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“An ounce of action is worth a ton of theory.”

Ralph Waldo Emerson

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Erica Diaper Plan

Chapter 17

Karen sat in anxious realization in the front seat driving Erica back home after the horrible experience of not even getting inside the school. This was her worst fear, and by Erica’s reaction probably hers too.

“ Erica Sweetheart, I know you’re soaking wet and I need to get you changed, but do you want any food before we get home?”

Erica still whimpering in the backseat could only muster up a soft “no”

After what seemed like the longest drive home ever, Karen exited the vehicle and helped to get her daughter out of her car seat. After exiting the car, Erica just stood there, staring at her mother after what seemed like only a couple of seconds Erica broke down again, slammed her face into her mother, and just hugged and cried in the driveway.

“ I’m sorry, mommy… I thought I would be OK”

“ well honey, this is what I’ve been worried about…”

“ I know, mom” fighting tears

“ OK well let’s go get that leaky diaper off of you get you cleaned up and maybe get you feeling a little better OK?”

Erica was in agreement and the two went inside and headed back to her nursery to get her on the changing table and start cleaning her up. Erica jumped on the changing table, and assumed the position for her mother to remove her clothes.

“Sniff sniff…um, Erica… Did you poop yourself too? Oh yeah, you did.”

“ I did,… So you’re telling me I peed myself and pooped myself with no control?”

“ yes ma’am, how does that make you feel Erica? Do you still want to be diaper all the time? Do you still wanna have all these accidents? Cause it seems to me you’re pretty much close to un potty trained right now especially under stressful situations…. I don’t know how the heck you expect to go to school.”

That was an obstacle for later or tomorrow Karen established that it would be best to go ahead and get Erica cleaned up in a bath and try to help her calm down that way. Karen removed all of her clothes in her dirty diaper. Got her off the changing table and went into the bathroom to draw a nice warm bath with lots of bubbles. Karen’s plan was to get Erica in the bath and then go call Jasmine and let her know what happened, but Erica really wanted her mom to give her a bath…

“ Can you stay here with me, mommy?”

“ yeah kiddo I got you, give you a bath just like when you were a baby!”

And finally, Karen’s are the first smile on her daughter’s face and nearly a few hours… while Karen was helping scrub her daughter and get all the stink off of her, while Erica’s arms were raised and soap was everywhere Erica flatline asked her mother..

“ do you think everyone’s talking about me and making fun of me right now?”

“ well Erica, I don’t know… You know, sweetie, being a full-time diaper teenage baby, as you are now is gonna come with inherent humiliation embarrassment, and probable emotional scarring. This isn’t what I wanted for you, honey., but I also know how much you wanna wear diapers and be babied. So you’re really gonna have to think hard about the choices you’re gonna make. Because if you still wanna be diapered and go down that path, you’re gonna have to get used to that unfortunately… it breaks my heart to see you like this, but it’s not like you didn’t know. As we’ve stated several times over the past week or so this is what you wanted.”

“ I didn’t wanna be humiliated”

“ Erica, sweetie you’re a 15-year-old girl messing in wetting diapers… that’s humiliation 101! And the really messed up, you’re too far gone from being able to hold your pee and poop, that I wouldn’t feel comfortable with you not wearing a diaper right now… so this is just your reality. I’m sorry., I wish it wasn’t so., but you’re gonna have to figure out a way to get through this”

Erica lowered her head in shame, for the first time and maybe ever the thought of wearing a diaper absolutely frightened her… something that is always given her immense joy, anticipation, etc. is now the reason she’ll be made fun of.

Karen finished up with Erica’s bath, drained the water draped to cute care bears beach towel around her, rubbed her arms to warm her up and just gave her a big old hug

“ we’re gonna get through this Erica I promise, I don’t know how… but we’ll get through this…”

Karen took Erica by the hand, and escorted her down the hall back to the changing table and got her comfortable. Karen opened up a new pacifier, offered it to her daughter and watch her daughter, soothed herself while sucking her paci. Karen looked down at her daughter, laying on a changing table. Pacifier in her mouth, pink stuffed bear being strangled to death.

Karen went to the diaper closet, pulled down a super thick overnight touchables, two overnight boosters and took them back over to the changing table.

“ OK little girl lift those legs for me, good girl…lift that butt…okay! After the diaper was situated underneath her daughter, she proceeded to open the tub of Desitin and shellac her daughter’s in her thighs with diaper rash ointment.”

“ that tingles Mommy”

“ oh yeah… this is the purple diaper rash ointment. It’s extra strength.”

“ Erica was powdered her diaper placed in its place and taped on.”

Despite the horrible morning, Karen still stood there thinking how cute her daughter was in her thick baby smelling diapers. There was a part of her that was mad at herself for that feeling… she fought against Erica wearing diapers for so many years and even recently. This was always the worst fear, it wasn’t diapers or being babied. It was humiliating and embarrassing that she was afraid of.

Erica was helped off the changing table and noticed she could barely walk… The thick diaper was making her waddle so bad.

“ go lay down in your pile of stuffies honey, I’m gonna make you a nice bottle”

Erica did she was told and I waited her mother to return with a baby bottle full of milk and formula. Erica was handed the bottle and before she put it in her mouth, she asked.

