath me.]
"you really love being used like a doll, don't you?"
[slapping their face as soon as they begin to speak, no matter what answer they had to offer. quietly grunting as i grip their limbs and fuck harder, faster...]
"you don't get to cum until i say. you're nothing more than a reusable hole to get me off. ... you really like being treated this way...? like you're nothing? ... answer me."
[grabs at different places on their body as a reward, changing up the pace of my thrusts. balancing myself on their hips as i fuck deeper, pounding my body against theirs, just stimming. breathing heavier to the sound of their moans, my cheeks flushing in desire for them and every part all over their body.]
"you want to cum...? ask nicely. keep asking..."
[meeting each request with a slap or grunt from a really hard fuck... until i can hear and see their genuine desperation to climax.]
"beg for me to cum in you, beg for it."
[railing them as they beg and get closer to the edge. no more pain, just breathing hard and fucking my good toy.]
"fuck...!! cum now, slut."
[pressing myself deep inside and cumming through the condom i'd secretly cut the tip off of. filling their surprised hole with a big load of my cum, breeding them like they've wanted.]
"good, My good fucking toy. you like my warm cum inside you? you love being bred by my small, sweet cock inside... so deep inside you?"
[ignores their response to empty more cum into the hole i just fucked.]
"stay there, i wanna watch it drip out... fuck. look at you still cumming on nothing... you're so hot."
[using the same little strap to pump inside me with a wand on my erect cock. ordering them to touch themself while i enjoy cumming on my own tiny cock.]
#bd/sm domme#bd/sm breeding#breeding toy#br33dable#domb brain#breeding k1nk#br33d1ng#oldermen#domme mommy#mtf girl#mtf sub#nblw nsft#enby nsft#bi nsft#attention wh0r3#dumb slvt#trans sub#mtf nsft#bd/sm dom#ftm dom#trans nsft#gender neutral reader
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I need more requests pls guys đđ

#amab reader#bottom reader#bottom male reader#bttm male reader#x male reader#top male reader#male reader#amab nonbinary#amab trans woman#mtf reader#enby reader
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18+ minors DNI sfw drabble pope cody x nonbinary/trans!reader
cant stop thinking abt pope hanging out at readerâs apartment more and more often and eventually their roommates making appearances very casually. at first he gets super tense and either has a hand on reader while theyre on the couch or just scoots closer to them in general.
but reader only lives with lgbtqia+ people so they see this and are like oomfie has a feral cat ok weâll go at your pace sir. theyre super respectful of his space and walk/talk around him to reader as casually as they can. if theyre ordering food for the roommates they check in w reader abt what pope likes to eat and order for him too.
pope getting more comfortable around them and reader starts to notice and it makes them so happy they could cry. one night one of your roommates is going out on a date and sheâs worried she looks to masculine in the outfit she chose and is just super nervous and pope gives her a once over from the hall coming back from the bathroom and hits her with a âyou look good, quit beinâ a babyâ and the silence is deafening.
your roommate realizes how big this is and is overwhelmed w emotion at this comfort hes providing strangely? and kisses him on the cheek with a big smack of her lipstick and with all the confidence in the world heads out the door telling you both to not wait up.
and pope comes back to the couch and wipes the lipstick off with his hand and you kiss his other cheek and all over his face till hes blushing and telling you to knock it off, but hes not serious he doesnt want you to stop he loves the praise and the positive reinforcement of his good behavior
GOD I LOVE POPE AND THE GAGGLE OF QUEERS THAT ADOPT HIM
#pope cody#pope cody x enby reader#pope cody x nonbinary reader#pope cody x trans reader#pope cody x reader#animal kingdom#andrew cody#drabble
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I Don't Want To Go (771 words) by Ineffable_Ezra Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Good Omens (TV) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Aziraphale & Crowley & Original Child(ren) of Aziraphale and Crowley (Good Omens), Aziraphale & Crowley (Good Omens) & Reader, Aziraphale/Crowley (Good Omens) Characters: Aziraphale (Good Omens), Crowley (Good Omens), Original Child(ren) of Aziraphale and Crowley (Good Omens), Reader Additional Tags: trans reader - Freeform, can be either transfem transmasc or enby, nonbinary reader, Autistic Burnout, Autistic Reader, Doctor Who References, References to Hamilton - Miranda, Soft Crowley (Good Omens), Soft Aziraphale (Good Omens), Good Parents Aziraphale and Crowley (Good Omens)
#good omens#david tennant#crowley#ineffable husbands#michael sheen#aziraphale#crowley x aziraphale#ao3#fanfiction#good omens x reader#trans#transgender#autism#enby#nonbinary#good omens fanfiction#good omens fanfic
