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OKAY SO LIKE I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!!

YES, AND I SOUND LIKE  SUPER EXCITED TEENAGER OR CHILD BUT OMG, FINALLY I AM SO HAPPY!!! we have been together for a long long long time, on and off for over 5 years. but it is offical and I want to cry I am so happy. I dont need to share all the details but I dated one person in high school for 3 weeks and then never again had anyone ask me or call me their girlfriend. Its been a big thing that hurt me, I never thought I was good enough, always wondering what was wrong with me, felt like I temporary, easily thrown out, just second to everyone and anyone. And I don't think my BOYFRIEND understood that before plus we had many obstacles but like I AM IN SHOCK. I’ve wanted this since the day we meet, I fell in love the day I saw his picture online, we’ve fought about it, I’ve pretty much begged, wrote long as text, sent the same one 10x in the last few weeks, and still didn't think it would happen. This is a full on surprise and like I cant believe this is real! Like this is huge and I’m so, so, so happy. I’ll be embarrassed if he reads this but just like. WOW!! And he told me he loved me for the first time ever and Its just really happy time. I know things will get better and I HOPE AND WISH that nothing bad happens in any other aspect of my life. I don’t want it to be like finally made a step to be happy and content and productive and then something else happen. BUT I AM SO HAPPY AND PROUD AND EXCITED TO MOVE FORWARD AND BE OPEN AND JUST YES!! thats all I needed to get it out, even just on tumblr where no one sees me!!

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Well Hello there! Sorry I've been MIA here on the LiLBaT Blog, I can't believe its been a month!! I've made notes and a few videos, started writing a few times but well no excuse... SO here are a few videos I made on Depression! I think its really important to discuss and share what I am going though and my experiences with Depression/Anxiety/Etc that way I can help myself and others. It's to be relatable but also getting it out of my head and into the world makes things feel better. Its not stuck in my mind of repeat (anxiety) if I share. This can be for anyone who has depression, anyone who wants to learn about depression (if you have it or not), especially for people who want to get to know me, and just anyone who is interested... So Here are the videos.. Please, Please, Please leave comments and feedback! Don't forget to follow on facebook and YouTube!! ... There really isn't a 101... I'm not a mental health professional. I'm sharing my experiences, thoughts and ideas. ... Making these videos and watching and watching and then choosing what to turn into text, is already helping me. I rant and sometimes it can be hard for my points to be recognized because I jump around. I think it's important to see how I jump around. For both of these videos, I kept it linear with how my thoughts flowed and didn't rearrange into sections. I think thats the best way to do this. Shows exactly how my mind works. ... Here are the main points of the videos!! again please comment and ask questions. I'm hoping to make at least one video a week for now, mostly talking. Not all about depression but it will be a recurring theme. ​...

so far this has been extremely helpful!! I've been able to speak and communicate better with those I need to. Not even sure if they have watched but because I made the videos and found the big points out its easier to mention to the people in my life who do not understand or typically think I'm just being a bit extra. And I am working on seeing things from other peoples sides and views just like I want them to do for me. BUT this week has been amazing and things are only going to get better. ONE or TEN really huge things happened this week and I am so happy and excited that its going to make things different and give me a big thing to not constantly be anxious, depressed, worried, mad, upset or whatever over!!! SO YESSSS!! even if you don't want to share videos of you ranting just make them for yourself. It really helps! You don't even have to re-watch them, I suggest you do so you can make relations but just getting it out of your mind is a HUGE STEP!

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Jinnkies, SCOOBYNATURAL!!! - for this blog you definitely want to go to my actual webpage blog. There are lots of pictures and I put alot of time into formatting it!

http://www.justtrishsmith.com/lilbatblog/march-31st-2018

The intro is about me and my love for Scooby, Superntural, Buffy, and just so you get to know me better then the bottom is spoiler filled, and is my commentary on the Scoobynatural episode!!! leave comments!!

