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having girl friends is such a weird experience bc they tell me shit like ‘omg ilysm i wanna eat you and lick you wow ily’ and i can never tell if its platonic or if theyre actually in love w me

girl do you wanna eat me frfr or were you just trolling when you told me that you wanted to in explicit detail pls lmk b4 i tweak out💔💔

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seventeen year old virgin but in a cunty girlie cutie way and not in a loser incel way🎀

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remembering when i used to make my ex angry on purpose cus fighting lowkey turns me on

i’m just a girl💔

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i’m gonna get married and live happily ever after in the clouds with rainbows and ponies and sunshine and unicorns and my ipad :3

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If we’re ever hanging out and I laugh and accidentally let out a fart, I’m killing you btw because there can’t be anyone who becomes a witnesses to something like that.

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my appetite is getting smaller and smaller, am i relapsing or is my body just trying to get me snatched ????? lmk pls cus im struggling thx

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that exam just touched me inappropriately

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getting 0 likes on a textpost means i had a thought so original no one could relate

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how insane i start acting 3 days into a crush

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fuck talking stages we need to be living together after the first date and engaged by the third

#imovefast

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scar tissue that i wish you saw.

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hyperventilating bc i had the audacity to actually try to think about my future

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i’m tired of my dad consider me fatherless until further notice

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being an ambiguous person is actually so frustrating

like i can never ever ever have a definitive opinion on something, i always always see both sides of things and understand both sides

i could hate someone’s guts and still feel bad for them even if they’re a horrible person

i didn’t have a favorite color of my own choosing until i was 14

if someone asks me smth about myself —an either or question— i will literally never pick one side. i will always say ‘well im a bit of both’ or ‘it really depends’

i hate being like this i literally just want to know myself and i can’t, even the most basic things

i experience so much dysmorphia also, like mentally and physically. i have no idea what i actually look like because every time i look in the mirror i genuinely see a different face, and every time i think to myself it’s like im thinking as a different person

even things like hobbies hardly ever stick because i fixate on them for some time and then i abandon them

but also i’m lowk obsessed with myself to like a narcissistic degree and i love everything about me and i love being myself—whatever view i have on myself that day—.

i’m so confused i fear💔

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grown man unable to think with anything other than his penis..🫵🏽😟

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the day i lose all the baby fat in my face is the day i begin living

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16 days until i’m 17

i’m mourning my teenage-hood😕