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Dear....

meDear everyone,

While i write this i wanted to say thank you for supporting me in my work. Although, there is one problem i must discuss. The book i planned to write on, was a struggle for me. I have not wrote in it since the summary. The time and effort for me is very difficult. I would like to add on to this.

I am not ready to write a book until i’m fully better. I’ve been struggling since then. I’ve grew up with depression, but my struggles didn’t get worst until i became a sophomore. I was suffering from an eating disorder, to getting bullied to having a habit of over dosing myself. Meanwhile in public, i acted totally fine. When i finished school, i fell in love for the first time in my life. I was abused by this boy who i thought loved me back. The abused didn’t stop, as much i don’t like mentioning my problems. I know there is many people who have made very hypocritical comments towards this relationship and the breakup.

For those who support him, i do not bare to send anyone after you. So, please stop sending those after me. I wished the best for him. I want no harm for him or anyone else. I will remember the good times we had even if the rest were problems. I may have made mistakes, so has everyone else. I would like to put my mistakes behind and move forward and i think you all should too.

But i will not apologize for telling the cops about what he did to me. No one is allow to hurt me or my family. My family is the most important thing to me. If i was to let him hurt them, i would’ve been selfish. I let him go against my other half, my twin. I let him hurt her and not thought about it. So to my sister, i am very sorry and hope you forgive me. I wish him the best, but want nothing to do with him anymore. Even if you all think i’m the crazy one. I know i’m a good person, even my great grandparents have reminded me.

Furthermore, i want to also comment on my school life. I’ve decided to join a program where i get extra helped. I’ve been waiting to get this help for many months now. Everything i tried, was not helpful and felt more problematic. During my junior year i learned a lot. I may have been absent, but my health matters more than anything else at the moment. Ever since my relationship, i got sick. I started to have a few problems with my health. I would throw up, i would get stomachaches. Headaches, nausea, etc. I am so thankful to my mother for being there for me throughout my struggles. If it wasn’t for her, i would’ve gave up. My mom knew i was sick, she did not hesitate to fight with me when i wanted to stay home. She did not yell at me nor blame me. She was being a real mother and doing everything she can to raise me right. Being a single mom, is not easy. But if you are a single mom, bless you for sticking up to your kids.

I hope one day my school will see my problems and apologize to me for all those times they did not believe me. I hope one day they can help all their kids and find ways to make them feel 100% okay and comfortable to go to school.

The last thing i wanted to say is that, i want to keep making youtube videos. I’ve made a few lately and wanted you all to see.

My youtube channel is https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCg2KQCJiSNERkP7Kt3ijmJA?view_as=subscriber

I will keep you guys posted on when my next video will be posted. For now on, thank you for everyone who supported me and i hope when i get treated, i will definitely be writing. I want to work on my grammar and writing as well... so i can make you all more amazed to read my stuff!! I love you guys so much.

Social Media to contact me to!! IG: PUFFYBUKI

SNAPCHAT: BUKIBUUU

TWITTER: INSANITYHEARTS

FACEBOOK: BUKI BUU CHRISTIE

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Advice/Talk?

I am currently going to write a book, but one thing i would like to share out is my abusive relationship that i am in at the moment.

Although many people do not understand what it’s like being with someone controlling and abusive, some do.

I in a relationship where it leads me to having suicidal thoughts... I do not like to go deep into what is personally going on, but i would like to say that i am mentally sick and this person who i am dating, is not helping me.

It gets to the point where i feel like i am completely ALONE, mistreated, Judged and used.... Everything i love, get taken away from me from this person.

For example, Pokemon. I love pokemon, but this person will get mad at me when i play it because they think it’s their game... I get stressed out because it’s like i am not allowed to play my own favorite game... Which brings me to stressed and overthinking.

I am also not allowed to communicate with others, nor hangout with my parents or friends. Unless i get their permission. I feel like i am trapped. But i am scared to leave because of their own mental illness... They have anger issues, depression too... But they are too controlling. Sometimes get physical with me.

If there anything i am begging for, is for help. I have contacted so many people, polices, EVERYONE i could possibly talk to for this help. But so far, i haven’t received any helped.

Last year, i tried to kill myself and this year i am trying to prevent that from happening again, i want to live a happy life, i need help. But i am full of confusion.

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So i would like to report this because i would like many of you all to read this. I know it’s not the best... but i am trying to speak out and get people who are going through depression,  to understand my perspective to my story.