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Guys!!!!! This is seriously the best thing ever created!! We'll maybe that's an exaggeration but I mean its pretty accurate. Its kinda rare I get excited about anything, and typically when I do I some how get let down because my exceptions are too high. BUT 100% just WOWing at Scoobynatural!!         Supernatrual is longstanding my favorite TV show (yes, I like it more then BUFFY.) Well I do now, I was overly obsessed with Buffy in High School. It is kind of embarrassing but also not really, I stand by my obsession! I made a lot of my friends because of it in college I even called our friend group the Scooby-Gang; as from Buffy... As a kid who didn't love Scooby-Doo, but I mean obviously I did. Been spooky since  I was born pretty much haha! My room still has some of my my Scooby items. I typically; blankets, posters, even one of those plastic three drawer things with wheels- its pretty fancy too and the creepy eyes glow in the dark). And how awesome did I think it was it that Sarah Michelle Gellar (BUFFY) played Daphne in Scooby-Doo live action?! I would get so excited for all the actors in Buffy to be in anything else but for it to combine some of my favorite things,  HELL YEAH! ((Matthew Lillard as shaggy was great, love that dude. SLC PUNK & SLC PUNK 2 are some more of my favorite things. If you havent watched SLC PUNK 2, go do so. Its pretty funny, probably my most watched movie on Netflix. I am Trish (from the movie), she is the future me. A kick ass punk/goth woman, with pink hair a floppy hat, and owns a oddity shop!!)) ... Because of my excitement and anticipation for months waiting the episode I wanted to share it with someone, even if they didn't love Supernatural too. A big thing on my mind lately is sharing experiences and excitement in things (hobbies, shows, etc) with someone you love. EVEN IF its not something you or they necessarily like. BUT for the reason of watching the one you love be excited and see how happy they are when they share with you. (This is actually one of my blog topics, because it keeps coming up or being on my mind, when I want to share but people are so accepting. I do my best especially for those I love to try to like or at least enjoy that they like something) but again I'll write that later. ( THIS IS JUST HOW MY BRAIN WORKS AND IT JUMPS ALL OVER BEFORE I EVEN GET TO MY SUBJECT) Because I was home I got to watch it with my MOM! Which was probably the best choice because she loves Scooby-Doo too, shes the one who let me watch it and like it. But also because she doesn't judge me on my love for Supernatural and weird things. Even though she may not understand it sometimes or like it she never judges me and just things I'm silly. Sometimes shes in the room when I watch Superntural or any of my shows and I kinda fill her in and then get to laugh out loud because someone else is in the room. I actully dont watch my shows around many people. I am a talker in movies BUT don't talk during my show, unless its little comments. I mean thats all I do in movies too, at least the first time watching is just my commentary (which sometimes is pretty funny or insightful and I should record it). But yeah I don't share my show time with many people and there are few I want to share it with. Because that is my nerdiest self when watching my shows for the first time!!! So, yeah, watching with Mom was a good idea, and I'm super happy I got to be home for the day and that she let me watch it and stayed up till like 1 am watching it with me). ... oh I suppose I should add in for those of you who don't know me well. I went to school for animation, film, and design. So some animations are super exciting and impressive to me, others stress me out, and then some I'm like WTF are you doing I know people who could do this way better. I also don't do anything with animation. Sadly, I hate drawing and don't like my hand drawn artwork. Its stressful and I don't have the patients for it. Although in college I took the classes because I wanted to learn visual effects not so much the animation. BUT I was the first to graduate from Point Park's animation program. At the time the program was brand new and mostly animation not visual effects. If I could go back part time and take a few classes, I would really love that.. maybe some day but 6 years of college already cost enough. I really want to take the class where they make music videos too but also I just wish to do visual effects and music videos. Which most everyone knows and I just need to get a gig and do it and learn from those around me I already have the foundations and many skills.. the point is some of the things I thought were the funniest were just because of animation jokes and such!! ... This isn't a review and definitely has spoilers. Its just what some of my thoughts and commentary was. To review or write out everything I'd have to watch again and write down my thoughts because I don't always remember them all. When I'm enjoying something and in the moment, not focused on anything else, I don't remember every detail just how much I liked it or disliked it and just my feelings mostly..        I just have to say the writers and creators of Supernatural and genius and always come up with such awesome ideas. I love the show because of the variety of monsters and not just the same basic thing over and over. Also they stick so close to legions and lore (from the knowledge of I have of these things). I'm so picky on supernatural shows of movies because I like tradition so I like the creativity combined to tradition. ... not writing in paragraphs just ideas as they came ... "MOM, dean just gets attached to objects okay" ...                  How they ended up in Scooby world was a mystery to me until watching. I knew the episode was coming and wondered how they would end up there   but did'nt even really make any guesses. Sooooo (again spoilers here) they get sucked in with a beautiful purple electric portal type thing! I was like well I should have seen them getting sucked into the TV thing coming but I didn't, so surprised right off. Really my only thought was a cursed lunch box or a spell?.. Also purple electric is awesome, as I obviously always choose purple or green for anything I'm doing! ... the cartoon, exaggerated face slap!     