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i’m going to get better

In the morning i’ll walk

15 minutes

then i’ll sit in the sun and i’ll drink my coffee

I’ll do school work

and embrace the anxiety that comes with it like a scared child

i remind myself that an assignment doesn’t have to be a panic attack

and that school does not determine my worth of life

Then i’ll eat lunch

real food

and again i’ll embrace the anxiety that comes with it

I’ll take a shower

and make dinner

i’ll relax before bed

i’ll be proud of what i’ve accomplished without mourning what i didn’t

and i will treat myself kindly

through all moments

and i will get better

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you don’t talk too much. you aren’t too loud. you aren’t too needy. you aren’t too sensitive. you aren’t too this, or that. you aren’t too much anything. you will never be too much: you are you, and you are allowed to take up space. you are allowed to exist however you choose.

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Something no one really talks about when you’re alive long than you thought you’d be is that you don’t have an acceptable answer when someone asks what you want to do in the future and the fact that no matter what your answer is it doesn’t seem like enough. I’m in college right now for a degree I love, but people keep asking me what the goal is. I always say “I’m not really sure” or “oh I have so many things I want to do” but the truth is I just want to be alive. I want to be alive and live with my accomplishments. I never though out my future because I wasn’t sure I’d be there. So now when I think about my future I’m just happy that I’m alive in it and I think that’s enough.

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— Warsan Shire

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Do you ever feel like you miss out on life, because you are not able to socialize the way most people do?

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It’s crazy how low self-worth fucks with peoples lives

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me realising that ive never actually been 'in love' ive just got attached to anyone who gives me the slightest bit of affection. especially older girls.

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born to always mourn the present like it’s already become a memory

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“And you’re not used to being loved. You’re used to people being attached to you, or being fond of you, or depending on you, not loving you, not really. So I think it doesn’t occur to you that it’s something that might actually happen.”

— Ancillary Mercy, Ann Leckie

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I know it’s technically too early but it’s sad girl hours

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tell me in the tags

hoops or studs/sunset or sunrise/heels or flats/cherry or blueberry/perfume or bodyspray/night in or night out/cooking or baking/tequila or vodka/ penne or spaghetti/autumn or spring/festival or concert/gold or silver

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i always mean it when i say i love you btw

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Does anyone else get super embarrassed when you cry and then you get frustrated that your embarrassed so now you’re just angry and crying because me too

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Y’all ever fail a test and wanna kys or should I go back to therapy

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Fortesa Latifi, from The Truth About Grief.