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So I'm writing another installment of the Frank has Tourettes 'verse and I legit caught a tic I was describing for him.

So I guess now I yip

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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: The Pitt (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Frank Langdon, Trinity Santos, Dennis Whitaker Additional Tags: Disabled Character, Disabled Frank Langdon, Angst, Implied/Referenced Drug Addiction, Emotional Hurt/Comfort Series: Part 2 of Uncontrolled Summary:

Frank knew he should have insisted on taking the day off, except here he was, about to smash his face into the hallway floor.

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I wrote a second installment to my Pitt fic! I got stuck halfway through, though, so it's shorter than I intended.

Frank Langdon whump, y'all

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Look at me, actually posting writing for the first time in 3 years!

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I wrote a thing for The Pitt, because I have been obsessed with it. As in, it's been my reason for living. (Don't ask me how much time I spent laying on the floor in silence after I realised the season was finished.)

Anyways, I gotta type it up from my notebook and yes, it is a Frank story.

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I have a bajillion more sensory toys now, but more curated. I still have a lot of these older ones too, but I am more specific in what I get nowadays.

Throwback to me living in alone for the first time and trying to figure out how to manage life. I still don't know how I did it, but I mostly figured out how to keep myself alive, well, and actually functioning? I've even purchased a house at this point?!

I did it again, sorted my stim toys by colour because boy howdy, do I love sorting!

Featuring my new! floor! because I am living on my own now???

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This is exactly what it is like for me.

Working at home has been good for me. I no longer have to mask. If I feel like crying I can. If I get angry I can yell. I can listen to my music as loud as I want. I can basically do what I want to do the way I want to do it. No one is looking over my shoulder. As long as I get to work done it's fine.

Working at home has been bad for me. It's isolating. I have no coworkers that I see face-to-face. We message and Zoom occasionally, but everything we do is on our own, by ourselves. There's no camaraderie. There's no companionship. Sometimes I start to realize just how alone I am.

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That was 2.5 years ago, and I did try driving for a while, but it just didn't seem safe for me

Probably cause of the eye closing tics, lol

Ya girl got her driver's license!

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Me trying to redirect my tics at the hairdressers.

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So I recently found out that I'm actually AuDHD, which was a surprisingly revelation to me.

And then the doctor explained all the reasons for diagnosing me with ADHD and I was like... Ah. Right. That makes sense.

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Doing Trek for Tourettes again this year!

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I once wrote this AoS fanfic where Fitz has what I call a bad night of anxiety, and I based it on my own experiences.

What I didn't realise at the time was that I am autistic and I was basically describing a meltdown. ✌️

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Meeeee

Guy who goes like I WANNA ROCK!!!!!! and then quietly rocks back and forth in his chair

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I may now have a job as a professor, but that hasn't stopped me from bringing along a squishmallow for support wherever I go.

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Tics and stims have always and will always be clinically separate things.

Stimming, while it may feel involuntary, are stereotyped and often rythmic movements which are used to self-soothe or express emotions. These include, hand flapping, tapping of objects, rubbing feet together, rocking, bouncing, humming, etc.,.

Tics on the other hand, are involuntary movements, sometimes preceeded by uncomfortable bodily sensations. They tend to be variable and changing in nature, and can happen regardless of environment and emotional state (although it is more common to tic while anxious, tired, or stressed). These include symtoms that are grunting, random vocalizations, excessive blinking, facial grimacing, extremity movements, etc.,.

While Autism is comorbid with Tourettes sydrome, it does NOT cause tics. And stim sare not tics.

I hope this makes things clearer.

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I had this psych thing today, and the interviewer told me my autism must be 'mild'.

Aside from the issues associated with it, I really wanted to say "No, my autism is spicy".

But I didn't, lol.