Pretty much my excitement matches Deans but even more so because I get to see his excitement (kinda like I was saying about enjoying loved ones reactions) ... "except Fred hes a Wad..." "Cas is kind of like our talking dog.."(cracked up and explained to mom that Cas is their angel.. in case she forgot) ... at one point realized that non of the characters have white in their eyes and drove me nuts for a few scenes ... Agreed Fred is kind of a dick.. Don't be mean to Dean, Dude. ...    Oh the nostalgia of the castle with the bats!!! My heart! My love for bats probably started here. I CANT EVEN! ... Sam, dude, stop being a grump and enjoy the day and your brothers happiness. You're being a bummer and I want to punch you. I love you too but dude! ... Deans night gown.. Even mom laughed at that part!! ... Jinkies, Jeepers, RutRo, SON OF A BITCH!! all the Scooby gang remained pretty chill for seeing an actual dead guy! but the wondering of everything in this is just so perfect! how Sam points out its an actual dead dude to everyone saying their typical catch phrase!! just everything about this is so well planned, referenced, brilliant! ...                     Fred is a dick again... Daphne doesn't agree "not really" ha! ... someone is outside the window. everyone thinks its a bad guy.. I just yell CAS!!! then it ends up being Cas. His entrance as per usual is comedic... also I did not guess it was Cas following them eariler. I didn't make any guesses on that, again. (which is odd, I usually make all the predictions and drive everyone nuts, but I just was so focused!) ... "So, do they always just walk away from dead bodies" SECOND BODY- as soon as they show it I go "that's bit brutal..." and mom giggled. I'm assuming because of how fast I said it or because usually I complain about there not being enough blood. But HEY, I'm on the same page as Dean still and I'm in Scooby land and like WOAH.. also the Scooby Gang still not shocked at the blood, I guess they really think its fake or they just like.. IDK. ... Damn Velma you being a bit much of a bitch towards Sam. Like yeah your awkward and you think hes cute, but mean is not the way to go. (he's sensitive) ... I'd totally pick Shaggy and Scoobies split up time, not because I'm a chicken but just because who doesn't want to get to spend their time with those two, and go find some snacks! ...  THE SCOOBY CHASE SCENE!!!! OMG.. more nostalgia! probably my favorite part of the episode.. maybe.. might have saw even Scrappy Doo running around!          oh no! Shaggy falls and gets hurt!! Dang Shaggy, I've never seen you get so mad. He just knows he's typically invincible and just like doesn't think a think but he gets just a bit violent there with his reaction. My thought oh Cas is there hell, heal him..... BUT UMMMM he doesn't... I bring this up about 10 more times over the next few scenes. Just like why, they obviously know things are going on, or hey do it in secret. Don't let poor Shaggy suffer! ... again, oh no!! The Scooby Gangs hearts are broken, they don't know how to react to finding out that the supernatural exist.. freaking out!!!!! but Dean to the rescue, jumps in with a pep talk and gets their butts into gear for the battle!! (then the Scooby Gang gets a bit intensely into fighting monsters. They are a passionate bunch!!) ...                                              Dean lets Fred come up with a plan.... which fails.. But I'll let you watch that without describing it! not too many comments that I made during the scene! JUST BUBBLES! ... go to plan B... HOLD UP WAIT... Good plan BUT like when you pull the book to the secret passage. ummmmm, how does the Ghost fall.. what?! I Just yelled out HES A GHOST!!!! but I mean okay, a minor critique. and were in cartoon world, so it's all good! the salt circle does make sense, and it is pretty when the ghost tries to escape and more purple shocks.... ... LOVE love love, green and purple combo (mostly is used in spooky or Halloween themed things) but also just my theme. website, just realized thats the color of my nails right now, have a bunch of tattoos that color.. also planning on getting the Superntural tattoo but in a new school way not tribal and in green and purples... talking about it this week actually. decided on that recently but before this episode but only makes me want to get it sooner ...     Then they punch you in the heart!!!!!!!!!!! Because the bad guy is actually...... ... A KID!! an adorable little sweet kid being manipulated by a bad man! so so so sad!!! OMG! ... they then decide they need to cover up the realness from the Scooby Gang before they leave back to their world to set the kid free and then FINALLY CAS HEALS SHAGGY... in secret... SO LIKE WHAT TOOK SO LONG?!!! Come on Cas! ... THE END. well a few more scenes but nothing I have comments on!!! -- SO GO WATCH SCOOBYNATURAL NOW.        Also will there be an episode where they go back or where they Scooby gang comes to the supernatural world and live action…. (if so better be Sarah, Freddy, Matthew, Linda.... oh and Seth Green too because who doesn't want more Seth Green on their TV!) ... Let me know if you like it, let me know if you hate it (I hope you don’t) Let me know if you want it to be more like other peoples reviews or if you like how I did this one.... I've never wrote a review on anything, and I don't really read them, or watch them. BUT I don't watch or read much because I want to create my own content and make my own style so it doesn't have too much influence by anyone else. But also I really want to support others, do research and become better! ... DO YOU HAVE A BLOG? DO YOU DO REVIEWS? WHAT DO YOU DO? COMMENT YOUR LINKS AND ALSO SUGGESTIONS TO OTHER PEOPLE DOING SIMILAR THINGS FOR ME TO CHECK OUT. OR EVEN SOMETHING TOTALLY DIFFERENT IF YOU THINK ILL LIKE IT ... THANKS! PLZ VISIT MY WEBSITE! THE BLOGS LOOK WAY BETTER OVER THERE!!

