abandonment-trauma

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Bouncing back and forth between “i don’t wanna be alone” and “i want to isolate myself” is quite the wild ride.

But incase you weren’t aware, these are both ways a fear of abandonment can show itself.

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Sometimes i don’t even want to think about you

but you left me without answers,

So your absence has become like an itch in my brain,

and I’m desperately trying to scratch it, but nothing can.

Even when I’m tired of feeling it.

So how do i find peace in knowing ill never understand?

How do i truly accept this lack of closure?

Its not as easy as people pretend.

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It surprises me how i can go from not thinking about you at all, to obsessing over the fact you’re gone and missing you constantly.

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I just never thought you’d leave, which is a BIG deal coming from me.

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I just never thought you’d leave, which is a BIG deal coming from me.

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i lost you and i don’t know how i’m supposed to get over it.

[abandonment-trauma]

My minds like a broken record player, I keep thinking about you on repeat.

Even when I don't want to anymore.

[abandonment-trauma]

Bouncing back and forth between “i don’t wanna be alone” and “i want to isolate myself” is quite the wild ride.

But incase you weren’t aware, these are both ways a fear of abandonment can show itself.

[abandonment-trauma]

I wish that you loved me as much as i love you.

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Abandonment from a friend can hurt just as much as abandonment from a lover

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Believe it or not, my fear of abandonment can make me pull away the second i sense rejection.

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Intro

Hi im a new blog. I notice there's not much talk on abandonment trauma that occurs later on in life. I dont notice a lot of talk on post break-up trauma from abandonment, for example, nothing quite fits what ive been through.

So i figured id make this blog and get those thoughts out, I hope there are people who will find comfort in it. That is the main purpose of this Blog.

I'll also make posts about childhood abandonment, general abandonment thoughts, etc.

[abandonment-trauma]

It's been so long and I still cant recover.