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We haven't been posting bc this is S–Preier's acc and idk if I'm allowed to use it

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Okay, lets play a little thought game. Imagine for a second that we're in an alternate universe where everything is the same, except there's a mental illness that (among other things) obliterates your gender identity, turning you agender. Like it's got a lot of symptoms, but that one's a mandatory associated feature. Nonbinary people still exist in this alternate universe, but the mental illness that makes you nonbinary (MITMYNB) is broadly thought of to be the cause of nonbinary identities, and nonbinary genders are not yet recognized or understood.

Naturally, everyone on earth sees these two groups as being identical. The broader public assumes all nonbinary people to have MITMYNB, it isn't understood how one could be nonbinary without suffering greatly from all of the illness's other symptoms. Some nonbinary people even claim to be happy about being nonbinary, when MITMYNB is known to cause crushing dysphoria and depression over one's loss of gender identity. They're appropriating the struggles of the mentally ill for attention, if they were really nonbinary they would be miserable, they'd be lining up for conversion therapy, (which works sometimes in this universe because it is occasionally an associated feature of a mental illness but causes incalculable pain to those who are nonbinary but don't have it)

Of course, the only thing that nonbinary-gendered people can do is create tightly knit communities and enforce dogmatic validity as a defense against the impossible weight of invalidating wrought on them by people who are, for all they know, in the same group as them. Remember, we know in our universe that "nonbinary" is a gender, but they still don't. Mantras form. You don't need to be mentally ill to be nonbinary, you don't need a diagnosis, there is nothing to be treated, you are valid just the way you are. Which, while it is probably exactly what needed to be said to some people, it ends up further confusing and invalidating people who are suffering from the mental illness. "What do you mean, I am seeing spots and forgetting my last name, I don't want to be valid, I need help, I need community." Screamed helplessly to people who can't fully understand, who believe they're being told that their earnestly held gender identity, their selfhood, is a mental illness. No one wins. This is how I feel about plurality.

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Preier is pretty sure someone is co-fronting with it right now, but it's hard to tell who

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Fake claimers are a much bigger threat to disabled people than fakers ever will be.

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This unit felt itself fadingaway from the front and another alTer beginning to front

Soit purposefully exposed itself to positive triggers ("positive" as "things that make you front" inthis this caze source mediia) to push away that alter away from the front and stay here

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Every so often, I come up with a what I think is a insightful syscourse post in my head and I'll think I posted it and then I check this blog and see I didn't and by then I forgot the point I has thought of

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Hello, we aren't sure about our system name, but our collective name is 'Angel'

This is the pinned post I suppose, will edit more later

I don't want to give my real name, so I'll use a code name

I'm who started this blog, u guys can call me Preier (as in Prayer), the others might post here but idk cause they're not in the front rn

My (Preier's) stances are

☆ syscourse unalaigned

☆ supports non disordered plurals/multiples, such as people who just are plural in a non disordered wav to people who are plural due to spiritual reasons

☆ mostly believes disordered plurality come from trauma only, but open to different experiences and nuances with labels and such

☆ value lived experiences above all else

☆ will add more..

this post might be edited later

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Anybody here used to is a closet system? How do u become more open about it

We have two other friends who are in a system, but even then, we don't really disclose anything other than "yeah, I also have a cdd" to them

We don't mention it on any of our other social medias either, only on this blog, we have many embarrassment about it, esp being a fictional introject

Our question then is how do u get rid of the shame and the fear that other will judge you

I don't know

I want to be open to friends, but I don't know how to handle being judged, we are not very strong

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It confuses me when people who are cool with non-disordered and spiritual otherkin are against the concept of non-disordered or spiritual plurality

I don't get how you can accept the concept of

"I am a fox, this identity is not caused by any mental illness"

or

"I am Sailor Moon, this Identity is not caused by any mental illness"

but somehow the concept of "we are multiple people in one body, this is not caused by any mental illness" is too much for you