“ can Mommies start producing milk again? Or like is that a thing?”

“ I don’t know if I understand what you’re asking me Erica?”

“ I’ve read it on places online that people can induce breastmilk or like take a medicine… is that a thing?”

“ I don’t know Erica where are you going with us?”

“ well…um… I’ve been having dreams and then those dreams you’ve been breast-feeding me”

“ Jesus, fuck Erica… I’m being really lenient on all of this stuff. I’ve gone way out of my comfort zone… Are you seriously asking me if you can breast-feed after this morning and everything? Seriously.?!?”

“ I was just asking…”

“ Erica there’s gotta be boundaries, sweetie… come on?” You need to answer a question for me right now. Is this a sexual thing for you? Because sometimes I’m not sure when you ask me things like that.”

“ sexual?… really?”

“ what am I supposed to think Erica? You just asked me to produce breast milk for you again. I need to be by myself for a little while, I am way too overstimulated. Drink your bottle, and stay in your room, ok?”

Karen removed herself from Erica‘s nursery, went to her and Jim‘s bedroom close the door threw herself on the bed and just started crying in the pillows. Her head swimming with defeatist questions…

Am I enabling her?

Did I do the right thing?

Is this my fault?

Did you really just asked me to breast-feed?

Where is the limit?

Is she ever gonna not be wearing diapers?

What’s even an appropriate age for me to stop diapering her?

Is all of this considered some form of child abuse, even though she asked for it?

All of these thoughts made Karen’s head swim more. After she calmed herself down, she went to the kitchen to make some tea. Her plan was to contact Jasmine, but maybe she should go see her in person.

(Text to Jasmine)

:hey, so…Erica won’t be in today for a check and change… just wanted to give you a heads up:

: Hey Karen, and what? Why?:

: While I was dropping the girls off this morning, a few of their friends saw Erica getting helped taken out of her car seat, and just laughed and pointed to which Erica totally freaked out instantly released, filled her diaper and leaked everywhere… hyperventilating, crying I didn’t know what else to do other than take her home:

:oh shit, so worst case scenario? Awesome. How’s Erica now?:

: To be real honest, I don’t even wanna answer that:

: Karen? WTf?;

: I got her home, gave her a bath, made her a bottle… and she proceeded to ask me if Mommy’s can start producing breastmilk again:

: Like just a biology question or?;

: No, she was straight asking me to chemically induce milk so that she could breast-feed off of me…:

: OK, then… that was out of the blue, yeah?:

:yea:

: What do you tell her?:

: I lost my cool and had to go cry in a pillow:

: Seems legit, lol:

: Did I fuck up Jasmine?… like with all this. Cause I feel like I did.:

: I know it probably feels like that right now, and you’ve got a weird bunch of obstacles to figure out… but this is still what she wanted, right?:

: It may be what she wanted, but it’s making me feel like a shit parent:

Jasmine and Karen texted back-and-forth for a few more minutes then Jasmine informed her that she had some actual work to do and that should get a hold of her later. In all actuality, Jasmine went to her computer and messaged Erica on the diaper forum…

(Hey baby Erica, heard you had a tough morning?)

(Yeah you heard right, I don’t know what happened…)

(You don’t know what happened?)

(do you remember when I talk to you a couple days ago?, The conversation we had about not making it so out in the open that your diaper and babied, only one appropriate….)

(Yea..why?)

(Then why did you choose to wear thick diapers, baby clothes, and be brought to school in your car seat? There’s no one here to blame but you, sweetie. I know you want this really bad. Hell I’ve sort of coached you on some of these things, but every time I’ve tried to help you and give you warnings about going too far, you ignore the warnings jump into the deep end and end up here…)

(Wtf Jazz, it’s not like I don’t feel bad enough today..)

(Well your mom’s beating herself up and she doesn’t have the heart to tell you these things so I’m doing it… your mother is a wreck. This morning, today’s

Transgressions are exactly why your mom felt the way she felt about you wanting diapers and being babied most of your life. You know that right?)

(Sure, jump on me awesome…)

(oh no… you’re not gonna sit here and play victim…nope. You need to go apologize, sit down and talk to her about how you’re going to make tomorrow better! Furthermore, what in the good fuck science made you want to ask her about breast-feeding of all days today?)

(What?….i didn’t..)

(Erica, you know your mom texts me right? And tells me all these things? How in the hell do you think I’ve been able to guide you through some of this over the last few years? Luck.? no I listen to your mom, I listened to her reasoning… I try to help compromise. But shit like this morning, and irresponsible asking to breast-feed… These are the things that are gonna get you shunned and made fun of more. I’ve always told you it’s OK to have these desires. It’s OK to pursue them within the realms of age appropriateness, situations, etc. You have taken the foot. Your mother has given you and tried to stretch it into a mile…. Just saying, that’s how you lose. I expect you at school tomorrow…)

Erica just read the text, started to reply and decided it wasn’t worth it. Instead of making a plan to redeem herself internally, she was just playing the woe as me card.

