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Sorry for the late pride month post here's some more berryfunny 🔥🔥🔥(it's like a drug to me help)

Oh yeah I updated my Sprout design

He has seeds on his face now cause I wrote it in my fanfic and now I have to draw it

First image based off of wedding dress Sprout, I would add the image but Tumblr wont let me drag images next to each other anymore so um

I was gonna draw more but then I'll get burnt out + I dont wanna draw Sprout's stupid scarf pattern anymroe

I forgot some things in the doodles but I dont care I dont careee I'm going to bed

*drops my berryfunny fanfic and runs*

https://archiveofourown.org/works/66350656/chapters/171084811

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I need to work on my artfight refs but I also want to draw razzledazzle ughh idk what to do

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and then i post my 90 billion dandys wolrlds

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it’s honestly crazy how many ppl u meet in your early twenties who have never been in love or been in a relationship or had sex and then you’re like oh it’s actually normal and social milestones actually mean nothing bc everyone is different and has different experiences. cool!

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how do you do, fellow Creatives™

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i made many mistakes to others and myself and i've been a really self-destructive person to the people around me. and i acknowledge that, so i just decided to take a really long break from the internet. a lot of factors such as my grandparents dying, studies, internet drama and me coming out about unsavoury stuff about myself caused me to leave for a while to make sure i'd be a better person. i've made the work to improve myself so that involved a really uncomfortable process.

depression has been really terrible for someone like myself as i feel bad about myself for not meeting myself or other peoples' standards, and i've tangled my self-worth with appeasing people. it takes a long time to realise that, and i've gone through a lot of meltdowns because i felt i never met other peoples' expectations. i've originally thought my art-block was just an art-block before realising it was me not having the motivation to do anything at all, so i've mostly done things in moderation to avoid feeling the burnout. i contemplated dying because i was scared of dying alone, but i have people around me to help myself overtime.

i like fame but it brings a lot of negativity to someone and i do feel the pressure as an artist to draw as much things as possible to grind, and i've been off dA and weening off most social media for a few months because i realised i needed to put the work. i've apologised to some people about my actions and i've made it that they have reaffirmed their support to me, and my work towards improving as a person has been consistent since april. i'm still obsessed with fame as i felt that i still punish myself for the mistakes i have done, but i've been learning how to feel better about myself and appreciating the connections i have been through, especially with my family and friends as it has brought a close connection to them throughout.

this is pretty much one half of my planned hiatus but my planned full return will be on 21 september. i planned to return on 6/9 but i've decided i need to put more work on myself to fully return to the platform, and i'll upload unreleased art into my account. i promise i'll not start on any drama and to continue focusing on the artwork i do, my studies, and my friendships. i'm 21, so i'm putting myself on the standard on how i should be as a person. consider this a pause on the hiatus just for me to upload this to update my progress, but i'll be mostly absent until september. anyways, adios for a while.

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he’s ok he’s just crawling around

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snoopy of the day

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fave cartoon dog (snoopy - my ultimate pookie of all time lmao)

i also bothered to draw woodstock and charlie brown lol

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🟦 noob !! 🍔

i'm new to forsaken twt lol i'll upload more art there

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if i somehow disappeared from everyone's sight one random day would anyone care about that or would they just move on with their lives /neg

would like to see replies to this tbh

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more lore more lore

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tung tung tung tung sahur. anomali mengerikan yang hanya keluar pada sahur. konon katanya kalau ada orang yang dipanggil sahur tiga kali dan tidak nyaut maka makhluk ini datang di rumah kalian. hi seremnya. tung tung ini biasanya bersuara layaknya pukulan kentungan seperti ini. share ke teman kalian yang susah sahur.

drew the man, the myth himself tung tung tung tung sahur, aku sangat lelah hari ini-

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🟧 THE CARAMEL FRUITCAKE :) 🟧

felt like drawing sprout and cosmo so i ended up drawing their caramel skins tbh, fun time drawing em ngl

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i watched sacri's 5sos:bs so i kinda wanted to draw something based off it where shrimpo pisses off sprout lmao (after shrimpo said he hated cosmo's cooking to him lmao)

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// cw: gore of my comfort character, blood

um i drew fxnn since i like the creepypasta in general 🐟

meanwhile finn's my pookie so yes i may or may not draw more finn/fxnn ig :)

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first post on tumblr, and its two homosexuals... dot dot dot lets go shrimpbowl community !!!!!