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Just come back to tumblr….

Literally every single post before now was in some sort of manic episode. Still starving but i also know i need to eat too. I dont hate myself as much and I’ve gained some muscle so im looking a lil more toned. All I’ve eaten today is a bit of rocky road and some Pringles. I don’t really feel hungry at all anymore unless im stoned but like im not always stoned, im sober rn and ab to go to bed. Life feels weird rn idk, might delete some of my posts ab Ana and use this account to ramble. Im also im a long healthy relationship, he has held me whilst i sob more than once if he wanted to he would this man does everything for me and I couldn’t ask for better support from him started a new job like six months ago too and that’s going really well too…maybe im not mentally ill if i can hold down a relationship and a job

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JUST REALISED MY CW IN MY BIO IS 60KG AND IM NOW 58KG which isn’t a lot but it’s nice to see progress

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How does everyone feel about apple cider vinegar and what’s your experience with it?

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All i ate today was a bag of crisps (95 cals) and then 4 sausages on their own idk how many cals that way but the fact im laying in bed rn feeling hungry is a ALWAY a good thing

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My old dance teacher had contacted me and asked me to be in a musical, more of an excuse to st⭐️rave so I look good on stage and all the rehearsals will be more of a workout for me! Im honestly so excited i love when things like this fall into my lap so easily making it even just a little bit easier to lose a bit more weight

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You're gonna give up you're dream body for 15 minutes of pelasure? Is It really worth it?? Ofc its not.

Giving up the 15 minutes of pelasure for ur dream body is actually worth it.

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I lied.

My last post was me being proud of how little I could manage to eat but I’ve reverted back to eating what id class as normally for me. I’m done. I want to look sick. I want to be noticed. I already (ut myself so I should be able to suffer while starving and like it I DONT UNDERSTAND. Why am I so huge. Why do I feel like I deserve food? I’m going extreme until someone notices and that is a fucking promise.

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Getting back into st⭐️rving so here is my dinner for tonight, the only other thing I’ve had today is 4 Jaffa cakes so very proud of myself today 😊

One can of tuna in water : 120cals

2tbs of light Mayo: 80cals

1tbs soy sauce: 10cals

1 whole cucumber: 40cals

Total: 250cals