70-cals

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It went from “I want to get fit and toned,” to “I want to be thin,” to “I want to be so skinny that my bones stick out and people wonder if I ever eat.”

[70-cals]

Ugh I want to have an ana buddy again but I’m shy and suck at conversations

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FRIENDLY REMINDER

Stop harassing “wannarexics” because they're “romanticising” an eating disorder. Literally, no one thinks to their selves, “hey you know what would be a good idea, starving myself and exercising till I faint” without already having disordered perception so stop acting like they’re neurotypicals just wanting to lose weight, they are literally just in the early stages of an eating disorder you morons

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““Reblog if your stomach is too pudgy, thighs are too big, arms are too flabby, face is too chubby and you need to lose 5 or more pounds.””

— (via becomingsmallandpetite)

[70-cals]

My friend left. I’m just chilling alone. I ate wayy too much this weekend but I’m going to get back on track tomorrow. I love my friends but hanging out always leads to binging it’s so tiring..

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Last nights party was absolute class. Still w/ my friend.

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Okay, so my friends sleeping over. Ofc I ended up overeating since I spent the day with her, but I’m trying to stay positive. I actually had a p decent day, I stayed around as many friends as possible. I’m actually looking forward to tomorrow cause there’s a party hosted by the guy I like! I’m going with my friend and honestly everything’s been going better than I thought it’d be. I haven’t been able to be active today but thanks to everyone who’s been nice to me.

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Some of y’all reached out to me after my last post and were all nice and supportive. I’m actually p reserved about my depression and stuff and bad at talking about it so it’s nice to have kind responses. Thank you to everyone who reached out, and even the people who just read it, I absolutely adore you and you’re all helping me stay strong <3

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!!TW!!

So, back in October I had planned a suicide for tomorrow. I planned it during a manic episode that was mainly motivated by my ex and how that relationship ended. I’m over him now and I’ve been doing better, but since the day I planned to kms has been approaching I’ve been thinking a lot about what happened and some old wounds have re-opened. I’ll be fine, since the reasons I was so depressed are overall resolved, but it’ll still be hard. I haven’t told anyone about this, my friends all knew I was unhealthy and in bad mental health back in October-December when I was at my worst, but I didn’t tell them about my plan. That’s kinda why I’m putting it out here, to get it off my chest. One of my friends is coming over tomorrow, so I definetly won’t do it, but it’s still scary to think about. Too scary to talk about irl. I doubt anyone’s read this all but it helps me to feel like I told someone, it calms me down. Thank you.

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I Need More Active Blogs To Follow!!

REBLOG IF 3 OR MORE APPLY TO YOU:

•Ana/Thinspo Blog

•16-20 Years Old

•You’re LGBTQ+

•You’re SW was 145+

•You’re GW is 115 or below

•You’re active every day

I’ll follow and spam those who reblog!!

[70-cals]

Just realized imma be with friends all weekend and will have to eat a lot..

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Started a fast :) (I’m gonna do at least 16 hrs, maybe more, idk yet)

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I’m just gonna end the night on some good news. 1. I got tickets to my fav band blackpink! It’s their first world tour and I’m so glad to finally see them! 2. I thought I’d have to become inactive on here, but I don’t think I will. I think I’ll be able to post regularly like I’ve been!

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Just realized, I should clarify something. I count things as a binge once I hit 1000 cals. I know a lot of people say they’ve binged and mean they’ve eaten a lot more that 1000. There’s no right or wrong definition, it’s just how I see binging for me. I wanted to share that to avoid any confusion :)

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Y’all I’m realising how bad I am at maintaining my diet. Like I binge almost every other day. I really relied on my old ana buddy and now she’s gone.. I need to stop relying on others and work harder! Also I need to stop stress eating omfg. My goal is to be skinny for next school year, since it’s a new school, I need to start working harder.

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Overate today. I’m sad but I’ll manage.

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Just ate dinner, 566 cals. I don’t think I’ll have a chance to work out, I have a lot of studying to catch up on and it’s kinda late, but I didn’t overeat so I feel okay!