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This was going to be a review and thoughts on the book MOXIE, but 1. I’m not quite done with it yet. 2. I think its important to share my views first and then my review of the book separately… ALSO I’ve never reviewed a book before because typically I don’t read so don’t judge me too harsh once I do, do that. So this starts off as notes on what I wanted to write about in the review then a LiLBaT rant on my I suppose almost political views on equality and then just well read it if you want…..  this would probably be better as a video too BUT again sitting in an office with a bunch of thoughts in mind. ... ...       MOXIE: Cheesy; A bit too many things all at once but keeps if interesting My favorite character is Seth because he is the voice of equality and keeps reminding “hey not all guys are like that, not all guys are the same” which is typically me saying that from both sides … I really don’t want to get into too much of my opinions on gender equality and just equality overall because I’m not looking to upset anyone or start a war online. Not that I’m scared to voice my opinion or have one just this is just not a time for that. And keep having this rant in my mind and have tweeted a bit but now I’m blogging, right? … I usually stay in my bubble… I feel what I feel, but have had a way stronger opinion on a lot of things the past month I would say. I never really felt that I needed to post about it or stand up for it just for the sake of it. Not that I dont. I voice my opinion when it’s needed and stand up for people when I can and when I feel its right. I actually step into a bunch of situations, and don’t need to give examples of them because this is not what this is about… … What started me being feisty I think was. When I went to a class a few weeks ago, the whole beginning was many of the women attending saying how they felt they are treated bad just because they are women; how that has put a hold or stop to their goals or feel like they cant ever achieve what they want in life because of that. I KNOW and FEEL for the people who experience that BUT I can’t say that I have. I mean I suppose I have; now that I’m really thinking about it, of course I have we all have BUT I NEVER LET IT AFFECT ME. I may have in the past but not with the thought of I cant do this because I’m a girl/women so I can say I cant recall an instance when I let gender or any other classification keep me from being me and trying to do what I want. (and I haven’t made it yet for many reasons but I’m still working and this blog is part of that) I think that is what frustrates me the most… I know not everyone thinks or feels how I do. Good god, do I know that because I feel so much. I am so very EMO and that’s OKAY. That doesn’t just mean I’m sad which is a whole other rant for another day! (if anything I feel like I get judged on that more then anything to do with my body). To use “I’m treated differently, so I can’t” as an excuse gets me fired up! YOU CAN. You can do or be whatever you want. It’s not easy and as things may seem easy from your perspective of someone you don’t know how or what it took for them to get there either. Your judgment and being like well they are “male/female” whoever/whatever it is that you think is discriminating against you well that’s kind of what you’re doing in response? … (Again a lot of this has to do with the book MOXIE, that I’m currently reading) I am NOT against feminism. But I am not a feminist. I do not really put myself into any category besides like the emo/goth? I guess…. But like I mean that has to do with my likes and dislikes and the appearance I choose to have because I feel it is me. Its what I like to look like and I feel weird when I’m not myself. Which lately I’ve been to tired or busy and just want to sleep instead of waking up and doing my makeup, and I did it today and I feel awesome because of that. I do get treated differently sometimes because of my style BUT again I don’t let that be an excuse to not work for what I want. My style has been refused by many but also has gotten me noticed and my interest that are part of that style helped me get the job that made me realize and shape my current goals and future plans. (see first blog for more on that) … I’ve been adding a bunch since my original note, I started typing out so this is going to take a bit of a jump here but this is how my brain works, and the two are linked in my mind. Just a topic that I need to get out in the world, and out of my brain from recent times or kinda past times as well. … I DO NOT CHOOSE SIDES!! In a similar example of fairness and equality in everything….. Fights in friend groups I don’t do. I do not take sides, I do not choose, I stay with as many connections as I can and that upsets one person or another well then well that’s not being fair to me. (and I do experience this quite a bit, and should voice to the people who make me feel that way and remind them I am around to be a friend and listen but I do that to everyone I consider my friend. I do not base my opinions or choice in who to hang out with based on someone else’s dislike of them. Someone said recently that I thought I was “higher” and “better” then them. That is not the case at all, not ever. Anyone who thinks that doesn’t know me at all. And the person who said this definitely should know me better then that. I know my life is better without certain people in it. With that said I do forgive and forget. (a lil background) Only 3 people my entire life I chose to cut out and have stayed out.... I don’t cut people out and don’t need to go into the details because I’m in a good, happy mood and just clearing my mind. Anyways….  One of these people I would gladly speak to again because they were just caught in the middle and stuck to a side that I cut out. The other two I truly know my life is just better without. That doesn’t mean they are bad people or bad friends but they weren’t good to me or for me. I now realize this about other people too who walked out of my life and cut me out and it hurt so much but now looking back they were so bad and unhealthy. I can be civil to one of these people, we have mutual friends and I can be in the same room or event or whatever with them. Just as I don’t choose sides, I don’t expect others to choose mine. Also in this case there is really no sides, there was no argument, It was just a life chose that needed to be made to no longer spend time with this person. (and it really does hurt me that it wasn’t a right friendship, and also that everyone else makes it so awkward when we have been around the same place. I DO NOT HATE THIS PERSON, I DO NOT THINK I'M BETTER. I just know I’m better without and I’m sorry for that). And it all feels childish that I am feeling this way at 28. A know I have matured so much over the years to have these opinions and views. Especially with being at peace with the people who broke be and chose to leave my life. I am better off now. And that doesn’t mean I wont be sad if someone cuts me out again, because I will 100% be broken hearted if someone chooses to not be in my life or I have to make that choice. I don’t even want to think about that. I wanted to say that most of these thoughts are on my mind because this book is about kids in high school but this is just life and the experience I just talked bout happened only like a week ago… … … … Anyways that’s all I got for now.... all started as a note on my phone about MOXIE. So that’s a lil bat rant for you.. nothing too serious but hey it feels good to get it out even if no one reads it.. there will be probably quite a few of these, and most likely will end up being video rants now that I’m getting back into sharing!

