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I am the youngest. The silly one. I don't do things that I know will cause me a bother. One case is crying. Yes, I do cry when I watch a sad movie, but I don't cry when times get tough. I don't get angry. Maybe in the comfort of my room, but that's it. Others comforting me is uncomfortable. When i do cry because i miss someone, it's usually after they're gone. My sister is the opposite. Always crying. I am usually the one comforting her.

My brother is getting married abroad. Everyone is gone. I couldn't go because of document issues. I am with my aunt at home. I knew this was the issue, so i decided that I wouldn't cry then. So cried months ago. But, the wedding is tomorrow and I've cried every time I think about it for the past week.

I am sad and alone. I am tired of crying. I yap a lot, and right now, my own silence is unnerving. My sister cries every time she sees me, and I try to be strong. I don't cry with her, but sometimes I just break on call. I don't want to cry. It's rude, I should be happy for my brother. But I feel so bad not to be there for his special day. Everyone's making memories together while I am home trying to convince myself I'll only be sad till its over but time just doesn't want to move and I can't find comfort in anything else right now so my eyes are instead puffy, sore and red.

So yeah. This was just me letting my feelings out.

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Soooo...we went to watch the new minecraft movie. Reasons being:

1) my 6 year old niece has a huge crush on Jason Momoa

2) I heard technoblade was given a tribute

3) my brother wanted to maintain his title as cool uncle

4) my sister will do anything for popcorn even if this one destroys her gut.

So my take on the movie was:

It wasn't bad. Wouldn't watch it again, but I wouldn't call it a waste of time. I did laugh quite a bit, and it was a fun movie to watch with a child (but I'll still make her watch the og minecraft movies. She needs some culture.) Overall, 7.5/10.

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Who's idea was it to edit Eddie and Venoms flashback to memories by maroon 5 because that was unnecessarily brutal. I began sobbing my eyes out that even my sister was concerned.

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I was just lazing around my room when I had the sudden realisation that;

all the firstborns I know have decided to wait until their children are old enough before having another child, while all the lastborns I know say they don't want to keep an age gap between their kids.

I don't know why, but this thought caused my eyes to sweat.

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My biggest flex is that I watch and reply to all my best friends' tiktoks even if she sends me her entire fyp.

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I know people get emotional when they're on their periods, and I do too, but I honestly still have no explanation on why I was crying for cookies and cake with such gut-wrenching emotions.

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It's diabolical that I haven't seen him on a single hear me out cake. He was an epic character from chronicles of narnia.

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Just thinking about the time a girl( about 6 years old) kept tapping me on my shoulder and running away while I was doing an art project in the park. My friends, who wanted to give me company, thought the kid was troubling me. I told them to leave her be and that shes just having fun. I smiled at the girl when she looked at me.

A few minutes later, another girl, similar to the first girls age, comes to me pulling the first girl along. I am quite introverted but still greeted the girls. The first girl is hiding behind her friend. The friend says, "My friend is very shy, but she thinks you're cool and admires you." My friends and I literally went awe. That made my day and made me so much more confident in my art.

I swear that's the sweetest thing I've ever heard. From that day, I started loving kids. That maybe not all of them are that bad.

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"The Israel vs Palestine conflict is very complex." Yes, the historic intricacies of how we got from a hundred years ago to now are lengthy and complicated and also not super relevant because genocide is genocide and holy shit we do not need a Masters degree in history to go "hey - mercilessly bombing the shit out of civilians is murder and also really fucking bad."

I have myself stayed away in the past from commenting on Israel v Palestine because it seems very complicated, or the concern that a source of information or critical comment might be rooted in anti-Semitism, or that I just didn't know enough about what does/doesn't count as an occupied territory, and didn't want to speak from a place of ignorance in case I stepped on the wrong foot or made an offensive comment without realising it. It's a very natural response, especially on the internet, to shy away from any kind of strong opinion or "taking a side" in a conflict that you're not entirely familiar with - but we know for certain that Israel is killing innocent people that cannot defend themselves. That's wrong. That's deeply wrong and cruel and should be condemned.

In the debate of "is killing innocent civilians wrong?" I'm on the side of "that's super immoral and fucked up. Don't do that. Stop killing people." I can pretty much blanket apply that to every fucking situation that involves killing innocent civilians regardless of who is perpetrating that violence and so can you! And hopefully so can the fucking governments of the world who need to do everything they can to call for an immediate ceasefire and end the genocide of Palestinians.

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reminder that the US government was perfectly willing to ignore the actions of the nazis until imperial japan directly attacked one of its military bases. before that, all of the warning signs of genocide were ignored and war in Europe, Oceania, and East Asia were all treated like something that wasn't their problem, and refugees from fascist states were routinely turned away at our borders. the main reason they helped stop the holocaust was because nazi germany was an ally of imperial japan.

our government has always been this way. unless isreal directly attacks the US military or US government, it is unlikely that they will do anything to stop this genocide and will keep aiding in it against the wishes of their people. because to the US, war crimes are only war crimes when our enemies do them, and the same goes for genocide.

if UN is worth anything, they will call for the leaders of isreal and the leaders of all countries aiding them to be brought before the Hague. as far as i am concerned, the US, UK, and isreal are part of a new axis of evil that goes unimpeded by an organization that should have prevented this from ever happening again and that has ignored/failed to stop countless genocides and war crimes.

our government is run by ghouls who do not represent us in an oligarchical government that calls itself democratic. they need to be stopped.

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The absolute silence today is gut wrenching. Leaflets were dropped on the west bank telling palistinians to go to Jordan. Last time they told them to go south and they got bombed. Everything about Palestine has suddenly dropped off trending and we know that staff has been suppressing the tags #free palestine and #palestine. Now its has to be every single tag that was trending, because i just simply do not believe we stopped talking about it over night. I feel so hopeless about this shit but the only thing we can do rn is to not stop talking. We have to stop trying to bury our heads in the sand and keep posting as if it was normal because its not normal. Palestinians don't get a break from the horror, the least we can do for them is to make sure their suffering isn't silent.

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I have this hobby of collecting random and ordinary rocks that catch my attention. The rocks are pretty basic. One day, I saw this huge rock(as big as my head). I really liked it and told my friends about it. That day, my friends were in a heist. They got that huge rock for me without judging me, stuffed it in multiple jackets to hide it. They also got a tiny rock similar to it cause they knew I'd love it. I am truly thankful for them.

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Does anyone else have wii music playing in their head 24/7 and not know how to get it to stop?????