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I’ve been struggling. Like, a lot. I’m struggling with my mental health more than I ever have before. I guess that’s what I get for never learning any healthy coping skills and spending my entire youth being a drug addict.

Out of everything that’s frustrating me though, my writing struggles are the worst. I spend a lot of time now trying to figure out how to become the best writer I can. I know I missed out on a lot in school due to all of my issues, so I sort of have to teach myself everything I missed…on top of everything else. It’s definitely overwhelming and I feel it every single day, and some days, the burden is heavier than others.

Today, I didn’t wake up feeling so great. I felt foggy and was riddled with anxiety from the minute I opened my eyes. But today’s one of the days that I get to go stay with my boyfriend at his parents’ house and I have a routine that I like to follow to keep myself on track with all of my chores and self care.

As much as I really wanted to, I didn’t allow myself to sulk and drown in senseless social media posts and videos and I’m pretty proud of myself. I got so much done before noon and that’s huge for me! If you suffer from any mental illness, you know how normal, everyday tasks can feel like the hardest thing you’ll ever have to do in your life. So, the fact that I got all of my cleaning and self care done plus more makes me happy.

Now, I’m at my boyfriend’s house, waiting for him to come home from work. I decided that it’s probably a good idea to start posting short stories on my pages to get my work out there more. Has that method worked for you if you’re a new writer?

I’ll definitely be taking advantage of the rare, genuinely upbeat mood I’m in to crank something out and I’m excited to share it with all of you!

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me and the bf find a trail every Thursday to explore and we found this insanely cool cave! I wanna go spend a night in there and try to write something… does that make me crazy? Lmao

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Hi everyone! I’ve decided that I’m FINALLY going to document my novel writing experience as a beginner who has only ever written and shared fanfiction. I’ve been writing stories and reading books for as long as I can remember, but finally made the decision to write my first novel a year and a half ago. It’s been a long ride, I never realized how much goes into the process of writing a book, especially for the very first time.

To say I know what I’m doing and am totally confident in my skill would be a huge lie. The only education I have as a twenty two year old is a GED that I acquired without any classes, just a really amazing math tutor and a serious urge to end the ‘high school’ chapter of my life.

Due to my mental health and substance abuse issues, I never planned for college or anything past being eighteen years old. I also didn’t get what I should have out of the education I was there for because of the same reasons. That in itself has felt like a lifetime and it hurt my writing, bad.

I was convinced that I could never write anything that wasn’t fanfiction written just for pure entertainment and that you had to be born with the gift of being skilled at writing to ever be successful. As a teenager/young adult, I never imagined living past the age of eighteen and I definitely didn’t think I would be writing my first novel with plans to publish it.

My writing is nowhere near perfect, and to me, it’s not even close to where it needs to be. I’m especially hard on myself with my writing now that I’m taking it so seriously. I haven’t shared my work in years and I told myself that I have to get the fuck over that if I want my dream to come true. It’s the dream that I’ve wanted to come true since I was nine years old. I knew back then that I wanted to write books, I talked about it all the time. I was even complimented on the work I did share as a teen, but I never genuinely believed in myself.

Now I realize that for me, believing in myself is vital, I can’t only write “when I want to”, I can’t make excuses. I’m learning that I have stories I want to tell in a way that’s unique to me and that’s important.

I don’t need to be hugely famous and known by everyone in the world, but I believe writing is what I was meant to do. No matter what other endeavors I attempt to pursue, I always come right back to writing.

With all of that being said, I’ll be documenting my process every day to hold myself accountable but also to connect with other writers and learn from each other, receive advice/constructive criticism, and the most important reason, why the hell not?

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excited to share the first two paragraphs of my newest short story👻 I’ve been in a spooky scary mood and I can’t wait to share the finished product!!

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reminder for me and all my fellow writers❤️ we got this!!🫶

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Happy New Year!! One of my biggest goals this year is to write my first novel and I’ll also be taking part in NANOWRIMO this year and I’m extremely excited!! I want to document the process and share my journey of getting my book written and out there, to hold myself accountable, for fun, and to learn as much as I can from other writers.

If you’re also a new writer, I’d love to be friends!! Shoot me a message anytime! In mean the time, I’ll do an update every day and let you guys know how I’m doing. If you’re interested, give me a follow!!

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hi! I’m Ashley, an aspiring novel writer🥰 I finally decided to make a separate account for my work and I’m so excited to start sharing my stories again<3