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Daily Thoughts 18

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Hey everyone, Today will probably also be another short one, but I don't know for sure. I spent the day relaxing as it is my last day off for now but by the end of the day I knew I needed to work on school work. In this school work I had this thought. How different would the world look if at different points of time and history happened differently.

Like what would the world look like if the Romans never expanded to take over Britain how would those changes effect the world today. Would it, I think so, what about if the Germanic tribes that came after them or the Vikings. What if we go further back, what if we look at Egypt. What if the world was run by women, what if Cleopatra made drastic changes and the kept going.

The list continues we cannot know how one change can affect the world but would America be where it is today if any of these major events either never happened or happened differently. What could our alternate realities look like? Maybe I will look into this over the next few post and see.

-Kate February 3, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 17

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Hey everyone, Today I spent the first day in a long time just relaxing. I finished another book which is way more reading than I have done in the last few years as far as actual books. So I just spent my day sitting in our living room, reading and drinking tea while my family went about their business. Though explaining to a five year old that mommy needs a minute to finish the sentence was something new my daughter had to contend with.

It was a nice break and much needed, for the past year I have been going to University. It's been a struggle to get any of my hobbies in around that. I think in the long run, however, I am thoroughly enjoying it too much to be to upset by that. Not that it wasn't a struggle, that's besides the point, I needed the break and took advantage of my free days this weekend to give in to the desire.

For a suggestion though, anyone with five year old's, be prepared to be interrupted if you are out with your child. I would say that because of that I don't really have much to add to any discussions of deep thought or anything going on. Short one today folks!

-Kate February 2, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 16

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Hey everyone, I think I am going to move on from the borders conversation, I have said all I am going to say on that. I think that for now I want to just get into February, it's a new month. So lets get into the origins of Valentines day, the way its celebrated and see how other's celebrate the 14th if at all. So as we know it Valentines day is on February 14th, today it is a holiday for romance and relationships and celebrating being in love. Obviously, this does not work for everyone because they are not in relationships at the time. While there are a lot of legends attached to Valentines day, the first set of Valentines only started showing up in the 1500's and by the late 1700's formal cards were officially being printed. In America, the first printed cards didn't happen until the 1800's. In other countries the holiday of love is celebrated but often on different days and calls the day different things. Brazil for example celebrates something like Valentines day in June calling it "Dia dos enamorados" which translates to "lover's day". In China the celebration is in August during their Qixi festival. In the Czech Republic they celebrate, more recently gaining population, in May. Japan split the day in half, women give gifts of chocolate to men in February and in March Men return the favor on a day called white day, with gifts of white. Korea follows this but adds an additional day calling it black day for singles, where they go out and order a special dish called jajangmyeon, which has a black sauce in it. I am not about to do a deep dive so this is where I leave it. -Kate February 1, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 15

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Hey Everyone, I am going to continue the conversation from the last few post, it's just too thought provoking for me. I kind of spiraled in my last post and asked about the future and space and how that might be the event that changes our prospective on citizenships and boarders.

I want to talk about how it could be possible now, lets face it, whatever happens in the next few weeks, months, years something fundamentally is changing in America. That's not to say that we wont have to fight ridiculously hard to make those changes. I think that this is another bout of political theater.

Look at how bad things are, wont it be nice to just go back to the status quo. That's what they always do, so we will have to keep fighting. No matter how this happens, or what happens. I have said before, not that I remember if that was on here or not, that as much as I despise the man, what he stands for, and everything he's doing, that slogan 'Make America Great Again' yeah this trash is actually a valid slogan.

Now before you all go on a tailspin, it's true, the problem lies with implementation. He's not doing it in a way that is actually going to work right. If he was we wouldn't be trending as the New Hitler regime. I think that our government, our people, need to look at other countries, fully look at them. Find what's working, what the people like or makes easy and adjust, it's not just the healthcare right. Japan has free WIFI, in Finland they don't have homework (they are a top leading country in schools though), China the government provides health care. In plenty of other countries there's no sales tax, Universities and colleges are not privatized and therefor cheap.