After calming down, and rereading all the messages, she made the realization that maybe Jasmine was right. First order of business is apologizing to mom.

[rico-hyuuga]

NARU: Sound of Hidden Pain

[vocaloidgender]

Idol intierarchy

A label for when one internally categorizes others in a hierarchy based around idols. For example: The user may see themselves as an idol, those below them are fans, an equal person as an oshi, ect

While this was originally intended for people with NPD, it is not exclusive.

Tags: Original label and template were made by @rwuffles, I'm also tagging @radiomogai

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Trans Rites: An Anthology of Genderfucked Horror presented by The Dionysian Public Library

The Dionysian Public Library is thrilled (and chilled) to present our first anthology, Trans Rites: An Anthology of Genderfucked Horror, for publication in print and digital. This collection features a bazaar of eleven bizarre tales of transition and transformation, beastliness and becoming: A bloody rebirth in the woods. A deadly game of consumption and corruption. A scientist putting the pieces of himself together. A patient becoming more and more like the china dolls she admires. A room with no exit except oblivion. A museum in a town renowned for its cryptids. These terrors and more await within. To embody transness is to change shape, to become something else. The theorist Judith Butler refers to the construction of gender as a process of ritual and naturalization. Hear our screams, our howls, our primal gibbering, our moonlight dances and our bleeding guts. This collection features the following stories, as well as lyrics and poetry from folk musician Skeleton Drive (Dillon Rae Oliver) • Birthday Suit by Lennox Rex • Fresh Meat by Thea Maeve • Death Taught Me How to Live by Alicia Hilton • Seen by Ju Collins • The Moss Witch of the Cascade Mountains by Mave Goren • Wolformation by Michelle Jacklyn Miller • Fly by Madeleine Varley • Figs for Thistles by E. B. Novetti • Bleed For Your Wishes by R.S. Saha • Frozen Charlotte by Mildred Faintly • Dr. Frankenstein Dabbles in Self-Discovery by C.C. Rayne

Promotion length: Permanently free

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Link to ebook: https://www.dionysianpubliclibrary.com/transrites

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Warbirds by Treflyn Lloyd-Roberts Via Flickr: A matching pair of Hurricanes that had seen active service during World War II display over Sywell during the 2024 air show. V7497 is a Battle of Britain veteran, while P2902 crash landed on a beach during the Dunkirk evacuation in 1940. Aircraft: Hawker Hurricane Mk.Is V7497/SD-X (G-HRLI) and P2902/R-DX (G-ROBT). Location: Sywell Aerodrome (ORM/EGBK), Northamptonshire, UK.

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Myth: Divine Rivalries

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I'm back witches ☆

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India, 1990 Mysuru, Karnataka, India. インド カルナータカ州 マイソール チャムンディ・ヒル Photography by Michitaka Kurata

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The feminine urge to play tennis just for the aesthetics. Yes, #guiltyassin.

[bambinotattoo]

babysitting me…

1. YOU are in charge from the moment you arrive…

2. Don’t hesitate to be in character immediately

3. Baby will not be aloud to ask for a change and/or hint at it

4. Baby is NOT permitted to change themselves

5. Baby is to be dressed as the babysitter wants, no exceptions

6. If your pacifier is inserted, baby is not to remove it

7. When prompted for a diaper check baby will immediately come to front and let them check you how ever they want/need

8. If it’s determined your ready for a change, baby will lay where they are told and let the change happen

9. Public humiliations are encouraged and represented

10. If someone stops to ask in public why I’m dressed like a baby…you are open to tell them whatever you want.

11. Baby will drink only from bottles, sippy cups, nipples

12. When eating, if babysitter wants to feed you, they can. Even at a restaurant

13. While clothes shopping, expect babysitter to let the sales clerk know you need stuff to fit over your padded butt.

14. Pics will be taken at will, not limited too at home/public/etc

15. If baby misbehaves/pouts/whines/or otherwise doesn’t comply/listen…spanking, loss of clothes, added toddler stuff etc can and WILL BE USED

16. babysitter can and WILL post your sissy diapered pics online. Not limited too, diaper sites, social media, where friends can find

17. If someone messages wanting answers, babysitter will reply with what ever embarrassing rhetoric they want.

18. When in car, you will be in your car seat

19. During outings like park or zoo/etc you may be in a stroller, or accommodating similar

20. You will be required to carry your diaper bag, added humiliation

21. If baby is working, you will be required to be thickly diapered at the babysitters pleasure.

22. If applicable and appropriate sitter can and may stop by your work for a check and change.

23. You will be rewarded for leaks and messy diapers.

24. Expect enemas, suppositories, and laxatives with Diuretics

25. If caught holding anything that goes in your diaper, more muscle relaxers will be required

26. If baby becomes “excited” during a check/change a forced milking will follow

27. Baby is ONLY aloud to release by humping stuffies/pillow or by prostate stimulation

28. If baby continues to become erect, a cage will be required…if so, you will be dressed super little/thick thick noticeable diapers and paraded around the sex shop to make the employees and customers laugh

29. Butt plugs, and etc will be used for training purposes

30. If prompted or asked, baby is to (with no questions asked) please their babysitter or whom ever they say to.