When ppl try and say they have OCD because they’re “clean” LOL
I love this video so much. I thought I was the only person who experienced these things. this made me feel normal for the first time in my life.
to any other neurodivergent people out there: you're not crazy, or deranged, or disgusting. you're not a bad person. your intrusive thoughts are not your desires. and you are not alone.
ableists don't even make eye contact with this video.
To Escape, or embrace? Conflicted, I tried to explain, I write for daunting reasons, but the living, they look at me strange. Desperate, demanding, that somebody listens to what I have to say, I consult with ancient voices, hiding within the walls. They cower answerless behind their fear, begging desperately, for an answer, one that will make them disappear.They reveal their most definite truth, suffering every second of every day, listening through the walls, loathing, all that i have to say. The dead, they’re conflicted too. Voices, resurface their memories of breathing, for them it feels real, they really love that they can see them. Then again, sound pierces through loneliness like a knife, mortified, it jolts their fear awake, and brings it back to life. Invisible, concealed, they don’t wanna be saved, they’re comforted by loneliness, they like it better this way.
They’ll miss me when I’m gone, that’s if I ever break through, we live in a word of conflict, the afterlife too.
“When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down ‘happy’. They told me I didn’t understand the assignment, and I told them they didn’t understand life.”