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Hey boss, just saw an edit of a blorbo i was obsessed with five years ago and haven't thought about in a while. yeah its serious. I think I'm gonna need the rest of the day off.

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Maladaptive daydreaming is soooo embarrassing. what do you mean I spend my entire day wanting to lay down so that I can make up fake scenarios about my blorbo. what do you mean i zone out constantly because im thinking about blorbo. "what are you thinking about-?" its blorbo again. its stupid blorbo.

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Last night I had a dream that I went to the grocery store to buy cabbage and tofu (one can only imagine I was planning on making spring rolls) and while I was in line there was a guy behind me who looked like Elon Musk so I turned to my friend and said "elon musk looks like he reeks of rat poison and compost" and then they guy behind me tapped my shoulder and handed me ID and was like "I *am* Elon Musk" and naturally I leaned in and sniffed him and said "omg im so so sorry you dont smell like rat poison and compost at all! you smell like fresh vomit." and then his head got super big and red and he started wailing and screaming on the ground like a toddler. so. anyway. idk i think that was a pretty good dream. 

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It will change it will change and it will keep on changing

It will change without you knowing. You will find yourself thinking that everything is the same that every day is just like the last and then you will look back and notice that the path you took every day over the yard has grown brown beneath your feet. You will look back and you will wonder, when did this change? How much time has passed? You will look back and you will wonder if there is a way to make it go back. You grab a packet of seeds and throw it over the brown spots. You water the seeds every day, willing the brown to turn green. But by the time you see spurts of green you will notice your feet have once again left a path of brown patches along the grass. You will look down and you will wonder how much time has passed. You will look down and realize there is no going back.

It will change it will change and it will keep on changing. And there is no going back.

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It will change it will change and it will keep on changing

It will change without you knowing. You will find yourself thinking that everything is the same that every day is just like the last and then you will look back and notice that the path you took every day over the yard has grown brown beneath your feet. You will look back and you will wonder, when did this change? How much time has passed? You will look back and you will wonder if there is a way to make it go back. You grab a packet of seeds and throw it over the brown spots. You water the seeds every day, willing the brown to turn green. But by the time you see spurts of green you will notice your feet have once again left a path of brown patches along the grass. You will look down and you will wonder how much time has passed. You will look down and realize there is no going back.

It will change it will change and it will keep on changing. And there is no going back.

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I have started journaling again

I find I have much to ramble on about. I am undecided as to whether this calms my brain or makes it overactive. All I know is that when I write I feel like myself again.