MAIN POINT HERE. be kind and respect others (and yourself) for who you are, what you think, how you feel, your goals, your dreams, etc, etc...

blog link: http://www.justtrishsmith.com/lilbatblog/march-25th-2018

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Pink Hearts 💗💗💗 Hawthorne Heights!! Read yesterday’s post about it!!! Feeling pretty good today, burning time before work. But I actually did my makeup! Wishing it was warm enough to wear this outside! 😝

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Hawthorne Heights back at it again! New song Pink Hearts and Just Another Ghost Music Video! ... I'm obviously excited if you didn't know HH is pretty much my all time favorite band. Even may have a half sleeve inspired by their lyrics and album art! Which I suppose I should share at some point. I love my tattoos and put a lot of thought into them but don't do much of sharing about them. SOOO the weird thing about this is I got a new tattoo about two months ago from my bat Dominque (@Dominiquedarko) because shes apprenticing right now. I had no idea what to get but was like "why not a EMO ghost", because why not? SOOO that was two months ago, now to this week when the new music video came out and it has a sad lil ghost in it!!! How weird and perfect!! ... ... PINK HEARTS- love it cant stop listining to it. its a awesome combination of all of HH's sounds over the years all meshed into one song. It blows my mind how they fit so much into one song!!! They also toss in a lot of references or throwbacks to old songs in it!! ... I do have to admit the first few times I listened to it I was a bit overwhelmed and like "WOAH, too much going on here" but now I listen to it at least a few times a day!  These guys never cease to surprise me! Go listen to it and download it on Spotify. (just click the picture i posted for it) ... I need a bit more time listening to Just Another Ghost and to watch the video and actually pay attention to both. I have been crazy busy the last few days. Obviously I dig it but I was overly excited about the lil ghost and that's as far as my mind has gotten on the HH subject this week.. Really wish their tour was bringing them to Pittsburgh!! MISS YOU DUDES!