This long ass tangent isn't just for that, there was a point to it, which is we can't just catch up right. If America needs to be great again we have to keep going. If we had open boarders, something that we announced to the world even though we never truly did, then that would be the first step. Yes, I will give you that there is risk to that, and if we get our shit together, those risks can be worked on.

I'm not saying that there isn't a process to it right, if we consider things now, if we look at the concerns. Not the shit that people like to spout so they don't sound racists, but the real concerns. Those that are criminals, we need to have a plan on how to handle that. I am not even going to take those that are crossing the border illegally, we can't control that now. Maybe a big part of that is because of the restrictions on visa's and citizenship.

If there is no reason to apply for citizenship, then there is no reason for visa applications to be so difficult. I think we should still have those applications don't get me wrong, but it shouldn't be so difficult even born American's struggle with it. I think there should be a process time for those wishing to stay longer than a week or two, or that are vacationing to ensure that we know whose in our country to stay.

I think at some point global citizenship will be a reality, and if that's the case than America, this great country that we live in, land of the free, should be leading that fight.

-Kate January 31, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 14

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Hey everyone! I feel like today is opposite, I have so much to talk about, I am struggling to pick a topic. I think even if I list them I am still not sure I would be able to speak on them all. Apart of me wants to continue to hypothesize more on yesterday's post, another wants me to talk about writing and ideas for books, and another still wants to dive into the political situation we find ourselves in.

Personally, I want to continue discussing this "no borders" idea from my last post. I can't be the only one whose thought about or tried to piece together what it would take for the world to have no borders. I am not talking about just having open borders, right, that's already a thing for most countries. Maybe it can't be accomplished just yet because there is no need. At this point, every country is concerned with how their government survives, how it should be run, to keep the status quo.

If we think about it that status quo is becoming harder to deal with, for a variety of reasons. What happens then when we start exploring space? When we start trying to reach beyond our skies for living relations. How do you colonize space? Not just planets but space? If we consider space as a livable area then does that change the way we look at Earth, broken up into countries, each owned by a governing body.

Does the citizenship become dualistic, one for the Earth bound humans and one for those in space. Is this the event that is necessary for governments to even consider open boarders, when it no longer matters. Or will it still matter will we still want that separation, if our governments is still governing each place but there's no boarders is there really a fight.

I know its about mixing for some countries, to be honest I haven't really looked into the laws of every country, that aside I am really interested in this process. So far I have been hypothesizing the idea of something like this. Maybe I will get past that and look at the realities of it eventually.

-Kate January 30. 2025

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Daily Thoughts 13

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Hey everyone, As we continue on this path, I am struggling to find topics to continue on about. I really should plan these out more but I am still flying by the seat of my pants. It's worked out so far but now I am struggling. I am also at work so the thoughts are not so free flowing as before.

Yet, here I am a few hours later continuing where I left off and unlike yesterday I am not going to delete my previous writing, cause past Kate was valid. Before November, I had this question and it seems even more prevalent now than before.

How would we create a world citizenship?

What I mean by that, is what would it take for us as Earthlings to live as citizens of Earth. To have countries obviously, because they are established, but to not have borders. The way I pictured it, right is wherever you are born, that's where you hold your localized citizenship. For ID's it would be passports but held and carried more like drivers license.

Essentially you can move and go wherever it is that you would want to and after the first initial registration of citizenship you could renew the passport however often its needed. My problem becomes, governing, right because each country has their own government and views. Each country has its issues with other nations so how do we work around that.

We can't vote for one rule, over all, that wouldn't be accepted. We could keep it as each government controlling their own lands but all laws about citizenship remain the same. There might be issues with that but its the route I see overall happening if it's ever a process that can be followed. I'm sure there's other things to consider if I am being honest, I know there is but I have very little time to write as of now. Perhaps I will speak more on it later.

