covered-in-bones

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If we can die from a broken heart

then how the fuck am I still alive

[covered-in-bones]

They say to kill them with kindness… but what if I just kill ‘em instead

[covered-in-bones]

You were too nice to me and I was weary at first but you took your time and painted pretty pictures on all the walls I built to protect myself and I let you in and that’s when you left.

[covered-in-bones]

I could love you. Completely. I could. But the fear of you not being able to love me, too, keeps me from feeling these things

[covered-in-bones]

Do you think of me? When you’re lying in bed and you just can’t get completely warm? Or when my favorite song plays in your car? Or when the sky is cloudy and there will be rain soon?

Do you think of me?

[covered-in-bones]

If I’m loved, I should feel love….right?

[covered-in-bones]

I dance with grief the way you would dance with a lover, slow and sharing one another’s breath.

[covered-in-bones]

“You are rooted in parts of my soul that are untouched by the darkness. I will bring you the sun and I will be your warmth because as long as you are happy, those parts of my soul will remain with light.”

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My doctor prescribed me 50mg but I’ve got 800 sitting in the palm of my hand

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People stopped saying nice things to me so I became all the bad things they said.

[covered-in-bones]

“They don’t deserve you.” He said

But I wish he had said “I love you” instead.

[covered-in-bones]

I met you and decided to stuff you in the gaping hole in my heart but I have to let you go

I have to let you go

[covered-in-bones]

I thought about ruining my entire life for you; that’s what hurts the worst

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A Year Later

People don’t visit like they used to. After all their questions went unanswered and all their tears had dried up; they came less and less.

It’s been months since I’ve seen my mom. My dad doesn’t come anymore. My sister still brings me flowers but she doesn’t sit with me like she used to.

My flowers have wilted and there are weeds all around now. If I wasn’t 6 feet deep, I would pluck them myself.

If I wasn’t 6 feet deep.

[covered-in-bones]

I had always admired the color crimson red. It was passionate and fierce;

And pooling on the bathroom floor.

[covered-in-bones]

I gave in to the loneliness and some how became more lonely

[covered-in-bones]

I made a bed in that dark place and I don’t like being there but it’s home