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I think I'll start posting my poetries again

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Pills

I've always been asked why I do not take the essential vitamins for my betterment, and I never answered

Partially because I don't want to and I don't care

Partially because they don't make me feel nauseous or make me feel like my life is dared

But in reality it's because I don't know how to answer that part of me still couldn't let go of the pain, part of me doesn't want to be better, I crave my illness like it's the only thing that's keeping me alive

I cling to suffering more than I cling to life

On the contrary, I am eager to drink the medicine needed for temporary illnesses

Not because it will help me recover, no, my body is already doing that

But because it serves a better purpose, it gives me excusesPills

I've always been asked why I do not take the essential vitamins for my betterment and I never answered

Partially because I don't want to and I don't care

Partially because they don't make me feel nauseous or make me feel like my life is dared

But in reality it's because I don't know how to answer that part of me still couldn't let go of the pain, part of me doesn't want to be better, I crave my illness like it's the only thing that's keeping me alive

I cling to suffering more than I cling to life

On the contrary, I am eager to drink the medicine needed for temporary illnesses

Not because it will help me recover, no, my body is already doing that

But because it serves a better purpose, it gives me excuses

To take as many as I can to feel like air is something worth fighting for

Because only when in the verge of losing air will I ever fight to get some

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Kept telling myself this is just an episode

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I'm in love

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It has been so long since my last post, I have been trying so hard to find a container of this melting self of mine

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My maladaptive daydreaming is getting worse again....I see him everywhere

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Don't ever feel guilty for feeling like you're faking your laughter just because you don't feel happy while doing it.

I have been feeling nothing for years, no tears to drop, no emotions felt, this is for those who are experiencing the same. Feeling like a hallowed out corpse.

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For those who feel nothing anymore, I feel you (kinda ironic ain't it)

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Having a hard time grasping the concept of time lately.

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I've been seeing this symbolism on tiktok, but I just wanna say, cannibalism is not gentle. You can't compare eating a pomegranate gently to cannibalism because cannibalism is never gentle. It's full of extreme love

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