#drifting apart

[chestersbraincell]

Fuck yearning to be rescued.

Have you tried fantasising about the proper apologies backed with true understanding of how much they hurt you?

Have you yearned for dramatic reunions that will never occur?

Have you wanted someone, so so badly, just to for once FIGHT for trying again with you, instead of being completely ambivalent to the situation?

[fallingapart2dream]

And maybe when the thrill fades we'll realize how we were never too far from drifting apart.

[blue-jolly-rancher-lvr]

it’s study hall and we’re playing chess, rain pattering on the window outside. next year i won’t see you every day or even every month, and i’ll wonder what happened to us.

you knock over my king, proud of yourself. “checkmate,” you say, eyes sparkling. i try to convince myself i don’t like you anymore and fail. i’ve never been a good liar.

eyeing my incomplete paper, you raise an eyebrow. “you should finish your math.”

i laugh, and because it’s 8th grade and it’s the last year nothing matters, i shove it to the side. “how about one more game first?”

[sl8tersstuff]

Always responding quick because if I don't answer now,

are they still gonna need me?

[neverlandsky]

— now i wouldn't know who to name if someone asks who my best friend is because i don't think you'll say mine.

[xanaduslostmonarch]

You were not mine to hold in this lifetime.

In the next, I hope we can fall asleep next to each other and I can hear your heart beat alongside mine.

[too-tired-omg]

The whole point

A small rant/reflection prompted by hearing that one song my former boy best friend showed me about a year ago

People will come into your life.

They'll show you a song, a show, a place. They'll gift you a book, a ring, a necklace, a toy. You will live with them experiences in new places you'd never visited without them, you'll tell jokes only they understand. You'll give them a piece of you noone else can have.

Then they'll leave, or you'll kick them out, or you just drift apart.

And you'll never hear that song, watch that show, go to that place, read that book, wear that ring, see that toy, smell their perfume, tell that joke, see their favourite color, drink that drink you tried for the first time with them without thinking "I miss you"

And maybe that's the whole point.

[so-not-snow-white]

Something I haven't seen people really talk about (or maybe I haven't noticed) is that the deeply painful feeling of somebody you love, more than the entire universe, kind of drifting away from you.

they're not doing it intentionally. They're thriving, they're busy, and they still love you and try their best, but you can just feel it in your bones that what's happening is inevitable and very real.

And you're over the moon for them, but you know now that you can't go to them over stupid shit anymore. Or anything small, really. Things are changing. And there's nothing you can do about it.

[inkscribbled]

When you find an old picture of us, and you clear away the dust. I hope you miss me sometimes. When you see a frame and it reminds you me- would you remember the times, the times that we believed.

[crmsnmth]

A Platonic I Love You

Here we are again surrounded by passed out bodies everyone’s out except for you and I

I’m stoned and staring into the fire and your laughing at the scene as you swallow your beer The fire’s still going and we’ll feed it until the sun comes out Won’t be long now

There’s a certain type of conversation that seems to only happen in situations like this where we share so deeply that soon enough You and I know everything about each other and I wouldn’t have it any way

It’s the first time we’ve had these talks late night early morning walks we circled the lake again and again while laughing and crying and screaming You were there for my purge and I was there for you loneliness

I miss those conversations that feeling of being so deeply connected to another person Not in a romantic sense, but it felt like we were made for each other Puzzle pieces for jigsaw kicks I bet from above, it’s a pretty clear picture

But with time and age those kinds of conversation fade

just like the friendships we thought would last forever

[chestersbraincell]

When you've caught yourself looking at pictures and videos of the good times and you feel like you miss them(because you fucking do) but you know there's no way of going back. They're open to it, sure. But you're not. Because it literally cannot work out and you would only prolong the inevitable process of drifting.

But fucking damn it I just want my pookies back. My sillies back. But I know that they care much about the relationship than I do. I've built up this twisted, twisted overblown idea of how deeply connected we are when we're just. Not? We barely vent to one another, and when we do the conversations were very surface level. There was no deeper connection there. But oh how I'd fooled myself there was.

And then my stupid ass gets upset over a betrayal that there wasn't even anything to get betrayed OVER. I felt ghosted but I literally wasn't, that was just how much we interacted in general and I felt it more deeply because of my crumbling mental state. I miss something that never even existed(/stopped existing a while ago for my bsf atleast)

[heurtininside]

i miss you, do you miss me?

i drove by a sign for your old middle school and thought of you

 we haven’t talked since my birthday

 even then it was a measly happy birthday on your story at noon instead of midnight

i don’t think we’re friends anymore, you have shiny new ones

you still have my hair clip from eight months ago

i wonder if i’ll ever get it back

how many of my sayings and mannerisms are borrowed from you?

do you still say them the way i do?

do you have new ones i don’t know about?

new friends, new interests, new hobbies, new clothes, a new life?

how much has changed in your life away from me?

how much has stayed the same?

do you miss me the way i miss you?

or have you forgotten all about me?

it feels like you left me at a bus stop waiting for you to come back

maybe i’ll get a new best friend

maybe they’ll be a better one than you were in our half decade friendship

maybe i won’t

maybe i won’t ever have a best friend like you

where people mistaked us as lovers 

maybe its better this way

maybe its what needed to happen

maybe we needed to drift apart

have different lives

is it selfish of me to want you all to myself?

is it horrible to see bad things happen to you and think that its karma?

a year ago i couldn’t dream of thinking this way

maybe a year from now i’ll forget you all together

or maybe you’ll haunt the back of my mind like a ghost,

bringing up memories wherever i go.

