crying-cryptid

[crying-cryptid]

a cold after noon without a sun;

a dense despair lingering on me,

i feel if on my chest,

it's getting heavier and heavier;

not even sure if i hate it;

there are days when i adore this despair

she comes quietly;

sit with me,

we say nothing to each other,

but we both stay;

holding hands we sit sometimes hours;

sometimes days;

i cannot hate her.

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who'll find me;

who'll find me if i disappear one day

like the speck of dust in the dark

who'll find me?

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you're my favorite reason to cry

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i buried our love;

i dug a whole in the middle of a wasteland,

and buried all the emotions;

i thought i was free,

i thought i could run;

but it came back;

it bloomed into a beautiful rose bush,

you adored the flowers;

and i adored the thorns.

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they don't know,

they don't know I'm starving,

I've a muscular bodystill i am,

starving;

i want them to notice,

i want them to feed me;

so i go around showing them my bones;

cause i want,

i want them to know;

I'm feeding on my own heart.

[crying-cryptid]

a cold after noon without a sun;

a dense despair lingering on me,

i can feel if on my chest,

it's getting heavier and heavier;

not sure if i hate it;

there are days when i adore this despair;

she comes quietly

sit with me;

we say nothing to each other

but we both stay;

holding hands, we sit sometimes hours,

sometimes days,

i cannot hate her.

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i do not want to be mine,

make me yours,

call me mine.

i do not like this body of my own

but if u say it belongs to you,

i will adore it;

i will love it like nothing else,

just let me be yours.

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one doesn't fall in love

they choose,

they choose who to love

the one,

the one they think

needs it the most

the tenderness, the comfort, the sunsets, the intimacy, the pain;

they gather all of them to give it to that one needy

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i allowed him to make a home in me

I'm all his,

I am him

so tell me when he's gone

what am i to do with this body;

this mind

he left something;

he took something

and i don't think there's me

without him.

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somedays i don't want to be this body

i want to melt

i want to melt in him

to be recognised as him

to be a part of him

to be him.

[crying-cryptid]

i wish i could love someone like a hozier song

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i can see him making a home in me

when i look inside to see myself

all i see is him

I'm all him now

that's how i love