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I don't normally reblog and this is irrelevant to London but I love this too much!

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JOKERS

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So true is not even funny!

Responsibility

Picking a career

Thinking about the future

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Hood up, hood down

Before I start this post I need to clarify I'm not depressed, upset or for that matter drunk. I am content, sober and just about ready for bed. The reason I'm saying that is because I can imagine people might see this as being deep. Also I can imagine people saying that I sound like every other emo, goth, greebo or other 'emotional' high school stereotype.

I have three ways of displaying emotion. The first is obvious, it also dimisses any chances of me being classed as a macho guy. If I'm happy, really happy I cry, ie. weddings, happy films, winning the lottery. The other two are less so. I nearly always wear hoodies, the only time I don't is if It's a really hot day, which here in England doesn't happen too often. If I am content my hood remains down (unless it is raining). If I am having a bad day and feel, upset, disillusioned or otherwise unhappy, my hood goes up. 

I only realised this today. It is something that has developed without me noticing. I put my hood up today when I wasn't depressed (and it wasn't raining). That is when I realised. If I didn't know then nobody knew, not my friends, not my brothers not even my parents. This furthers my case that I have mentioned before, if not on this blog then in real life. Nobody knows me. My mum likes to think she does, but she has no idea. My best friends like to think they do. They don't. I like it that way. I like that nobody knows me because then I can escape their sympathy, concern or incessant attempts to help. Also, there's something strangely cool about being a mystery.

Now that last bit maybe you can equate to some stereotypes you knew in high school. Go ahead if you like. Its wrong though. I don't claim I'm the only one who does it, maybe everyone does it and all of life is shared by liars. All I know is, is that nobody knows me. Not even myself. Hood up or hood down. Strange.

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I seriously need to learn how to pull a girl...

...that is all. I am drunk, will probably regret this and i don't even care.   I literally don't understand my total lack of.... i don't know what, confidence? ability?  I just suck and it's awful. I will literally end up the 40 year old virgin, and not because I am asexual or gay...

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^^^^^^ These guys obviously never had to pick a lock on Splinter Cell

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How to read any John Green book

Step 1: Read book

Step 2: Finish book

Step 3: Wander around in a confused stupor for a week and question your entire existence and every decision you've ever made

I tend to feel like this after reading 90% of books I've ever read.

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So so true!

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me: i swear i'll log off at 8:00

time: 8:02

me: woops, gotta wait till 9:00 now

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What is success?

Throughout our lives we are told to strive for success at home, at school, at work and most recently for me, at university. If I don’t get a good degree grade I will not succeed. If I didn’t do well in high school I would not succeed. All the time we are told to strive for success. In most if not all of these cases though success is the idea of getting a well-paid job. Occasionally people will see success as fame or celebrity status. These two are the two forms of success that are put upon us throughout our lives.

In my circle of friends I have one friend who we all joke about as being lazy. We joke but it is actually true. For her though getting a good job once she leaves university isn’t her idea of success. Even with a degree she would quite happily be on the dole providing she found a husband and had children. For her success is about having a close family.

We all laugh at her for not working too hard on her degree, for her constant talk about kids and a family. Increasingly in the last month though I have begun to wonder if in fact she is the wisest of us all. She has not been bought in by this concept that success revolves around money. Of course for some this is true, I cannot imagine my brother or sister in law ever being content unless they did well financially and within their career.

I’m beginning to wonder if this is not the case for me. If I come out of University with a first class degree and walk into a good job that would be great. If in 10 years I’m in a high management position that would be even better. But if I reach 60 and all I’ve achieved is becoming a company director then I don’t think I’d consider that a success.

I am beginning to think that whether I fail or pass my degree I might travel for a few years. If I reach 60 and I haven’t seen the Northern Lights…

Ayers Rock

The top of Kilimanjaro

Or the sunset over the khalahari.

Then as far as my life is concerned I have not found success. For me that is what success is. What is success for you? Money? Fame? Or something totally different from what the leaders of this world would tell you.