Also, lastly Happy Chinese New Year, Welcome year of the Snake!

-Kate January 29, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 12

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Hey Everyone, I actually was going to talk about something else today, had a whole different picture picked out and everything. I have tried to watch how I say things, momma always said "no witnesses" that means not writing it down, not recording it, not telling anyone.

I have lived by this rule for a lot of my more questionable thoughts, even as I write this I debate the merits of speaking up. I realize though, that at some point, something is going to crack. Be that us as citizen's, other nations, or just fractures from the inside.

I feel like that will happen before anything that I say can be taken issue with. It's not that I am pompous or arrogant enough to think that what I say can cause for others to come down on me and mine. I just don't want to give them that opportunity. Motivational fears aside, spiritually over the last few weeks I have been pushed to watching and observing.

While the call to action hasn't been broadcasted as of yet, that doesn't mean that I don't have thoughts on what I have seen. More specifically the video on TikTok that I watched. A creator was talking about the trade war that our unfortunately established leader started with Columbia. I happen to like their coffee, they always roast it so good. That being said, his big thing was and I quote:

"It's going to be the world against the US."

I have serious problems with this, not the opinion he has, as some one who can see the patterns I too can see this out come. The first problem I have with this is, is that in reality it's not likely to happen. The reason being, the recorded back pedaling that we all know happens when 'he's' backed into a corner. The second is, as much as I don't have faith in them, those in position to make changes will care too much about their lives to allow for anyone to get close enough.

So this just reads as fear mongering and I get it, everyone is allowed to have their opinion. Everyone, for now, can express that opinion, even if we think certain ones should sit down and shut up. He can get on social media and speak his fear out there, and it's fine. Times like these though, you are just taking up time and space that I don't have.

For my own thoughts on it, should we get to this point where the other nations turn on us. I say 'good' if our own government wont step up. Won't step in and stop what is happening, then good, let them come. At this point our own country has spoke big and bad for so long and done whatever they wanted to others it's about time. Do I realize the damage, do I realize the changes, the bad that could come from this.

Yes.

That doesn't mean I don't pay attention. Everyone is so up in arms about how we used to be the best and they want to go back to that. We can't. To be the best, to continue to strive to be better than other nations, hell even equal at this point, we have to move forward. If the only way we can do that is to let that man burn everything to the ground I say, not my monkey.

It's still my circus, or at least I am apart of it but I think if we want to get back to being a leading nation, we need to look at what's working elsewhere and incorporate that into our system. We need to be working, not just with our allies but everyone to continuously stay on top of what's working and incorporating that. For so long we have been bullies, now is the time for the redemption arc. What is happening now is just the beginning and those of us that don't have a lesson to learn for how ever long we are stuck, all I can say is buckle up.

It's going to be one hell of a ride. -Kate January 28, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 11

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Hey Everyone, It's a late one, but I have been fighting for my life. For the past two weeks I have been detoxing from caffeine. I was drinking an Energy drink in the morning, with a coffee right after, then for lunch I would have a soda, and for dinner I would have another soda.

So last week I dropped from all of that to just the Energy and replaced the rest of the Caffeine intake with tea. Granted it was black tea and herbal tea, so the black tea was caffeinated. I still had massive withdrawals with that and ended up with cluster headaches for four days. Migraines happened but I was determined.

This last weekend I stopped the Energy drinks, and for the last three days it has been mostly Tea. I have had a few soda's to balance out the caffeine withdrawals. That being said, I had a migraine form around noon and it knocked me out. I am still feeling the effects of the migraine so this may be the only thing I say or it may not be coherent.

My goal is that once all the soda in my house is gone than I will be able to detox from the soda. I want to be off Soda by the end of February, I would say January but its the last week and pretty sure there's still a whole case of soda from before I made the decision. I do want to tell you about the benefits that I have seen.

Honestly, my energy levels are higher, I am sleeping better, I am managing to stay awake a lot longer (as in no naps for me) and lastly my focus has been impeccable at both work and for school. I think that is why I have had a few post that are like, "I don't know what to say" and "I am happy or at least calm and not apocolyp-tizing anymore."