[nellpire]

Nell - 멀어지다 (Drifting Apart) lyrics & translation

Nell 멀어지다 (Drifting Apart) Separation Anxiety (080320)

Lyrics 어떻게 하죠? 우리는 서로 아파하네요 멀어지네요 어떻게 하죠? 우리는 점점 더 슬퍼하네요 멀어지네요 어쩌면 우린 사랑이 아닌 집착이었을까요? 어쩌면 우린 사랑이 아닌 욕심이었나 봐요 어떻게 하죠? 우리는 서로 침묵하네요 멀어지네요 어쩌면 우린 사랑이 아닌 집착이었을까요? 어쩌면 우린 사랑이 아닌 욕심이었나 봐요 어쩌면 우린 운명이 아닌 우연이었을까요? 아마도 우린 영원이 아닌 여기까진가 봐요 Translation What do we do? We are both in pain We're drifting apart What do we do? We are slowly growing more sad We're drifting apart Perhaps it wasn't love for us, but obsession? It seems maybe it wasn't love, but greed What do we do? We are both falling silent We're drifting apart Perhaps it wasn't love for us, but obsession? It seems maybe it wasn't love, but greed Perhaps we weren’t destined, but a coincidence? It seems we won't last forever, but only until here

Feel free to use, but please credit Nellpire.

[basically-queenberyl]

You know your people don’t really fuck with you like they say they do when they haven’t seen you in person in months and whenever you text them, you feel like you’re shouting into the void.

[pumpkin-the-girlie-girl-vixen]

The Weight of Self-Awareness: Reflection on Friendship and Personal Growth

As I sit down to write this blog post, I'm met with a mix of emotions - sadness, frustration, and a hint of hope. The image I've attached to this post has been on my mind for days, and I feel compelled to share my thoughts on the topic. It's a quote that speaks to the challenges of dealing with people who lack self-awareness, and it's a theme that has been present in my life for far too long.

I've been fortunate enough to have a close friend who has been a constant presence in my life for many years. We've shared countless memories, laughed together, and supported each other through thick and thin. However, as time has gone on, I've come to realize that our friendship has been one-sided. My friend has always been the center of attention, and I've often found myself playing the role of the listener, the confidant, and the problem-solver.

At first, I didn't mind this dynamic. I was happy to be there for my friend, to offer a shoulder to cry on, and to provide advice when needed. But as the years went by, I began to feel like I was shouldering the entire burden of our friendship. My friend would call me at all hours of the day and night, expecting me to drop everything to listen to their problems. They would dominate conversations, barely letting me get a word in edgewise. And when I tried to share my own struggles and concerns, they would dismiss them or change the subject.

It wasn't until I read the quote attached to this post that I realized the true extent of the problem. "It is extremely difficult to deal with people with no self-awareness," it says. "They do things to other people, and never stop to think how their actions are affecting the people around them." This was my friend to a tee. They would do things that hurt me, that frustrated me, that made me feel like I was nothing more than an afterthought. And when I tried to talk to them about it, they would become defensive, dismissive, or even angry.

I've tried to address these issues with my friend, to explain how their behavior was affecting me. But they never seemed to understand, or even care. They would apologize, but the behavior would continue. And I would be left feeling frustrated, hurt, and alone.

As I reflect on this friendship, I'm reminded of the importance of self-awareness. It's the ability to recognize how our actions affect others, to consider the impact we have on those around us. Without it, we can cause harm, often unintentionally, but harm nonetheless. And when we're on the receiving end of that harm, it can be devastating.

I've come to realize that I deserve better. I deserve to be in a friendship where I'm valued, respected, and heard. I deserve to have a friend who is self-aware, who considers my feelings and needs. And I deserve to be in a relationship where I'm not shouldering the entire burden.

As I move forward, I'm committed to prioritizing my own needs and well-being. I'm committed to surrounding myself with people who are self-aware, who care about the impact they have on others. And I'm committed to being a better friend to myself, to recognizing my own worth and value.

To my friend, I want to say this: I hope you find self-awareness. I hope you learn to consider the impact you have on those around you. And I hope you find it in your heart to be a better friend, not just to me, but to everyone in your life.

To anyone who has been in a similar situation, I see you. I hear you. And I want you to know that you deserve better. You deserve to be in relationships where you're valued, respected, and heard. Don't settle for anything less.

As I close this blog post, I'm left with a sense of a bit of sadness, but also hope. I hope that my friend will find self-awareness one day for others in their life. I have hope knowing that I'll find new relationships that are built on mutual respect and understanding. And I hope that you, dear reader, will find the strength to prioritize your own needs and well-being.

Remember, you deserve better!

[thecrystaldreamcatcher-blog]

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