bonesmoth1x

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finally doing a full intro post to have on my page again!:

hi i’m moth, i’ve been struggling with ednos for abt six ish years, and i’m twenty y/o

my stats:

height: 5’2”

hw: 182.4

lw: 122.0

cw: 131.2

gw: 120.0

ugw: 105.0

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Reblog if you are an active 3d account in Sept 2024 so we can all follow each other 💗

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𝓡𝓮𝓫𝓵𝓸𝓰 𝓲𝓯 𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓮 20+ 𝔂𝓻𝓼 𝓸𝓵𝓭! 𝓲 𝓷𝓮𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝓸𝓸𝓽𝓼

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repost to have a thigh gap by the end of the month

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hi guys! i’ve been busy so i haven’t posted but i’ve been doing good, friday i just had a protein bar (150) and then saturday i had a protein shake and a bar (170 + 150) and sunday i did an omad with a burrito bowl (460) and an electrolyte drink (120). today i had a mango (200) and some nigiri (320) and i might have something else small later but that will probably be 100 or less. i’ve been getting my 10,000 steps everyday and going to the gym every other day. feeling great and im going to do a weigh in in the morning. hope yall are staying safe.

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happy march!!! new england sucks and i can’t wait for spring, and that is so much motivation for me, march is always one of my favorite months.

here’s my plan for the month, and i’ll go ahead and give this trigger warning here.

my birthday is at the end of the month and i try to give myself that as a true cheat day. i’ll probably fast the days leading to and following to help. kind of my yearly routine. for the rest of the month, i’ll do three total metab days, and those will be under 1300cals. every other day the goal is to ultimately be under 700, and an absolute max of 900. i try to liquid fast a few days a week, and those days are 300cal limits.

i will try for a total of 60hrs fasting this month. hopefully broken evenly into 4 or 5 24hr fasts.

i work out at the gym a minimum of 3 days a week, and usually aim for 4. i do home workouts whenever possible. i also do a lot of walking at work, and tend to burn about 200 per shift.

i’m a server and i’m beginning to become very blah about the food i work with, none of it is appetizing to me because i’ve seen, smelled, tasted it so many times, and honestly, things have been pretty gross lately. lots of kids and babies, and all the mess and everything that comes with that, just kills my appetite. it’s so highly mental for me.

i’m working to lose about 20 lbs this month. i think it’s so doable. i’ve been taking some supplements, i take biotin, acv tablets, in the morning and magnesium and iron at night.

my diet has recently been focused around omad’s and protein snacks. basically when i do eat i find it’s important to make sure it will be doing good for me in some way or another. protein helps me keep going, and the omad helps to keep me pretty “normal” seeming to friends and family.

my ultimate goal every time i choose something is for the cals to be as close to 0 as possible. it’s the easiest way to manage.

anyways. this ended up being much longer than expected. i am excited and ready for this month.

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gonna tell you guys what my march plan is tomorrow. i love leap day, it’s kind of like a holiday to me. idk i think it’s fun. i did an omad with pho today and it was around 400cals. a fun thing i’ve been doing lately is coloring books, for me it helps get rid of the desire to eat while watching something, gives me something to do with my hands and isn’t completely mindless so i have pretty pictures at the end.

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active again!!! pls hmu to be moots

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i’m so fucking stupid, i fucking binged last night for no good reason at all. i think i convinced myself it was ok since i’m on my period but god i’m so goddamn dumb. i’m gonna fast for at least today and prolly tmr too. god i hate myself.

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just ordered a scale online :p should be here tues and then i’ll do a weigh in bc i haven’t had one to weigh in on for forever

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happily back in my honeymoon phase due to a manic episode

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here’s the game plan:

if i keep to 700 cals a day, i can easily lose like 25lbs by the end of january, right?

and then, i can save some money and get some tattoos, as a little reward…

i’m finally in a better living situation so it’s sm easier to weigh in, p*rge, and whatever else i need without my roommates even caring.

so i think i’m going to start posting my wieiad’s again, and maybe taking pics for fun.

anyways, my dms are always open. stay safe guys /

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i’m baaaackkkk

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i’m gonna start limiting myself to 600 a day, i want to lose faster and this is the best way obv, plus more exercise and stuff so i can have some muscle so i’m not useless

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i weighed myself this morning bc it was the first chance i had, (i’m in college and i share a dorm room) and the number wasn’t fun to see. i’m honestly not even gonna share it, but it was amazing motivation ig. nothing better than your own self hatred.

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forgot to put together a wieiad for yesterday and i’m honestly too lazy to, it was a boring day and my total was 778, anyways, here’s todays!!

bfast:

some blueberries 21

toast 104

1/4 tbsp butter 14

2 hard boiled eggs

lunch/snack:

small banana 90

dinner:

2 veggie spring rolls 151

lettuce 16

1 tbsp mayo

1 can tuna 85

+ sriracha and salt and pepper

half pint of tru fru white chocolate covered pineapple 140

total: 865

i went over my limit today, but i burned like 200 at the gym so ig it’s okay, and i’ll prolly take some lax tonight anyways. i’m trying to be positive abt it bc i will spiral otherwise

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having struggled with my ednos for years, i had this realization a couple years ago, but it pops up time to time. this disease will probably kill me. with the amount of times i’ve been in and out of recovery, my chance of recovering decreases everytime. and the problem is i know it will kill me, and i don’t care. i don’t know how to live without this, and i don’t think i can.