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I'm actually losing my mind
#i keep seeing tiktoks about how ftm and enby and fat people arent allowed to play l&ds#and how we need to stop taking shit away from ânormal sizedâ cis women#and I'm just here like wow#i didnt know this game was only available for a limited amount of people#and that all the fandom content was only for fat trans* individuals#anway I'm now tempted to write fat gender neutral reader and maybe a few ftm fics for l&ds#but ive been saying shit like this for months so its also unlikely#I'm just annoyed because we can exist in the same space from afar#ao3 has a tagging system#most writers tell you if its fat/trans* reader you can block and ignore them#we arent taking over spaces when there is an unlimited amount of seats we are just purchasing a ticket that was made available to us#i stg#and what pisses me off the most is the fact that they equate being fat as being ugly#maybe a little on the trans side but the fatphobia be super strong
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Searching for crumbs of content so bad, I started reading Character x F!Reader as a Enby/TransmaleâŚ

#relatable#sad but true#x reader#where tf is the M!Reader/Listener content?!#going crazy#transgender#transmasc#trans male#enby#nonbinary#trans umbrella
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Headcanons: Being Roland and Jocelyn Schitt's Trans/Nonbinary Kid
MASTERLISTÂ |Â AO3Â |Â KO-FI
Pride Month 2024 #1
Relationship(s): Roland Schitt x trans!gn!reader (familial), Jocelyn Schitt x trans!gn!reader (familial)
Summary: Cameron has had a crush on you
Warnings: Trans-typical stuff. (Let me know if I need to add any)
(A/N: I did a version of this with Modern Family, where the reader is the nonbinary kid of Jay. When I watched Schitt's Creek, I found myself really gravitating towards the idea of writing something where the reader is Jocelyn and Roland's kid, and since I'm trans I thought a lot about how they'd be with a trans/nonbinary kid. So, I finally started working on this idea for Pride Month!)
Roland and Jocelynâs support of you knows no bounds.
When you come out as trans, itâs no different.
They are on board with it immediately.
If youâre particularly nervous about coming out, they will both assure you that they love you so much and that all they want is for you to be yourself and happy.
Jocelyn will bake you one of those pride flag cakes to show her support.
And, if youâre ready to be out to the rest of the town, Roland will go on and on to anyone who will listen about how proud he is of his kid/son/daughter (whichever you prefer!)
Ronnie, happy for you as she may be, tires of hearing about it pretty quickly.
Early on, theyâre very much the embodiment of âhe a little confused, but he got the spiritâ.
Roland has 100% said âhis/her pronouns are they/them!â (or the applicable equivalent that best suits you).
Jocelyn will keep telling you that she thinks that Elliot Page is handsome.
And, one time, she asks you if you want to watch the Danish Girl with her (which you probably wonât, but if you are that way inclined go ahead and it will make her week).
Theyâre always well-meaning, no matter what they do or say.
If you come out around the time that the Roses move to the town, I can see Roland and Jocelyn both discreetly asking David for advice about you as the young queer person that they know (regardless of whether or not youâre an adult).Â
David will either give them a pretty broad answer that is applicable to most trans people, or tell them to speak to you themselves (in the nicest possible way, for David at least).
Roland will try to bond with Johnny over the both of them being the fathers of queer kids.
When Pride Month rolls around, your parents will write you out a card and put some money in it like itâs your birthday.
I can see them waking you up on 1st June with party horns and party poppers, again like itâs your birthday (unless 1st June is your birthday, in which case theyâll eagerly celebrate both).
If you decide to transition medically, Roland will offer to drive you to every appointment you have to attend.
If you end up getting any surgeries, both of your parents will insist on contributing whatever money they can, and they will want to help take care of you when youâre recovering.
If youâre nonbinary, Roland always (very proudly) introduces you to people as his ânonbinary kidâ.
Roland has a trans and/or nonbinary pride flag bumper sticker on his truck.
And, Jocelyn has a pride flag displayed somewhere in her classroom.
Basically, theyâre so supportive that it borders on excessive.
But, they love you, trans or not.
After all, you're their kid.
#pride month#schitt's creek#schitts creek#schitt's creek x reader#schitts creek x reader#roland schitt#roland schitt x reader#jocelyn schitt#jocelyn schitt x reader#x reader#x gn!reader#x gn reader#x gender neutral!reader#x gender neutral reader#x trans!reader#x trans reader#x nonbinary!reader#x nonbinary reader#x enby!reader#x enby reader#trans#nonbinary#pride month 2024
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