It helps that I have also lowered the amount of time that I am watching news, or doom scrolling. Anyway its been a day and I am still suffering from the brain fog, though its being combated by the vitamins that I take on the daily.

-Kate January 27, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 10

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Hey everyone, I really should think about what I am going to say now going forward. I feel like its all the same, I have been going with my inner thoughts. Lately, due to my detoxing from sugar and caffeine plus a few supplements, the spirals have slowed. I am happy and my thoughts calm, or at least what I want to share for internet. That being said, I don't have much to talk about necessarily.

It's why the picture, I choose each one based on what I am feeling. This kind of embodies that, she's sitting alone surrounded by the city as high up as she can get just watching. That is kind of similar to what I am feeling. Yes, I have my family and friends, I have work and school, but in the end it's so lonely.

I have thought about creating a group or having a meet up in town for women. We have a "garden club" but I don't know that I necessarily care much about that. While I am going to be doing my own garden and starting that soon, I don't want to have a group get together for just "gardening". I also don't want anything church related, you know, I am not against the church or their women. I just find that those groups are more about church than getting together.

I should probably look it up and see if there is anything like that in town before I go through the logistics of what we do and when or where. It would be interesting to see it grow or expand, having those community meet ups of just women. I don't know if its something to truly look into or not but it could be fun to think about. Plan it out.

-Kate January 26, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 9

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Hey everyone! Today is a little late just got up and got moving. So last night I got on the app, it almost immediately dragged me down. Not in like a depressive state or anything, but I just got angry and my anxiety skyrocketed. I guess the saying is true, "ignorance is bliss" cause like I have been better the last few days.

Yesterday was the first day that I really noticed it, but once I did notice it wasn't hard to see the trend. We still need to be informed, of course we do, but I think I am going to time myself. Instead of doom scrolling I think what I want to do is go ahead and time the amount of time I spending. Like that study method the Pomodoro technique, 50 minutes of news gathering a day.

I don't actually know if that's better but I'm thinking, at least in my busy life it might be a good idea anyway. I don't really have much more to talk about right now, I have school to get on with and not a lot of time to accomplish it.

-Kate January 25, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 8

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Hey Everyone, So it's Friday..... we survived. I was in it too, or at least my feels. I'm currently detoxing from caffeine and it may have caused a lot of emotional hardship I wasn't aware of. I think that was also the cluster headaches.

But we made it, I survived, and now I am feeling way better. My family is glad its over too, though not completely. I have still been having some caffeine it was necessary to get through the week. That being said I think it's time for a topic or something to be talked about.

I don't really have anything on my mind that's weighing heavy, classes have been okay. I had higher hopes for them but its not the content I am made at or anything just that I was hoping to be more interested in it. Family life, is good. Been a bit rough this week with the detox and class work. Work life hasn't been bad a bit busy but nothing like I know it will be later in the year.

All in all I am relatively normal today, it may help that I have stayed off social media for the last few days. It's good to be informed but it's also good to take a break and step away. The thing to remember is that you have to return, you have to continue to see what's happening around the world and inside your orbit.

Honestly I don't have anything else to say so....

-Kate January 24, 2025

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Daily Thoughts uhm 7

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Hey everyone, Today's a weird mix of emotions for me. I have been detoxing from caffeine and its been causing some problems but I knew to expect them. I have stayed off of social media so far mostly except for my venture this morning when I was first waking up.

So I'm calm but also just ready to rage, and its not like the rage of let me scream it out and be good. It's like seeped into my bones, I'm tired of this shit lets burn it all down and start again. I know I'm not alone but for a couple of days I sat and watched. There's still this undercurrent that's whispering in my ear, "Continue to observe."

Also, its like a fire burning just years of abuse and anger but there's no where to go. So for now I sit silent and wait and watch and prepare. One day, and one day soon, things will be happening and the world is not ready for it.

