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Too many ppl think i have bpd for my liking. I have nothing against the disorder, I have everything against the stigma and the fact that it'll be something I'll be working on forever isn't something I wanna do so it's just not for me thank you.

On a real note. How do you know

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Bro I'm so thirsty on adhd meds which is cool, just drink more. But I wasn't even getting the daily amount of liquid you're supposed to drink in a day BEFORE adhd meds

So, idk adhd meds are gonna force you develop healthy watering habits if you don't wanna feel even more dehydrated than you usually do

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So having adhd is like, if i look away from this thought, its not gonna be there when I look back.

Being medicated is like, omg the thought is still there? What the hell?

And its a lil bit quieter. Not loads, but I'm only on the starting dose before I go to 30mg

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Update: could take another month to see the clinician to start medication.

I got diagnosed nearly 4 months ago

Anyway my heart is fine and so I'll probably start adhd meds in a few days.

Turns out I'm just being dramatic

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Well, I had to wait like 3 months to start adhd meds and lemme tell you, that caused 4 mental breakdowns (3 of them on different topics, one of the same topic) one after the other. Almost comical

Waiting mode is the most uncomfortable thing ever. I can't do anything, I can't relax, I can't play video games or anything until the thing I'm waiting for actually happens

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Anyway my heart is fine and so I'll probably start adhd meds in a few days.

Turns out I'm just being dramatic

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Being trans, and neurodivergent, and having vaginismus basically means no one is gonna wanna date you. First they have to be trans too, second they gotta get over the vaginismus and they never do. Bc sooner or later they'll realise how severe it is (I'm better than some ppl), how much it impacts my mental health self esteem, and they won't have a fulfilling love and sex life with me. 🫶

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Between me and you, I'm kinda hoping adhd medication does stifle my appetite so between that and T and antidepressants (both of which make me really hungry) ill have a normal appetite and lose some weight

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The update isn't much better, the adhd team said they probs won't prescribe stimulants but nonstimulants. I did not go through all of this trouble for fuck all

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Im having a breakdown over this.

My heart wall is showing signs of thickening and I'm crying bc what if I don't get medication?

Everyone's tryna say my health is important and its a good thing I was honest about my family's history with holes in hearts so they don't give me something that will kill me. Except, idc if it will. I've already decided that this year has to be the year where things have actually change in my favour and if it doesn't, I give up.

Im just fucking scared that having heart issues means I will continue to suffer and struggle with my adhd and not get anywhere in life bc of it. Everything is riding on this and idk wtf im to do if i don't get it bc "I might die" I'm gonna die anyway without it so I'd rather take my odds with the meds.

Just tell me it's shit, "not giving you things that can kill you" and "looking into your heart is a good thing" are not exactly what I'd consider positives. They're just another fucking obstacle.

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"I worry about what I say in case you broadcast to your twitter followers."

3 things.

1) you're worried about my 115 followers, when you have 25k?

2) don't say shit that I'm probably gonna broadcast

3) it's not twitter you have to worry about, its showing my friends our entire conversation thread. They still think you're the AH

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Really wish my body was different so I could have sex and I really wish I didn't have a fear of intimacy either so I could actually have some form of sex but I can't. Bro I just wanna cry I really hate that I just cant have sex and be normal like everyone else

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I've been officially diagnosed with adhd!

Which means....

I WAS RIGHT FUCKING SUCK IT

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I FINALLY HAVE AN ADHD DIAGNOSTIC APPOINTMENT AND ITS THIS MONTH!

And bestie lemme tell you, it's taken literal years. I referred myself to the clinic in April 2022, got the first phone call appointment December 2022. Then had the QB test in February 2023 (my clinic use it when they don't have testimonies from others about childhood). And finally, January 2025, I'm having the screening!

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I hate cleaning my bedroom but I've found if I set myself a timer to get it done within an hour, I actually get it tidy without it taking all day. Everytime I sit down to look at my phone, normally that's adhd doom for me but seeing the timer notification keeps me on track

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Autistic ppl (me) making lists: idk what it is about lists but I swear there's crack in it

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NT people thinking ADHD is a super power clearly haven't had a meltdown because they couldn't learn something fast enough and kept messing up.

Will never forget the breakdowns I had over my keyboard. I broke the keys once because of how upset I was with myself