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Heyo!! LiLBaT here, jumping back into the media world! For those of you who know me I’ve been pretty absent besides Instagram for awhile for many many reasons. Mostly because I don't have a camera, I used to make short fun videos as a job and did quite a bit of vloging to get the job and during... Life had some up and downs been doing pretty alright now.. TOO BUSY, working on that. Want to keep this short and simple for now because I have a few post I started on my website to post as blogs but feel like tumblr is probably a better way to go but will also share my blogs on my website JustTrishSmith.com which most likely will change to have something to do with LiLBaTProducations or something along those lines. Ha! A video probably would be better to get started but I’m sitting in my office and can’t make one. Anyways what is really pushing it is I’m a huge music lover, most of my life has to do with music or the culture of it. Went to school for design as well as film and animation with hopes of making music videos, movies, and special effects BUT ended up working for the news (which is where I am now, just started back a month ago) but did a temporary project called 4the412 where we made short fun news stories about whatever interested us and what was new and going on. It made me love that style of video and want to continue that. I had my own show within the project called 412nes and it is my baby and goal to continue that. I’ve keep the name and people know the name and what it was but I want to get back to it and better then ever. What was 412nes; pretty much mini fun documentary featuring local (Pittsburgh aka 412) bands. I would do an interview with the band then shoot their live set at a show, or occasionally snag some footage from their music videos. I was hosting so in the video with the band. Filming, occasionally having a camera friend with me; and for future always want to have someone operating the camera or even more of a goal having at least a two camera shoot for such things.. I’m kind of jumping around and all over to keep it short but another thing awesome about that is being a host is so cool! I’ve always looked up to and wanted to be like Elvira and this is kind of my chance but making it my own with it being music and not movie horror BUT I mean I’m open to all. I also interviewed some national bands or friends bands from other areas and called that LiLBaT Chats. LiLBaT chats don't just have to be about music but again everything and everything going on. SOOOOOOOOO.. jump to why I’m writing blogs is because I’m tired of my excuse “I’ll start again when I get a camera” DUDES, I’ve never had my own camera they were all owned by who I was working for. I will get one one day but why the hell not at least post a picture and write a bit. My first videos were filmed on my phone edited and I threw some cheesey graphics in with them.. So lets get back to that.. I have so many notes on what to vlog about what to blog about and never do. I have to do it in the moment and when its relevant or like forget what I want to say or well new things happen. I wanted to record about things such as: why the hell is it so hard to get a job?; why don't people at least say they received your application/resume especially when you have expressed your interest over and over and felt you were perfect and 9 months later the job is still posted?? Ummm lets see, typically I’m not too political and dont know why or what kicked me in the butt maybe just the world we live in and seeing everything because I work at the news again or because I’m out at events and listening to peoples stories but like I want to stand up for Equality and what that means to me and how it truly is how I feel. I hate the sexist bullshit from both and all sides. I’m reading books (like I’m impressed with myself on that one) like never could get into reading because I get distracted or don't have time. and I don't have time but sometimes at my jobs I can read.

BUT RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW TODAY THIS IS BECAUSE OF...... MUSIC.... I started to write a post the other day about Hawthone Heights’ new music video for Just Another Ghost (which will be posted next, and later more on my love for those dudes), then today just saw Christopher Drew post a cover of Love Me Tenderer by Never Shout Never. So I want to throw that on my blog to let you know about it and to check it out and to just recognize and feel the love in the world the best you can. I have felt so much lately and its amazing, and I hope it continues. I dont say I love you to like anyone but my family but was feeling so loved and in love that I recorded myself talking about it and crying being so happy. I recorded it because I was driving a long while to visit my family. But that’s all things I’ll write about. well probably not the details of the love stuff but like just all my thoughts and if I keep up with blogs. My thoughts can be a bit more organized, unlike this post that is literally everything bunched into one...

so that’s that! Leave me comments, let me know your reading, let me know what you think about what I think.... lets keep things positive. dont tell me my spelling or grammar sucks because I am aware and trying to be better...keep me posted on things, help me to grow the things I keep saying I want to.. let me know what you think or feel or yepp this is going to long. Just HELLO BLOG/VLOG WORLD I AM BACK!!!

ps obviously I love snapchat filters, maybe too much......