I am hoping you all would reblog and also share with anyone going through stuff.

i am writing my book currently and hoping some of you guys will enjoy it!!1

The Joy Of Being 17.

It’s really funny… I never like to read books, nor want to touch one. But I write tons of pages and stories, That I feel like I am my own author. It’s crazy! After 17 years of living my life, there is so much to learn and I haven’t reached that level of success yet. I remembered a year ago, I was a mess. A year later, I am still a mess, which is crazy. But I guess that’s because I am a loving human being who accepts the wrong people in my life. Should I blame myself, though? No, honestly, I don’t blame myself for being the person I am, I just get tired of feeling the same way every year which is pain and suffer. I recently just started getting too obsessed with the idea of writing stories. As a little girl, starting at the age of 12. I would always write stories, role plays, etc. I am now a teenager, almost a young adult, who feels that sharing my stories will get me somewhere… hopefully. Want to hear another joke? My parents always argue with me on this topic. They always tell me, “you’re not an adult yet, Stop acting like one.”, That’s because I learned so fast, that I started making my very own decisions. Not wrong decisions, but good decisions. I feel as if my parents can’t accept one thing, and that is… they can’t accept the fact I am growing up too fast. I realized they are scared. I mean, come on, every parent feels this way towards their kids, right? So what’s the point of my story? The point is, I want to be heard and accepted. I would like to share my story with you guys because I have hope of becoming an inspiration for many people. Even if I don’t have many friends and support, I would still be grateful for some of you guys to read my story. This is a new chapter of my life and I will name this story, Buki Buu. Buki Buu is a name I was given by an old friend of mine two years ago in freshman year, I got attached with the name because it suited me for who I am as a human being. Lots of people call me Buki, It’s really cute but funny since they forget my real name is Christie. So yeah, whoever is reading this, Thank you for giving me the chance of finding myself and having hope in me I really hope you guys read my story. I will be working my ass this year and next year working on my story of Buki Buu. For now on, I’ll be writing and finding ways to accept the person I am. I am finally going to let go of the toxic people in my life and restarting my life positive and happy. Meaning no relationships for a long time haha. Thank you so much, I love you guys. You all make me smile, thank you.

Reblogged, Share and Follow me if you are interested. This is actually an real story and i thank my friend for inspiring me to do what i love :)

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The Joy Of Being 17.

It’s really funny… I never like to read books, nor want to touch one. But I write tons of pages and stories, That I feel like I am my own author. It’s crazy! After 17 years of living my life, there is so much to learn and I haven’t reached that level of success yet. I remembered a year ago, I was a mess. A year later, I am still a mess, which is crazy. But I guess that’s because I am a loving human being who accepts the wrong people in my life. Should I blame myself, though? No, honestly, I don’t blame myself for being the person I am, I just get tired of feeling the same way every year which is pain and suffer. I recently just started getting too obsessed with the idea of writing stories. As a little girl, starting at the age of 12. I would always write stories, role plays, etc. I am now a teenager, almost a young adult, who feels that sharing my stories will get me somewhere… hopefully. Want to hear another joke? My parents always argue with me on this topic. They always tell me, “you’re not an adult yet, Stop acting like one.”, That’s because I learned so fast, that I started making my very own decisions. Not wrong decisions, but good decisions. I feel as if my parents can’t accept one thing, and that is… they can’t accept the fact I am growing up too fast. I realized they are scared. I mean, come on, every parent feels this way towards their kids, right? So what's the point of my story? The point is, I want to be heard and accepted. I would like to share my story with you guys because I have hope of becoming an inspiration for many people. Even if I don’t have many friends and support, I would still be grateful for some of you guys to read my story. This is a new chapter of my life and I will name this story, Buki Buu. Buki Buu is a name I was given by an old friend of mine two years ago in freshman year, I got attached with the name because it suited me for who I am as a human being. Lots of people call me Buki, It’s really cute but funny since they forget my real name is Christie. So yeah, whoever is reading this, Thank you for giving me the chance of finding myself and having hope in me I really hope you guys read my story. I will be working my ass this year and next year working on my story of Buki Buu. For now on, I’ll be writing and finding ways to accept the person I am. I am finally going to let go of the toxic people in my life and restarting my life positive and happy. Meaning no relationships for a long time haha. Thank you so much, I love you guys. You all make me smile, thank you.

Reblogged, Share and Follow me if you are interested. This is actually an real story and i thank my friend for inspiring me to do what i love :)

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