Change is coming, there's no doubt about it, what it will be and what it will look like is not something I know. I have my idea's my desires but that's me, others have the same ones, and others still are watching and waiting hoping to take the advantage being shown and served on a platter.

It's going to be very interesting over, not just the next few years, but the next decade or more.

-Kate January 23, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 6

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Hey Everyone, I think today I want to switch the narrative. I have been in the feels lately and I think its important to counter balance. This can be difficult sometimes but it is important. Today I plan to read for fun, I still have the homework to complete and I will. Always plenty of reading in college but I will be making time to read.

I have been putting it off because I have been wanting to do a reading journal and writing out my thoughts for every five days. Truth is I don't have time, you see my sister and I are doing a thing where we send each other books each month and I still have to look at the one I plan to send her in February. So in the words of that one scene from Bridgerton....

"DAPHNE YOU MUST MAKE HAST!"

I honestly thought I would be better at this but I have allowed outside distractions that I plan to disengage with now. It's why I am taking my morning to do this instead of trying to get it at night. Anyway, I was wanting to switch the narrative but I think I just turned left and kept going. I think switching the narrative is important, though, just like in November, we have had our chance to freak out and mourn. Now it's time to work.

Again I don't know what I can offer in these times, I think back to women from before and they had so much more community than we do now. I want that, I want to be able to come together with like minded women and be able to chat. Have actual conversations and spread words I think for a long time we have been isolated.

Its why I think so many people are amazed by Xiao Hong Shu because it's a huge community for women. Yes, men are on there and yes, they post too but the majority of the app is women and community. I think we have to bring that back here, in America, I just don't know where to start.

-Kate January 22, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 5

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Hey everyone, I realized something this morning, something that I think a lot of us are feeling. I woke up and couldn't understand at first, but I knew something had been wrong for a long time. Honestly, it was like a slap in the face once I realized it. When I think back over the years and consider it all I can see it.

I'm tired.

Like fully exhausted, to my bones, over everything. I just want out at this point I feel like anywhere is better than here. That being said I also have this undeniable rage. How can we have gotten this far? How can most of a population of a nation be standing here screaming and no one in that government want to help? How long are we going to have to scream before we get a breath? Is there a way for us to stop and breathe on our own...It sure doesn't feel that way.

I have a lot of conflicting thoughts, a lot of conflicting emotions and I'm trying myself to not state them all so plainly. I don't want the alphabet soup to start focusing here. I just feel like everyone is watching these things happen and no one is actually going to do anything.

Then I think, should I do something? Should I be doing more? What can I do? How do I help? How many of us are just sitting here waiting for someone to step up? How many of us are like me in my area? Can I get a group together? Can I do anything?

I'm going to use a quote from Harry Potter, I know, I Know, JKR is a whole other bag of worms but this is from the actress who played Luna in the movie and I never actually verified what Luna said in the book but here it is:

“Well if I were You-Know-Who, I’d want you to feel cut off from everyone else because if it's just you alone you're not as much of a threat.”

I'm probably not the only one that feels this way, sure, but when do we stop sitting and when do we act.

-Kate January 21, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 4

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Hey everyone, You will have to excuse today's ramblings, I am battling a migraine. I honestly am not sure I have a lot to say today there's really nothing philosophical or even slightly venturing out there for me to discuss. At least nothing that hasn't been said before I feel like everyone is saying all the things that need to be said. Myself I have a lot of thoughts, I have a lot of considerations, and I don't know how to eloquently pose those to people.

Plus it terrifies me to allow others in to know that side of me, I feel like posting here takes away some of that. You know like the only people who are going to know its me is myself and my FBI agent. Then I remember the name and realize that yeah anyone who knows my social media handle can be in on that as well. Pretty sure I am the only one that would know on here so not to worried.

