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Please please share! So far I’ve had no success since starting on gofundme for this and I was back in the er on Thursday night so I’m awaiting yet another bill. 😕

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Witchy Art by KteaCrumpet

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UPDATE (SHARING ENCOURAGED): I went ahead and created a PayPal pool fundraiser. It’s ambitious, likely overly so and I’m still very ashamed to be asking for help at all. I know compared to some, I’ve been so blessed. But any share or contribution could help me reach my ultimate goal which is honestly, just to get my life back. Things aren’t always easy. I have some big barriers both mental, physical and financial ahead of me. But I have hope. There are things that won’t heal, and I have to accept that. But I want to move forward pro recovery and hopefully find my place in this world.

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As some of you know, I keep a recovery journal cuz you know I’ll forget basically everything unless I have it written down. Days start out in this general format. All it says so far today is that I had a nightmare at 4am, fed cats at 5am, and my affirmation of the day courtesy of the brilliant @itsarifitz . Thank you for inspiring me. I too have struggled so much to find myself, and to fight for acceptance of my body as is. Mostly, my fight has been fought through self destruction and starvation to keep myself contained and small. But what you said in your post yesterday resonates so strongly with me. So I’m keeping this Ari quote with me today. My body is my home and I choose to honor my home.

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floretflower on ig

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Source.

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The Seed. a tarot spread for ostara.

1. The Soil.

Where have you grown? While it most certainly is the dawn of a new day, keep in mind your roots are proof that you have already come a long way. The soil is your past. What lesson can you learn from days gone by?

2. The Weed.

You wish to flourish and grow strong, but there is undoubtedly something that is stunting your progress. What are your obstacles, what’s holding you back?

3. The Seed.

Within your immediate future, which area of your life will you first see signs of growth? Which seed has taken hold?

4. The Sun.

The love and support of others is helpful. But the will to grow comes from within. Let the sun be a reminder of what you need to keep in mind in order to help yourself grow.

5. The Rain.

A blessing in disguise. Understand that not all things are always as they seem. Grey skies can sometimes bring you down, but like the sun, rain too is necessary. Through struggle, you will find strength. What blessing in disguise is upon your horizon?

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BEKKATHYST SPRING 2019 GIVEAWAY

~This giveaway is in no way affiliated with Tumblr.~

Please read thoroughly before entering!

Hello lovely Tumblr folk! It’s that time again- I have a giveaway for you all. As current followers know, we are opening up a physical shop in addition to having our online shop! This giveaway is to thank you all so much for supporting us and helping us get this far! We definitely need all the help and support we can get right now, so hopefully this attracts some new customers as well 💞💞💞

All these items came from our shop.

What you get:

$50 credit that can be applied to anything in our shop. 

A carved triple moon wooden box

A (treated) titanium aura amethyst cluster

Two rainbow fluorite points

A mini selenite tower

A mini selenite sphere

Three little AAA quality amethyst clusters from Uruguay

An amethyst scepter crystal from Brazil

A fossilized agatized coral cabochon

Two rose quartz palm stones

Two clear quartz palm stones

A pile of rough amethyst chunks

A pile of rough quartz crystals

A rainbow fluorite slab

A high quality amethyst heart from Brazil

A high quality “super seven” included amethyst heart

A blue crazy lace agate sphere

A crazyyyy extra quality rainbow obsidian heart!

This has a retail value of $368 in addition to the $50 shop credit!

Rules:

You must be 16 or older. (If under 18 you MUST have parent’s permission)

You don’t have to live in the US to join!

Shipping is entirely free, I will cover it. But if you live outside the US and for whatever reasons your country wants to charge you import tax, you are responsible for it. If it gets sent back to me, you will need to pay shipping to have it sent again.

You must be following me, so you can get updates if anything about the giveaway changes.

Please check out our shop!

DO NOT tag this post as giveaway. That will risk the notes getting messed up, and this will be ruined for everyone.

Reblog this post to enter. Likes count, too. No giveaway or spam blogs. If you reblog on a side blog, let me know in the tags what the name of your blog is that you’re following me with.

Please don’t spam people with reblogs- limit 2 reblogs per blog per day.  

At the end, each entry will be assigned a number and the winner will be chosen by a random number generator.

The giveaway ends Saturday, April 20th at 6 pm Pacific time.

The winner will be messaged and must respond with their full name and address within 24 hours, or a new winner will be chosen.

Please respect me and my rules, and have fun!

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I finally got my butt in gear and decorated my altar for Ostara. I know, it looks a lot like my Imbolc altar. Bear with me. Depression and anxiety have been kicking my ass lately and I’m really low budget. But I changed out my water, infusing it with jasmine essential oil. For Imbolc, I infused it with lavender. I’ve got some egg shaped stones alone with just some fun plastic eggs. I might fill them with wishes and intentions tonight before bed then bury them in the soil (the paper, not the plastic eggs) when the moon changes. Daffodil bunches are about $1.50 at Trader Joe’s right now if you’re interested. I’m looking forward to seeing them open up.

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Merry meet and a blessed Ostara to all who celebrate. Happy spring equinox, and look out for the full moon tonight! Here’s to new beginnings and planting seeds of change and hope. Love to you all!

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Sticky kitty last night. I was in the hospital for six days, and she’s been extra close since I returned. #mycat #furbaby #ilovemycat #catlady #catbestie #tabby https://www.instagram.com/p/BvJd3TfA6KA/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=gk3h1h26q9js

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If I have any Muslim followers:

I hope you’re safe, i hope you feel safe soon, I wish this people full of hatred didn’t exist but unfortunately they do, but at least I hope this is the last of these pointless racist attacks, I love you and you can count on me for anything

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Today I lit a white candle in remembrance and respect. I’ve only recently learned of the horrific attacks last night in New Zealand. I will never understand how such hatred and violence can consume the perpetrators of these heinous acts.

As I watched the candle burn down, the flame extinguished, all I could think to say was, to all affected by this horror, we see you, we’re with you, you are loved, you aren’t alone.

A favorite author of mine had this to say of the tragedy and it resonates deeply, “Go and spread joy and love. The best way to counter evil like this is through spreading a force that conquers it.” - Jasmine Galenorn 🕯

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This is important!!!!!!!