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Am I alive?

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~Listen to the music

(one of my fav songs for a the perfect free vibe)

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e.e. cummings, “in the rain” (from Tulips), Complete Poems: 1904-1962

[Text ID: “a single star is uttered,and i

think           of you”]

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It’s scary how attached I am to you

It’s scary how much I need you

It’s scary how much power you have,the power to rip me in million peaces

I think I tend to get addicted to my partner even if that’s very unhealthy

I got hurt so much before

And instead of the bad addictions I switched to my addiction for you

but maybe that’s not the best either because if one thing you say or do make me feel bad in any way,no matter how little it is,I will collaps and go back to what I used to do..

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Marguerite Duras, from The Lover

Text ID: Very early in my life it was too late.

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~so peaceful and quiet I wish I could have hide there forever but somehow my busy life started chasing me again,an now that’s just another memory I think about to escape reality for a second

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self love isn’t easy it’s a goal wich can seem impossible to reach for some of us,maybe they don’t even wanna reach it since we feel like we don’t deserve it

Maybe we need someone else to go with us on this complicated road till we reach out self love,maybe the way is the goal?

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this one really is worth it to think about it mindfully~

Virginia Woolf, from To the Lighthouse Susan Sontag, from Reborn: Early Diaries 1947-1963

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“If you can’t do anything about it then let it go. Don’t be a prisoner to things you can’t change.”

— Tony Gaskins

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I think the most of us own a stuffed animal from our earlier childhood right? It grew up with us and there’s some magical feeling about it

I maybe have trust issues and overthink situations to much but my Love gifted me his stuffed animal dinosaur wich he owns since he was two years old.

He told me that he promised himself to never ever give it away and be always by his side when he was little and then he said “I’m gonna keep my promise and always stay by his side“

for me that’s such a big deal he shows me witch that action that he trusts me with things wich are so important to him :)

Now always when he can’t be by my side I take the Dinosaur with me for anything so I can also look after the promise he made as a kid and never leave it alone

That’s literally the cutes thing ever,for me that’s a proof of real love and trust!

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#poem #love #feelings

Do you think you weren't loved enough?"

"Somewhere between 'not enough' and 'not at all. I was always hungry for love. Just once, I wanted to know what it was like to get my fill of it - to be fed so much love I couldn't take any more. Just once. But they never gave that to me. Never, not once.

— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

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My first entery one here..Well hey I guess,I think I created this profile to share my life(and just random thoughts) sort of an diary just not as private.I am an person who tends to think much but not talk as much so maybe it helps me to write my thoughts down on here!

Since this is an diary I maybe should introduce myself first at least a bit or should I just talk about my life as the mysterious person with no background information? (talking to much whops)

Maybe..

Okay but you can call me Tony ,nice to meet you all on here :))

Hope to meet some wonderful people on here<3