I could continue on in how fear runs through me and probably a lot of us. I don't want to though it seems like a downer that I don't want others to feel on top of everything else. It's not necessarily that I don't think it's important but just that it's something most of us feel so I don't need to put it into words. Plus this is already getting long for a post I hadn't really had a plan for. I didn't even start it like I had been, "I should be working, I should be doing homework, I should be present in my everyday."

At this point I think I have said enough, maybe later when I have hopefully slept this migraine down I will have more but my head is both spinning and stationary so.... - Kate January 20, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 3

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Hey everyone, It's the day after, I found myself thinking last night about time. The concept, the creation, it's management all these thoughts filtering through like a train stuck on a track. I thought about how we consider time in our day to day and in our lives. I realized that a lot of pressure was placed on time and that if we all had more flexibility with our time stress wouldn't be so bad.

I thought about how I always felt like I was out of time, or never had enough. That I was trying to find ways to schedule and structure my time planners, journals, apps. Ultimately I realized that my schedule was to revolve around this idea of the corporate world, right? I had a question then:

If my days were built around me what would that schedule look like?

I would probably wake anywhere between 9:30 and 11:30 in the morning. I would eat, do some yoga or some exercise, then get ready for work. Shower, dress, and make up then I would head to the office, it's currently a work from home situation. I would take an hour break, I generally eat on the clock, at some point probably around hour three or four of working and then finish the day.

By now it's dinner time so I would fix dinner and take plenty of time to rest and relax before working on school work and then heading to bed somewhere between 11-1:30 in the morning.

There's more to consider than just me, myself, and I though and one has to wonder how that would change the patterns. I have a child and partner, do we work together so each of us gets what we want and balance the child. What about schooling, for them, does that also remain on a schedule that works for other people.

In my honest opinion there's plenty of people who like to be up at the crack of dawn, my partner is one of them. They could potentially be the ones to run the schools, and if we are in perfect world scenarios why not have multiple start times. For that matter I think almost everything can be on a rotating schedule. You get up when you want, start work when you want, end when you want, and still manage your life.

Why is this not a thing?

-Kate Jan. 19, 2025

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Daily Thoughts 2

Hey everyone,

I should be doing homework, I should be reading about philosophers and contemplating reality and truth. I should be spending time with my family. The world is falling apart or at least it seems like it is in America. There's protest everywhere and I should be amongst them, I should be living but mostly I'm sat here at my computer and looking at my phone.

It's not just today that this happens, it's not just this moment in time or a previous one. When I was younger I often would look around and wonder at the passage of time. At my place in it and how much I actually have accomplished. As I write, not just this, but my stories flowing from my mind, through my veins, twitching different fingers so that the tips of them connect to a keyboard.

Spelling out words across the screen, I wonder if it will matter. I wonder if my thoughts and stories will make a difference. I am at war with myself, wanting these stories out in the world and grasping them close like a toddler and their Blanket. Fear is something that I consider when I think about sitting down and writing them and then fill my head with thoughts of 'what if'.

Time still moves, four years now I have actively thought about writing for publishing. One year I have actively been attending university for writing, learning the ends and outs. I have spent a lifetime creating stories, reading more, taking lessons in pop culture. In any other profession one would think a life time of experience is way more valuable. That much experience no way I can fail and yet, that tired worm rears its ugly head again and wiggles just enough in the back of my mind to make me second guess myself.

Now I sit and stare at a computer and wonder, why am I trying to do this. What is the point of stressing myself daily? How do I keep going when I know that any book I write is in trouble of failing?

That last question has so much more wait to it now than it did a year, two, hell even 6 months ago. I think of all my ideas and I think of the way that politics has pointed its finger right at me. It's no longer about whether I can write but will it even be accepted. There's things I could do, places I could go but the truth is... as much as I sit here and complain about the way we live I don't want to go anywhere else.

Not forever.

Hell I don't even want to go for a long a month maybe two, not possible in the current conditions of American life but its the only other dream, I guess it could be called, that I have outside of writing. Well, that's all for today I think, I'll be heading off to do that homework now. -Kate Jan. 18, 2025

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