adhd-flavoredmonster

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

why did nobody tell me wearing a funky button-down with jeans was the definition of gender euphoria

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

i have a lot of nerve wanting to be loved while simultaneously closing myself off from everyone because the idea of rejection is absolutely terrifying to me

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

the irony of someone with their pronouns in their bio being transphobic towards me

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

story time !!

when i was younger, my siblings did this thing where they would wear baggy clothes and put their hair into beanies because they wanted to look like a boy.

i never did it because i didn't want to look like a boy, but then proceed to look at them with an unhealthy amount of bitter jealousy. don't ask why i did it. third grader logic never makes any sense.

and when i finally caved in and did it, albeit very reluctantly, holy shit did i feel powerful. i felt like i could take on the world and i never wanted to take that outfit off. it only lasted for an hour at most, but it was the best goddamn hour of my life.

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

did any other trans people not really have dysphoria until after they figured out they could possibly be trans?

i used to be neutral towards being a girl, but realized i would be happier if i were a guy. and now my dysphoria is so bad i want to tear my skin off 👍😃

why??? why does this happen???

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

Anime Guys That Give Me ✨ Gender Envy ✨

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

i just want a relationship like a cheesy teen romance from the early 2000s

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

trans mlm culture is not being able to tell the difference between attraction and gender envy

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

i hate when people comment shit like 'oh, neurotypical people do that too' on posts about people talking about their experiences with adhd or autism.

no. shut the fuck up. this isn't for you, jessica.

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

i love the IT fanfictions where the authors just pick and choose character traits from the book and the 2017.

like, keeping all of richie's nicknames for eddie. or including stan's bird-watching hobby. i just think it's neat.

also i don't know if this was a thing in the miniseries or book, but something i've seen a lot is henry bowers calling eddie 'wheezy' or 'girly boy'. is that just a fanfictions thing?? i'm curious.

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

the fact that i thought i was a cis lesbian before is so fucking hilarious to me.

like, i was so sure of it too,,, i pretty much only followed wlw blogs and instagram pages, made posts about it, my fucking quotev username was literally 'sapphicprincess'.

and then i started questioning my gender identity. and now that i've pretty much figured it out, boys look,,, so cute. my heart literally races when i read cute mlm posts or think about having a boyfriend. i was so convinced that i hated the idea of dating guys.

please tell me this isn't just a me thing-

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

see, i don't really mind being called soft and cute and all that stuff. it actually sorta makes me happy, especially when people put boy after it (like, pretty boy or something like that)

but when people call me that because i'm trans... yeah, that makes me uncomfortable. does that make sense?? idk, i feel like it doesn't make sense

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

do any other trans guys / trans masculine enbies have stereotypy feminine interests or likes and often feel invalid or like they're faking it? if so, tell me what they are!

here, i'll start!

i like magical girl and idol anime, my favorite color is pastel pink, and i really enjoy baking! your turn <3

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

not comfortable with showing my face, so here's a picrew i made

Hey

I have art block. If you send me a selfie I'll draw your fursona free of charge :)

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

was anyone else super hostile to the people who were mean to them in school? like, not even in a passive aggressive way, but straight-up saying extremely horrible things to their faces?

i'm not saying this is justified (it might be in some cases, but the things i said were definitely not), but most of the people i've seen either ignored them or tried to be nice. i wanna see who else dealt with bullies by bullying them back.

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

i genuinely don't understand why people would refuse to use someone's pronouns if they use neopronouns.

i guess i can kinda understand why a cis person might be confused and not understand them. but trans people know how awful it is to be misgendered and told that they're not valid. why the hell would you do that to someone else?

anyway, if you misgender someone who uses neopronouns because you think they're stupid, they have every right to misgender you back <3

[adhd-flavoredmonster]

logically, i know i should focus on myself and wait until i'm more comfortable with who i am as a person before attempting to get in a relationship.

BUT

i've been reading so many cute mlm/nblm posts and it's making me ✨ yearn ✨